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[cruz214]

Thank you so much for your support. I thought about this website just now and decided to log in after a longggg time being on. I looked back at my post from 2012 and I've seen how far I have came. Being pregnant and a heroin addict scared of losing my child and NOW, working full time, have a happy 2 1/2 year old, and MOST OF ALL, clean and sober for that amount of time. I honestly don't keep track of the day I completely quit since I take it DAY BY DAY and don't look at the past or future but I'm almost certain it was November 2012 that is for sure my clean month. Of course I go through moments where I miss it because I am "still" a drug addict. I hate it. Well, my son's dad/my husband has gotten out of prison after 3 years. He was arrested when I was 14 weeks pregnant. He's been out since July 9th soooo, I think about 4 months and he's doing great. I try to keep the communication open so I sometimes ask if he misses using. Some people say that's a mistake but I honestly think it helps. You have to talk to someone about how you feel. All I have to say is, our son COMPLETELY changed our lives. It's crazy how your child can make you do a whole 180! If you ask me how I got clean, all I can say is it's because of my son. Because I want to be the best mother I can even though I messed up in the beginning. Honestly I don't go to NA meetings now. I was attending them w my husband but omg, all it does is trigger us. People talk about how much they miss it and let it all out. That helps some people but it just does not help us at all.
Now, my effects after almost 3 years clean: anxiety that comes randomly, leg pain is still there and makes me feel like I am having withdraws, and of course my mind that randomly starts thinking about the old days of getting  f'ed up.
Well thank y'all so much. And to anyone suffering and confused about getting clean, YOU can do it. Some of you are like me and can't/couldn't remember the days of being clean BEFORE being addicted but it's great! Trust me . And if you don't have kids, just keep yourself busy and constantly talk with people.

[Jerry198]

RIGHT ON !! post like yours gives so much hope to those struggling!

[jaztulip]

Thanks for sharing this, really good to hear the happy stories reminding us why life without drugs is great.

[dominosarah]

Hi cruz~  Nice to see this great update!!  Sounds like you are living life on lifes terms.  Hard to believe that "baby" is already 21/2!!  Always keep your guard up and do whatever it takes to stay clean, your life depends on it~

Congrats!!

[spider6]

Lovely post. Congrats on all your happy successes! Cheers, ((((8))))

[VICourageous]

Nice Up Lifting Post for sure!

I do remember your name around here in 2012. You had joined in Sept of 2012 and that was my clean date, even through I did not join on here until 3 months clean. This site has saved my Life too, as so does my meetings. I am in a small town and I have never heard any body go on about missing the High. They just talk about how lucky they are to be alive and still working at it day by day! Glad You stopped bye. Come on back and Support others along the way.
Bless
Vickie

[Frogger76]

Great post!! It's amazing how much a little one can change your life, and all for the better. So happy for ya!