How come day 5 is still so bad?

[1st24]

I'm in the middle of day 5, and I really feel terrible today.  Restless leg syndrome is back, and feel cold, shaky, depressed, anxious.  And really alone.  Any suggestions.  I'm on the recipe.

[MethMan]

Thanks for all your help along the first two weeks of this twisted mind-bender.   Day 13 for me is a little rougher than Day 12.  I guess it does that for a little while, but it sure isn't ANYTHING like the first week.  Man... going through that ONE TIME for me is good for life.
Currently, the doc told me that my fatigue was because of a couple factors.  He said that first, the WD are still there plus he said that clonidine can do it after a while to you too.  So, he's tapering me slowly off the clonidine over a week period from .4mg per day to 0 in a week.  
One thing that did not expect was the home life going to $hit.  That's the last thing I needed during this time.  None the less, it is here and I will deal with it (for a little while).  If it doesn't get any better, then I am gone.
Anyone here had that one hit you?  You come home after 5 weeks of inpatient detox, in the deep withdrawals and can't jump up and down to go have fun and your wife (or husband) can't figure out why you don't want to "Go the movies" or some other event that you really can't make?  I calmly tried to discuss it with her by saying, "No  honey, Hubby can't go to the frickin' movies right now.  Know why? Cause my brain is not home and my leg cramps will cause bodily injury to the OTHER DUMB ASS in front of my theatre seat."
Let's see.. what would top this off..  Oh... how bout a couple of Black Ops helos circling the property, IRS rambling through my **** and Joe Buck Hunter missing his shot and putting a round through the house.  Yeah.. I think all that would get me "motivated to do something". Or, I could opt to go to the movies and when I **** my pants, just look around and say, "Sorry folks, I'm in the middle of detoxing and it's all natural.  Honey, did you bring the imodium D? Hubby needs it now." :)
No matter.  I am on a mission here.  I'm fixing myself FIRST, then I'll decide what's next.
Thanks for the space to rant...
All the best,
Mike

[LissaB]

Methman
It is great to have people to relate to especially going through something like this. Methadone detox is hell and knowing that that hell does pass is hard to believe when in the midst of it.
I think that you are at the end of the worst of it.
Life will be good soon!
You do need some support and if you can't get it where you live you should consider someplace where you can.
God Bless,
Lisa

Trout
I know what you mean about those intolerant type in AA.
I got into an argument with some guy that jumped all over a guy two days off herion. This guy said he didn't care about drug addicts and didn't want to hear it.
Gotta go

[LissaB]

Thanks, I did not see your post until today. You really helped me A lot I am so glad that I have made it to freedom! I never have to do it again! I am trying hard to make changes in my life so that I never lead myself back there. I go to NA meetings and for the first time I am not thinking "God, when will this meeting end!" I am actually getting something out of it and I feel better after. Thank you so Much! Lisa

[LissaB]

I am in South Florida, West Palm Beach, certainly a drug mecca of the world but there are a ton of old timers in the AA rooms  that are sick and intolerant and there are others who are awesome and have great recovery. Being new in recovery  (at the time I tried AA I was 2 weeks off methadone and feeling raw as hell)I could not deal with the ones who thought junkies should keep there mouths shut. I would get so mad it was counter-productive.
I was lucky to find an NA group with good recovery and people I could relate to. I have a great sponser and I feel like I will make it this time!

[bmac]

Hey,I got your message and I will do just that.I hope you are better today.I will get back with you soon.
                        bmac

[MrsRat]

I was in L. A., California for 1 1/2 years before I met my husband online and moved to Phoenix to be with him.  I HATED it there and I could NOT find ANY doctors who would help me with my 'gut pain' that would render me passed out on the floor next to the darn toilet on a regular basis.  They all tried to tell me it was in my head. Also, it's real hard to find a good neighborhood at times in that area.  I ended up in a 'nice looking' area, but ended up I was about the only one who spoke english and was a legal resident of this country.  I was scared to go out of my front door and didn't actually unless someone was with me. (I'm normally about 90 pounds and am 5 foot tall on the dot.)  I have NO desire to ever go to california again.

When I got here to Phoenix, while I didn't get the best medical care from the 'state system', I did get one Resident doc who did believe I really hurt, and instead of 'poo pooing' me, he ran a CT scan, which found my Crohn's Disease.  LOL.  I even have a picture of the foot of my small bowel they cut out of me very shortly after that.  By that time I was down to 72 pounds and had to be physically carried everywhere. (yes, I do have it up on a website should anyone wanna see me 'naked' from the inside out LOL.)  Sorry if you want gory though, it's a clean pic of what they took out, the surgeon must have cleaned it up before he took the picture for me, so my hubby could post it online to my Crohnie friends that same evening. heh.  We all hang out in IRC and talk about '****' a lot. (Yeah, I do have a very warped sense of humor and this WD isn't making it better I don't think.  If I lose it is when I'd start to worry.)

This is day 4.  My post on another thread earlier said I could not get the script filled my doc gave me till Tuesday.  Since that time I have found another pharmacy close to us that takes out insurance and that has it in stock.  2 of them in fact.  My hubby will go get the script in the morning and take it to one of them and get it filled for me. For those who have been following me in here and want to know my latest status.

MrsRat