Weaning off of Hydrocodone

[Awat]

I have had back problems for about 10 years, I'm 32, but just recently I decided to go to the doctor to get pain meds. I was prescribed Hydros and they didn't help so he added Tramadol 50mg and upped my dosage of Hydrocodone to 5mg. It's only been a couple of months and I feel like I am getting addicted. I only take 2 in the evening because it wakes me up (I'm a student and I work from home) and then I take my normal Xanax to help me sleep. Sometimes I will take the Tramadol instead just to switch it up. Our son passed away last year and I went through a really bad drinking stage for about 6 months and when I finally thought I had my head on straight I found out about pain pills! I'm trading one for the other although I know I'm not an alcoholic I do know that I have an addictive personality. The pain pills seem to take away the pain in my heart :,-(. My husband doesn't know, but he's an alcoholic. When I finally told him that I was taking pills for recreational use he said nothing for fear of him having to quit drinking. (Just my thought on his thinking). We are both grieving and our marriage is struggling! Should I just quit cold turkey? OR have I even been on them long enough to be addicted? Thank you!

[Awat]

Yes, I was in counseling for 9 months and that helped me quit drinking so that I may be a better wife and influence to my husband. I became much closer to God and I believe that my husband is soon to follow. I did notice some leg cramping that starts around mid evening along with some shakes and a weird nervous feeling. That's why I believe I'm getting close to being addicted.

Thank you so much for your kind words! This is a small obstacle compared to what I've been through so  going to nip it now!

[tryingtocope39]

First of all let me say, I am so sorry for the passing of your son. I cant imagine the pain & can certainly understand your need to numb it! A parent should never have to bury their child. Do you get any kind of couseling for that? If not, have you considered it? I think in your case it may be crucial to achieve long term success.
2 months is not a very long time to be on the meds, but if YOU feel it is becoming a problem, then you must address it. Fortunately, because your use is light, you shouldn't have much in the way of physical withdrawals. Just quit now. You may have a little trouble sleeping for a couple nights, a little restlessness in your arms & legs, maybe some diarrhea. Nothing that cant be managed. Good for you for addressing the problem before it gets worse. Get you some good vitamins, drink plenty of fluids & eat well, and stay busy to keep your mind occupied. You can do this!
You have come to the right place for information & support, there is a ton of it here! I wish you all the best. Good luck!