lm ready to giv up and relaspe

[christina2010]

my bf gav me lil support this last week when I went through full  blown ROXIE withdrawls  I did it with nothin to help me get through it, I prayed and prayed my bf don't no much about roxie, now I'm on day 8 he is a total *** hole to me,  I just want to take a pill to comfort myself. What should I do....

[deadlift]

can u give me some advise please i take 1 to 2 30mg roxys a day and im scared of the withdrws what can i do? and i dont want to use suboxins

[deadlift]

i hate doing pills and want to stop. I do 1 to 2 roxy 30mg a day, how bad will the withdraws be and what can i do to be more comfortable...please help me

[MsDee78]

thank you all for the support...made me cry.

[dedicatedtostop]

Ha I Just commented and realized I was commenting on an old post.... So sorry

[dedicatedtostop]

I m just going to say this... Been there, done that in your EXACT situation!!!! Mine was a total you know what!!! Truth is, he was that way before and I use to take a pill to numb it out! SO NOT WORTH IT, I swear to you!!!!!! I learnt this the hard way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You need to focus on you, like I said I have been there done that!! If he makes you feel this way, that you have to take pills to numb it, then you don't need him in your life right now. You have to focus on YOU and only you right now. Worrying about this will not have a happy ending to your recovery. The truth is, they just DON'T understand what we have to go through.... Period.

Please pull through this, I swear to you I relapsed for this exact reason and it is SO NOT WORTH it!!!! If you have to, just be alone for a day or so, come here and talk to us!

[donewitis]

This is an old post. You should start your own..you will most likely get more feedback. If you really wantto be free of opiates then you can be. It is 2/3 mental and 1/3 physical. You will be sick (bad flu) for maybe 6 days. Scroll down to the bottom of page..see Thomas's Recipe/Amino Acid Protocol..Get most at Wal-mart (cheapest). These supplements /vitamins etc..will make it a little easier. Drink loads of fluids (gatorade)...get some Ensure, because you won't feel like eating,but it's important to have nutrition..it helps your body heal. Then you need to think about aftercare..be it NA, AA..threrapy..etc..if you want to stay clean. Persons, places and things...change that. Get rid of your source. My source was my dr...so I explained to her that I couldn't take then anymore...I was addicted. I 'woke' up, and realised that I just could NOT live like this anymore. You can do it too..for yourself first, and then your son...you both deserve it.
Wish you well.. God Bless You

[gnarly_1]

HI Welcome to the forum.........you have came to a great place for help the first thing you can do is educate yourself on how to do this by reading some of the posts your not alone and getting off these is very doable from home this is a bit differt then your meth addiction there is actually a physical dependency so your body is going to become uncomfortable for about a week the best thing you can bring to the table is a positive attitude it will get you farther then any other thing like meth this is a battle one or lost in ones own mind .....gewt comfortable with the saying.....''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' look to the lower right of this screen and look up the thomas recipe it will give you a few things that will make this a bit ez to do and post often for support ask all the questions you have we will try to ez your mind and dont let fear into the equation its always worst in our heads then it turns out to be.....also go to the to the top of this page theres a orange button marked post a question...it will start your own post you will get a lot more responses hope to see you post good luck and God bless.....Gnarly    

[MsDee78]

I am having Norco withdrawals. I have wasted a lot of time and money getting high on these pills. I have overcome crystal meth when I was younger and I would never go back to that again, but 10 years later find myself addicted to Norco pain medication. I hate myself right now, and I feel bad for my 3 year old autistic son, because I have energy for him.  I have had this hydro addiction for about 2 years now, but the last 7 months I found a constant dealer that always has the Norcos...this is day two no Norcos, I want off them for good. What do I do...I get paid in a couple of days and all I can do is think about getting more...but I need to stop.

[laurel453]

Hi, christina... please, read again the reason you give to use again.... there is always something or somebody that could make us use again, at the end, it is just an excuse..You have done great, congrats on those 8 days :) and now, please, you don't want to go back to active addiction because it is killing you so no matter who or what happens, stay on the clean path, you deserve a better life and the first step is a better christina, a healthy one... take care of yourself and to h*** with other people... be now proactive with your recovery, read the amino acid protocol, these aminos can help you, start to exercise, lead a healthy life, with healthy friends, healthy diet, aftercare.... there is a lot of rewarding work waiting for you !!! :) but never give up fighting active addiction, christina !!

[Skidmore]

Stay tough stay connected, and no mater what dont pick up good luck.Many of us have been through what you are experiencing right now. good luck i will pray for you my sister

[eyeofhorus2010]

Don't stress too much about your boyfriends lack of support. He just doesn't know how to help you or what to say. I've been married for 22 years now and as much as my wife loves me and understands me, she just doesn't get this.
Efforts to talk about what I'm going through and the need to get my feeling off my chest would usually lead to an argument. Not her fault, she'll never understand and I know that now.

There are just too many resources available these days to use that as an excuse. Might as well take a pill cause my BF/GF/Husband/Wife won't give me the support I need. That's the addiction at work trying to manipulate you once again.

You're at day 8 now! That's so awesome and just think in one short week you'll be at 15 days. That's usually the trigger point that reinforces our resolve that we can indeed do this. Don't give up now, the best is yet to come. Every addict here that has finally broken free from that cycle you're in now will tell you the same thing. Life is so much better now and the upshot is you'll come through this with a much better understanding of just how strong of an individual you really are. Put that in your pocket as you start going through life drug free and you'll find that there is nothing you can't do if you want it bad enough. The hardest thing I'll ever do in my life is beat addiction, everything else is just gravy.  

[Ballgame]

Why give up after such a struggle.  Dump him if he makes you want to use

[Jaybay]

Your boyfriend has probably been an a$$hole the entire time you've been together, but you didn't pay attention to his behavior while you were numbed out on roxy.  If you really want him to understand what is happening with you, go to an AA or NA meeting and invite him to go with you.

Try to remember that what you're going through right now is like giving birth.  You're going through a whole lot of pain and upheaval to bring forth a new you.  Your boyfriend only knows that the old you is gone (or on the way out) and has no clue how to behave around you.  In the past, he knew your likes and dislikes.  He knew how you would react to certain things.  No doubt those things are changing right in front of his eyes.  That's some scary stuff - particularly for someone who isn't also addicted.  Or is he?

Just as you are being reborn, your relationships are being reborn.  You'll find that some people in your life are toxic to your recovery and your life in general and you may have to go on without them. That's a very painful process, which is just one more reason why recovery care is so important.  You haven't made good choices while you were using, but you CAN learn to make good choices now and in the future with some support and encouragement.

[vicki595]

Don't take a pill!  Just don't take a pill AT something or someone!  Ignore him and get on with your day. Distract yourself!  8 days is huge;don't tumble backwards!

We do the work on our addictions. We can't put it off on another person to help. Support is great but in the end it's us. Take care of yourself!

Keep posting!

[Dannigirl210]

You are stressing and I think that is the one thing that makes you relapse. Don't take it. Try to relax. Can you talk to him? You are on Day 8!!! That in itself is so awesome. It's your head girl. Get a book, read some music, do something to try to get through it. Keep praying too.

Others here suggest NA, that may be a good place for you if you have no other support system.

Good luck and stay clean...

[gizzy32]

First of all congrats on 8 days now, that is awesome! Do not use, you have come too far and things will keep getting better with more clean time. Using is not an option! When something stressful or upsetting happens in our lives many of us want to turn back to drugs to help cope or be numb, I know I did and still do sometimes, but all that does is makes things worse.

Get yourself busy, keep talking and getting support and this too shall pass. Don't let this craving grow cause then your in trouble. Glad you posted, that shows deep down you don't want to go back down this road. Stay strong please.

Do you have pills on you now?