Hydrocodone

[Lovemyhorse]

Hi,
I have been prescribed hydrocodone for probably close to 10 yrs. Before that it was darvocet. I never knew what addiction really meant when I first started taking them for fibromyalgia. I know, I'm naive. Now I am worried that it's affecting my quality of life. I have become very lazy and I have very little desire to do anything.  This past year I have been slowly decreasing my activities. I stay in bed almost all day, many days of the week. I am 46 yrs old.
I have talked to my dr about getting off them and he's no help at all. He says to just wean myself off them. But I am very scared of the physical pain I get and the anxiety I feel while trying to taper off.  I'm scared to pin my dr down much more. For some reason I don't trust him. I feel if he gets mad he'll just cut me off. I'm not even sure that once the w/d's are over that my pain will still be bad enough to warrant taking them again. So I don't want to bug the dr about it.
I've thought about going to another pain dr for help getting off them while keeping my prescription just in case. Can someone please help me?  Also, I saw on TV today about ibogaine.  Is this something I should look into?
Please help. I don't want my life to be over. This has been going on for a very long time.
Thank you.    

[Lovemyhorse]

I had 2 at about 32 hours clean and 1 in the following morning.  But I haven't had anymore since and now it's well over 90 hours.  I'm doing pretty good.  I am taking a zanaflex periodically tho.  Also, I'm taking Ibuprofin.
How are you holding up?

[sunshinegal76]

Not gonna blast you. I feel the same way... if feeling like such utter garbage and have no motivation to move, why not a little bit to feel okay? I have told myself it's okay to give them to my boyfriend and that he will give them to me, occasionally, and only as needed. You know, the way they are originally meant to be used. Is that so wrong? Get thru the WD's until you no longer need them though. Thoughts?

Also, did you have had 3 in 80 hours or you quit?

Either way, you are doing really well Lovemyhorse!!! :0)

[Lovemyhorse]

Ok. I need to confess what I'm thinking about. I'm starting to think this hasn't been that hard so maybe I'm not really addicted. And if I'm not then maybe I'll just take 1 every now and then for the arm and leg pain.
I know this is flawed thinking. But I feel so crappy and unmotivated and maybe it will pick me up a little, if I keep it to a minimum.
Go ahead and blast me away. I know it's wrong to think this way but it can sound pretty convincing in my head. :(

[Lovemyhorse]

Thank you for that candid reply. I needed to hear that. So I won't get my hopes up and have them dashed to smitherines when I don't feel great. My husband said I'm at 88 hours now. I really didn't think I'd be able to take the fibromyalgia pain. But others who have it said the narcotics made their pain worse in the end. I'm beginning to see that myself.
Thanks again.

[freedom007]

80 hours is a great mark.  This is what I have found...that the recovery and feeling better goes in 2 day intervals.  Meaning...you will see big changes at hours 48, 96 and so on.  The challenging part comes in the odd days (hour 72 for example).  I was frustrated on days 3 and 5 because, although I felt better, it wasn't the big jump I experienced on days 2, 4 and 6.  I am not sure it makes sense...but did my best to explain.

The reason I am telling you this is to say, yes, the worst is probably over...but don't be discouraged if today isn't a drastic change...there will be plateau days, where things appear to stand still for a bit.  BUT KNOW THIS...you will not regress...and the longer you push on...the better you will feel.

I feel great during the day...but at 4 o'clock, my symptoms reappear.  Much less than the day before, but they do come back.  Anyway, frustrating...but doable and then your at the next day, feeling great.  

Very proud of your progress...80 hours is big...triple digits should be your next goal...and keep going from there...

[Lovemyhorse]

Thank you.  I didn't think anyone would be up. lol  It's getting a little better.  I guess I don't have much patience.  I gotta develop that awul trait.  For the most part it's not as bad as I thought it would be.  it's been around 80 hours and still no more slip ups.  Do you think the worse is over?  Anyone?  Thank you.