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[bobby139]

You all  are helping me so much...Thank  You. I'm thinking about taking my doctor up on what he wants me to do. Like Brian said, sexuries can be dangerous. I havn't had one in over a year but was having them itleast once a mo. for 3 to 4 yrs. No I have no one to give out the pills to me. It's just me and my  kids. My oldest son is 16 but I don't want to get him involved. I'm just so afraid that if I get the script that I won't be able to take it like am suppose to. Knowing me I'll gobble them down.
God I've got to be strong, I was so excited this morning that i finally got strong enouph to admit I had a problem and finding all of you got me even more excited that mayabe I can do this, Ive gone over 15 hours, never have I gone more then an hour, but i do feel like **** lol. don't know still what to do.
I would feel terriable if my kids see me agian have a sezuire, but I feel awful when my little girl catches me taking a pill too!
God give me strength, PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Firefaery1023]

I think toxic has a great idea, if you are ready to quit you are just going to have to be strong.  Put the pills somewhere where they are not an easy access for you and take the amount that you have for the day in your pocket.  You only have those pills and you can't take anymore.  It takes a lot of will power but if you believe in yourself, you can do it.

[toxictome]

Welcome to the forum.There is lots of great help and support here.
I tapered also...if you have no on eto help you, tha tmight be the way to go. The wds(withdrawals) are less intense this way. I also put my pills for the day in a med dispenser and that's all i took. You sound ready to do this!!!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Good luck and keep posting!!

[FAITHFUL74]

Welcome, you are at exactly the right place! This first step to recovery is admitting to yourself that you have a problem... That is 1/2 the battle my ready and able friend! I am 2 months clean and am not looking back, of course there are days that I hurt, but, I will not fall into that trap again! I do not blame you for not wanting to involve your son, that is best. You dont want to spark his curiousity even if he has suspicions... if you can help it.
I basically quit c/t and is was not fun, but, now I am so glad I did. I did a very fast taper, almost literally no taper. I tapered for 2 days and had alot w/d's during the taper also. You can do this and you have to take it a day or even an hour at a time... it takes time to recover fully... Good Luck and God Bless!!!

PS... Those prayers do not go unheard!!!

[Firefaery1023]

Managment, I like your idea with the safe.  However your 16 year old probably already knows that you have a problem.  My entire family knew that I had a problem and no one said anything to me unitl I admitted it to them.  The only worry is that at 16 you don't want your son to find out what is in that safe or he might be tempted to take it. I don't know what your son is like, but at 16 I tried a lot of stuff.  

[newmanagment]

buy a small safe , or file box they are cheap at wal mart.give your 16 year old the key, and have him give you back the key on the hours you need it. He may get a little suspicius, but at 16 he is probably no fool anyway. God will give you strength , all ya gotta do is ask him for it , and stay strong and focused.

[cathy5841]

sweetie, your goal is to quit.  you are just gone take a different road.  the taper will be good cuz you can still function.  it just a little longer...and you have time.   you can so do this.  do the taper.  i know you are worried about taking them all at once but, if you kepp your focus on getting clean and taking only as perscribed you can do this.  a friend of mine got one of the nedicine dispensers with the week days on it.  when  she got her script she divided it up in there.  in the morning she would take all her pills for the day and put them on her dresser.  if she took more than she should she had to do without in the afternoon.  she would not get her pill box back out all day.  set yourself a goal and succeed. you are gonna do great.  keep on posting.
cathy