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[Wanttobebetter2011]

Ok, well, here it is, I have started tapering off of a 4-5 per day Norco 7.5 habit, but have been struggling off and on with pill addiction for 12 years.  There are times when I would get off of them and stay sober for awhile, but then I would relapse, mainly due to something stressful in my life happening, I have poor coping skills obviously lol.  My husband has stuck with me through the years with this but I think this time he is near the end of his rope.  Understandably so.  
I am taking 1/2 of Norco 7.5/325 3 times a day now, I'll do it through Christmas, then 1/2 a tab twice a day for a week, then 1/2 once per day then stop.  I know there are so many on here who took so much more than me and are going through much harder WD, my issue seems petty.  The anxiety is pretty bad, worse in the mornings and then better by the evening,  I think I would be doing better if my husband wasn't so upset with me.  I wish he could understand how an addict's mind works, that I don't do this to intentionally hurt him.  I'm taking Buspar for anxiety, but it takes a few weeks for it to get full effect.  I have an appointment with a counselor on Thursday.  I'm scared.  I need my husband to support me.  I'm giving him space so he can process all of this.  But he's my rock.  I just need reassurance please.  I want to be the old me, not the foggy me.  :.(

[Wanttobebetter2011]

Thank u so much for the encouragement.  This site is a Godsend! Dominosarah, IBKleen, are y'all there?  I saw u quite a bit back in 2009 when I was going through this.  Everyone on here is such a big help.
My doctor is aware of my problem, and she flagged my chart.  She prescribed this taper which my husband is supervising.  I want to do this this time!! I want to be clear-headed, free from counting pills, and worrying about ways I can keep my habit going.  Enough!!! My kids and family need me.  I have been fortunate and blessed to have a supportive job and supervisor, this thankfully has not affected my job, but it was only a matter of time.  Thank u to those who have responded to my posts! It means so much! God bless and I will check in later!  

[GA_need_help]

Hi, I just wanted to tell you that I am tapering right now--a slow taper from a very strong medicine, Opana ER.  I am here for support.  I know this may not be nearly as much medicine as I am on, but (even if it is greatly psychological) it is a giant struggle for you.  You need support too.  We can get through this.  2012 is our year to have victory!  
Big Hug,
Marie

[ICUshorty]

ICU shorty here, believe me its not worth falling off the horse now, my husband od'd three times each time I had to give him cpr while waiting on emts... Enough was enough went to methadone clinic had enough of that he did his detox, while I couldnt hack it so I used my meds one time to take the edge off, ended up dead in er and three bag narcan drip, breathing tube, and heart shocked, because it was an overdose nothing for pain, you do detox from the narcan, and the look on my husbands face when I woke up in ICU I cant ever forget as I'm sure he'll never forget mine when I revived him or had to watch emts shock his heart... Hang in

[Innerstrength67]

Hi, you can do this. But you will have to do the work it takes. Putting down the drugs and then digging deep. I'm glad you are going for aftercare. It doesn't matter how many any of us take. We are addicts and can't do this without eachother. Because only an addict can truly understand how you feel. I used recreationally for over 10 years. I could always put the pills down for a while but TNT disease was always waiting for me to feel bad and then it would grab me. I went into full blown addiction 2 years ago, broke, quit jobs and my partner was going to leave me if I took one more pill. I'm in NA and it helps a lot, along with the amazing support here.
We just want you to get and stay clean and find inner love and peace. Your situation isn't minimal. That's your disease talking. You belong here!
Hang in there! Anything is possible with support. We can't do this alone.