Hydrocodone Withdrawals Kickin My Butt

[TiredOfThis3307]

Hello... I'm new to this site, found it while trying to find help for opiate withdrawals. I've been taking hydrocodone for about 2 years. I took my last one yesterday evening (more because I'm out rather than a noble decision on my part to quit.... although I do want to quit). The withdrawals are horrible, and I am at work going absolutely crazy. I tried to call in sick, but somehow here I am. I can get my medicine refilled this thursday... I'm trying to decide what to do. By then I will have been out for 3 full days.... and I think I remember reading the first 3 days are the worst? If I get my prescription filled I'll be right back where I started. I just don't know if I can stand this though, I have to be at work, and I just feel like I can't function. At all. I'm sick and tired and just... wow. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I started taking these stupid pills. I'm so tired of feeling like my life revolves around this dang medicine, how all my thoughts come back around to "when can I get some" or whatever. It is ridiculous being controlled by a pill.

I will be 27 on August 2. I have three wonderful sons and a great husband (who...coincidentally... also has a problem taking too many pills). I just feel so lost. Any advice would be really appreciated.

[Tamera76]

If you decide to do withdrawal at home, is there anything you can do or take to make it easier?

[peaceinknowing]

I agree with the above post when they told you that going to your PCP to get the refill is only prolonging the inevidable of what is there waiting for you to endure. Believe it or not, the longer you take the pills then come off of them -- the worse the WD is going to be for you when you DO decide to quit all together. It's easier said than done, we all know this. But I swear on everything holy right now, the WDs aren't as bad as what you think they're going to be, just as long as you keep posting and talking with others here on the forums about everything.

[TiredOfThis3307]

Well... I ended up NOT going to the dr to get my refill. I'll let you guys know how it goes.

[TiredOfThis3307]

You're right. I was talking to my coworker (she is in the same position as me, who knew this screwed up so many lives) about that just now. I keep making excuses as to why now isnt a good time- as if its ever a good time to have to go through withdrawals. I know I'm delaying the inevitable and I'm trying to justify the addiction.

I feel like there is the rational side of me that is just screaming at me to get a grip and put a stop to all this. Then there is the other side of me that feels like I don't have it in me to tackle this right now.

[tommm70]

The disease is talking to you right now. Your brain is gonna tell you whatever it can to get that substance into your body. I did the same thing. "one more refill", "I will taper next time" "I will tell him next time", "I can't afford to go through withdrawal right now, I will put it off for a refill or two" Those are all typical responses as we begin to realize we are addicts.

Only you can decide to stop. Planning to get a refill is reinforcing the disease and will only lead you down further
.
I am not teling you this to say you are wrong, ridicule you, or are a bad person I am just warning you that this road will not lead to anywhere good.

You are going to do what you are going to do, and noone can change that. Just realize what you are doing is called "justification" for you to continue using.

You said "I feel like a failure not just sucking it up and stopping." Remember it is not your fault, you did not ask for this. it is OK to have those feelings. But you can get help. You can get through this and learn about the disease and how to live with it.

You need to tell your doctor. thats the bottom line. If you have a "source", it is going to be next to impossible to stop without some sort of professional rehab.

I really hope you seek out help, and we will all be here to listen and offer our stories.
Good luck.

[TiredOfThis3307]

Thank you for the responses, I really appreciate it. I called a local doctor that does suboxone treatment, but they said it was freakin $1000 to get started. I can't afford that. At least not right now. The past 2 days have been HELL. I have a dr appt today, I think he is probably going to refill the stupid meds.... I talked with my family, I think I'm going to try and schedule a long weekend sometime around when I'll next be out of medicine, and just plan for the withdrawals. I'm going to try and cut down what I have been taking a LOT... just take enough to not feel sick, I guess.

I feel like a failure not just sucking it up and stopping. I had no idea what I was getting myself into when I started taking this medicine. It's been a nightmare.

It helps a lot knowing there are other people going through this. I really appreciate the advice and kind words and support....

[peaceinknowing]

Please keep posting here on the forums and let us all know how everything is going for you. I have to agree with the majority of the responses you've received thus far. If you get the script filled, it will only land you back to square one. Not only that, but everyone has WDs that are different than what others might go through. I truly think that by the grace of God, I didn't have as bad of WD as I thought I was going to have.

Give this a try, and just keep teeling yourself that it WILL end!

[mama23babies]

Also with my depressing mood and anxiety I have high energy moods in between. Is this normal to have such mood and energy shifts with w/d or am I going crazy??My anxiety has left me not want to be alone with my kids because I fear that I cannot take care of them. I really don't want to be alone at all. I have such racing thoughts that it drives me crazy,but when I feel good it is great. Is this normal?

[mama23babies]

Hi. I am going through the same thing. I am 26 with 3 children and a very supportive husband. I made the decision to quit on my own after 17 months just tired of feeling the way I was. I think my body was trying to tell me to take more pills. I tried to taper but had major anxiety after just cutting down 1 pill a day. I am on day 23 of c/t with the exception of one hydro after a surgery on friday. I have a script of 30 in my purse but don't have the urge to take any(most of the time) I just want to be done with this drug. My  withdrawls consisted of mainly anxiety attacks, night sweats, insomnia, and depression. Although I still have the major anxiety and depression with still some insomnia I feel better than I did while take these stupid pills. I just got to the point where they were making me more tired and irritable. Hang in there. If you really want to quit stick your mind to it and you will get through it.

Also anyone that has any experience with w/d. do you know how long the depression and anxiety can last??For me this is the toughest part. Any suggestions on dealing with that naturally(like vitamins or something?) I dont have much luck with Antidepressants and would rather not have to take a pill

[tommm70]

Start with telling your doctor you are addicted to pills. Then try and find a rehab program that you can work with. Addiction does not just go away after withdrawal. It is not even half the battle.
Get professional help, learn about this disease, and the ways to keep it from coming back.

[Iwantmylifeback22]

How did you taper naughty? please advise

[Iwantmylifeback22]

I'm in the same situation tot,
feeling sick depressed and not sure where to get help . I've been taking norco for 5 years now and i'm so tired of being a prisoner to this drug. The WD are so bad i can't take it anymore. I don't have any adice for you but want you toknow that you are not alone.

[whitie]

I am old stoner !!  what can I say !!
I really wanted whitey, but someone already snagged it, on a side note..........so now I'ze WHITIE...


smart on your part, nautyone...........it took me about 20 times getting kicked in the face before I woke up !!  ofcourse most of them time I was forced to go CT, I was going to handle better the next time,like superman and not over do it!!!........which never happened.


I have enjoyed your comments and advise,btw  :]

[NautyOne]

She says she really doesn't want to quit , but does.......so, right there says it.  I think she may be a good prospect for a taper....bad wording ...Ino, but I can't think today.  Think about how your feeling right now vs. a taper, and maybe that will give you more incentive.  The time I ran out of pills and had to go through withdrawal was the time I never did that again.  Learned my lesson, cause I didn't want to feel that again.

Whitee, Are you really 95?..lol.....You sound pretty hip.  95 withdrawing, working, at your age is pretty impressive...:-))

Anyway, to the poster.  If you need any taper advice, and would like my 2 cents since I have successfully completed one.  Feel free to Message me anytime.

I wish you well.

Luv,
Nauty.............

[CYMER]

You can do this...I also went CT and “worked” my through it all.  Sure it was rough, but if you focus and want it bad enough nothing will stop you. By Thursday you will almost over the rough stuff…why would you want to continue taking and go through all over again? There is a lot of stuff on this site to help mitigate the symptoms. For me it was just to post and know other are in the same boat as I was in that really helped me out. Good Luck... you are not alone.

[whitie]

yup, I have done the same thing you are doing about 20 times,before I woke up.


same story, had to work and deal with major WD's because I munched up all my pills.


I think sooner or later we all come to the fork in the road, and one of em is a dead end, with a turn around that we keep circling over and over,until we wise up and final get off the #@$%  street !



but I do think it is best to make a plan for getting clean. start with a taper program, then best to have some time off when you go CT. or you will have to rough it out at work, which I had to this last time......

the next script will by time, but thats it,the inevitable is soon to come. study your enemy throughly and be prepared.