Hi, I have not posted in a long time. Back in August 2010, I did a cold turkey w/d from tramadol and hydrocodone. I have had chronic back pain for years, and have been epiduraled, trigger point injected, facet joint injected, x-rayed, MRI'd, chiropractered, acupunctured, etc etc etc - none of which ever resulted in either a solid diagnosis nor pain relief. The meds were a last line resort. I have been on them for a few years. I have observed that my mental functioning is no longer sharp, resulting in some very embarrassing moments at work, and I began to just not feel very good. I blamed it all on a series of traumas in my life over a short time span; but I also suspected the meds. So I made a decision to just stop. I went by the Thomas recipe. Although I had no psychological cravings for the drugs, my pain level increased initially (which I knew would happen), then seemed to decrease for awhile, then returned back to its former state. But the most disturbing part of the w/d was the fatigue. It was absolutely devastating. Just brushing my teeth wore me out. Even after a month, the fatigue persisted with no end in site. I finally reached the end of my rope and took a hydrocodone and I got my energy back. But soon after I went into a horrifying clinical depression. It took a long time to get it under control, but my doc finally found an antidepressant that kicked in. I forgot to mention that I did not touch the tramadol again. That stuff is evil.
So, I am back on hydro, and tho I have energy for a couple of hours after I take one, it quickly wears off, the back pain returns, and I feel horrible again. I want to stop the hydro and confront my pain doc and tell her to diagnose my back pain and do something about it besides throwing drugs at me. But I am terrified of going off the hydro. After doing it before, my experience was awful. I would definitely taper it this time, but I am still frightened of the fatigue and depression. I am about to start a new business venture, and I need to be healthy and well and feel good and energetic. The fatigue was disabling - literally. I would crawl out of the bathtub and then lay on the bathroom floor, unable to work up the energy to dry off. I was not working at the time and was unable to look for work. It took about 3 hours in the morning for me to get out of bed, get some breakfast, feed my animals, put on clothes, brush my teeth, etc. I have not read of anyone on this forum having fatigue this bad after hydro w/d. I need to get off this stuff - I know it is ruining me, and has probably inflicted some irreversible damage. But I am unable to cope with the w/d. I feel so hopeless. I don't know what to do. Can anyone help?
Shelli