Alright, here we go, maybe...

[Samuraisam]

Ok, I've been hooked on hydros for a while.  I cant really remember how long, but at least a year.  I usually take between 4 and 6 7.5's a day.  I had my last one yesterday at about 8 am.  I got hooked on them after my wifes back surgery.  I totally feel like the scum of the earth.  At first it was fun, I had more energy and was a lot of fun to be around, played with my kids more etc etc...now i find myself totally depressed and despondent.  Today I left work early because of w/ds.   I just dont know what to do.  My wife and kids will be home in about an hour and I dont feel like I can face them.  I really have everything in the world going for me, a good job, healthy kids, great wife, american dream really.  I have just gotten to the point where I dont feel like I can ever be right again.  I totally want to get off these pills and get my life back.  The bad part is that I am scheduled for knee surgery for my ACL thursday after next.  I know the doc will prescribe norcos or lortabs.  If I can go without until then it will give me 10 days clean.  Im just afraid I will get hooked again.  Does the depression that comes with this go away after you are clean?  I have been taking lexapro for depression. but havent noticed a difference.  All I know is that my ten and seven year old boys deserve to have their daddy back.  I feel like i have let them down in so many ways.  I am desperate for help, any pointers will be great...

[Korley]

I think that most of your depression is coming from these pills. I have a tendency to be depressed, but the pills made it so much more worse. If I were in your shoes I would probably see if the doctor can give you non narcotic pain meds. I just know what it is like to get off the pills and I would rather deal w/ the pain than have to go through the withdrawls again, and for me the depression was so bad. I don't want to be in that place ever again!

[VicUser]

If you go through withdraws nw and then take hydros agian you will very easlily be back in the same boat. However if yo take then only when you absolutly need them and flush the rest then you may win on a couple levels, one they will help you with the pain from the surgery, but you can always try non-narcotic pain meds first, and second, you will see that you resolve to beat this is strong and will give you the added motivation to continue the fight.

The depression may be a factor totally seperate from the hydros, but they definatly don't help.

[Samuraisam]

Well they are not available.  My wife has a few but they are for her "back"  I really think she is probably hooked as well.  I wish I didnt have to quit twice.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Personally, if the pills are still available, I wouldn't quit until after the surgery. Why quit twice?