First of all, thanks for what you do for all of us. Your addiction started different than mine. You had sugery, i started taking oxy's for recreation to feel better. I guess I'm depressed and need to figure out why. I'm 55 years old, family 6 kids between my wife and myself. I smoked pot for 35 years both of my wives hated it but I didn't care. A friend (sic) sold me pot and said he takes oxy for back pain and first sold me some over 2 years ago. I was getting 50 60 mg every three weeks plus 75 soma muscle relaxers..I could have od' I was taking 3 a night to sleep. I want my life back!!!!!! I told my wife Monday at 5pm boy was she Pissed...my Doc prescride Diaazpine it has helped some so far 42 hours without any oxy..Last night was hell My body and mind scream for "Just one hit" Yawning running nose. I took 3 baths yesterday seem to help..I couldn;t sleep at all last night..Like I was wired all night. I'm lucky I have a Voice Busines that I work out of my house..My clients would fire me if they knew. Try the Thomas recipe Klonpin Vitamins and lots of warm baths..Lucky so far no diahraa and legs cramps. I would like someone to sponser me and give me guidnce. I am also getting shrivers and sneezing alot. I an sorry for the spelling mistakes. i JUST TOOK MY DIAAPINE hELP!
Focus on getting better for you first and the rest will fall into place. She is entitled to feel the hurt of the lies. Like i said our actions speak louder than words. This is all a time thing so be patient. Good things happen when we are clean.
Congrats on 5 days!!!!! sara
Think you sweetheart I just hope that I can make this up to my family and it just kills me to hurt her and because of my actions!!But I knew when she requeted that information it was over for me but it happened for a reason or I would still be using.Thank u for your great support and I will not look back!I want the old me back so bad I just hope that i can make it up to her!
Welcome back firefighter!! Sounds like you are finally doing something different this time. Glad to hear you are seeing a therapist. That will help a ton as we need to find out why we numbed ourselves up. Give your marriage some time to heal. Actions speak louder than words. Getting honest is the best thing you could of done as this secret keeps us sick. Stick around here now.......sara