Hydrocodone

[Lovemyhorse]

Hi,
I have been prescribed hydrocodone for probably close to 10 yrs. Before that it was darvocet. I never knew what addiction really meant when I first started taking them for fibromyalgia. I know, I'm naive. Now I am worried that it's affecting my quality of life. I have become very lazy and I have very little desire to do anything.  This past year I have been slowly decreasing my activities. I stay in bed almost all day, many days of the week. I am 46 yrs old.
I have talked to my dr about getting off them and he's no help at all. He says to just wean myself off them. But I am very scared of the physical pain I get and the anxiety I feel while trying to taper off.  I'm scared to pin my dr down much more. For some reason I don't trust him. I feel if he gets mad he'll just cut me off. I'm not even sure that once the w/d's are over that my pain will still be bad enough to warrant taking them again. So I don't want to bug the dr about it.
I've thought about going to another pain dr for help getting off them while keeping my prescription just in case. Can someone please help me?  Also, I saw on TV today about ibogaine.  Is this something I should look into?
Please help. I don't want my life to be over. This has been going on for a very long time.
Thank you.    

[Lovemyhorse]

I meant he looks at himself in the mirror.

[Lovemyhorse]

Hi everyone,
I'm still resolved not to take another pill. I feel like a slug. My husband wants to take me to a Sandra bullock movie. I said I'd go but ugh. Now I gotta wash my hair and get dolled up. Lol I guess it'll be good for me. All I been doing is laying around in bed with my dogs and a cat. And taking baths. Is this feeling really going to pass???  I'd love to love life again. I haven't ridden my horse in over 2 weeks and they live right here at home with me. My horse is so fantastic I can even bring him in my house and he just looks around and lolls at himself in the mirrors. Lol gotta love him!  I look forward to any and all of your posts!  Plz keep em' coming.

[sunshinegal76]

oh, and keep posting no matter what!! We are here :)

[sunshinegal76]

I read your thread and you are doing really well. Congratulations on 64 hours now?! I just wanted to send love and encouragement to you. It's not easy but you're a tough cookie! Good for you :)

Love,
Sunshine

[Lovemyhorse]

My iPhone filled in fibrosis. I meant fibromyalgia.

[Lovemyhorse]

I Bobo,
I'm not going away. I wasn't getting many comments for a little bit but you're spurring me on. Thanx. It's now 63 hours and the same stinking 3 little ole' pills.I don't want to take another one and so far so good. It is harder having them in the house but I'm so afraid the fibrosis pain will hit me hard after w/d's. But I'm doing real well. I'm not having a hard time with the cravings, not bad.
If you can do it I'm right there with you!  Only you know if it's truly an addiction. I realized it when I took my dead fathers oxy's. I was like that's messed up!  
I've been told that the fibrosis pain isn't as bad as it is on the stuff. The brain makes it worse so you'll keep wanting more. So we'll see.
I'll keep you posted BB. Keep coming back!
LMH