I am a mess

[TimHBoston]

I am an opiate addict and have been for 3 yrs. I have been off now for 4 days and feeling the wd's. I did get the Thomas Recipe and think it is helping some. I am eating soma though and am out of those now. I just want to stop this insanity. Christmas is especially hard for me and my depression is off the charts. If you believe...please pray for me.

Thanks

[zaphnelia1978]

question; how long do h\d w\d last and should I plan to miss work

[chasingthehigh]

How are you doing tonight?  Still hanging in there?  You should be so proud of yourself for getting off of the opiates!  I am very envious and hope I will be able to do the same thing...I have been abusing Vicodin for over 7 years now...I'm currently taking 8 15mg Oxycodone and 2 30mg Oxycontin a day...I am working with my family doctor to wean me off of these things...for good!  The side effects are getting worse and I believe they are slowly killing me.  

Please keep reaching out to the people on this forum...I'm impressed, I've been on here for just 2 weeks and I feel like I'm not alone anymore!  

Take care and please stay strong!

[shelby74]

You do deserve it...we all deserve support!!  Look at all the posts.  You are NOT alone.  I understand how low you are feeling but it passes...I know it doesn't feel that way right now but it does.  I wish I could say more to help you but like avis said...if I can do it...anyone can.  It's the absolute truth.  Hang in there and message me or whatever if you need help.  I am here.

[avisg]

Tim,
It has been a long time since we have seen you I had noticed Shelby had come back a few weeks ago .

I know you are struggling and u have been threw this before a few more days and the worst of the physical will be over but as we all know getting off is the easy part its staying off that is difficult .
What kind of recovery care do you have set up ?

You can do it I have been clean over 2 years ,if I can do it anybody can .Stick around there is tons of support the forum has probably grown alot since you have been gone .I you have any problem figuring anything out send me a PM I will help you any way I can.
Hang in there
Avis

[TimHBoston]

Mele Kalikimaka to you. I am not feeling so good right now. Thanks for being there for me....I do not deserve it. I am really trying this time. I have never been so low...to the point it scares me. I guess the pity mode is setting in, heh heh

[shelby74]

Merry Christmas Tim!!  Just remember everything you are feeling right now is exaggerated by the withdrawals.  You will heal physically and mentally.  Try not to worry too much about things that have been affected by your addiction...you will be surprised how quickly things can turn around when you become clean and sober.  You worry about getting well, staying clean and getting some outside help.  It changed my life and enabled me to make things in life right again.

*hugs*

[TimHBoston]

Thank you and have a peaceful Christmas. Mele Kalikimaka ...Aloha from Hawaii...Peace be with you always.

[TimHBoston]

Thanks and I am trying. Not sure how well it is going. I don't like to drink but I did today. I feel ok but miss the pills. My life has been completely changed because of pain killers. I have ruined my life and praying I can get back a small part of it. I have never felt so low in my life and I guess that is good. Maybe my bottom? who knows? I pray it is.

[blue1969]

Day 4 / 5 should be the turning point - it was for me.  Stay strong and look forwrd to a clean healthy 2010

[salsinator]

Hi Tim,

Welcome to the forum and congrats on your 4 days clean.  As the others have said, you should start to feel much better over the next few days and the improvement will be much faster from then.  I am sorry that you are feeling depressed.  Some of this is due to the withdrawal and it's never easy during the holidays, especially for us addicts.  Keep posting and just hang tight, you will get better.  Take Care,  S

[gnarly_1]

hey dude wow day 4 congrads it should start getting better tomorrow for you it does for most but hang in there your thew the worst of it im 66 days clean off a 10+ pill addiction
then 6 1/2 yr on methadone so its taken a wile to start to feel better but as each day passes its a little better...if you can get out to an N/A meeting it will help alot just
look them up in your area on the internet im shure youll find one close to home
it will do you some good to get out of the house if you can...im a Christian and I pray
for all the people on this forum and I have a specific list of those that ask or the ones god lays on my heart ill ann your name to it....remember 'all things are possible thew
Christ Jesus...keep up the fight and good luck and god bless....Gnarly  

[shelby74]

Tim,

I am so sorry to hear that you are still struggling.  I don't need to tell you what to expect or how long withdrawal's will last because you already know all that.  I will tell you that you can get through this.  It has been awhile so I will update you.  I was able to finally get off of the Hydro's and I was taking Ultram to offset the withdrawal's.  Well being the addict that I am, I abused the Ultram...no surprise there.  I don't even know how many months I was taking them now...I was taking so many I don't remember half the things that were going on in my life at the time.  One night I overdosed and was in and out of consciousness, I could barely even move (extreme weakness is one of the overdose symptoms of Opiods) and felt like I was slowly suffocating.  The next day I was done, I had had it and something in my mind had shifted.  I felt that I had reached a level I had never reached before.  I do not know how to describe it but I guess it is what some call hitting bottom.  I lost 10+ years to addiction.  I grieve that loss and how it has affected the people I love but I am grateful every day, every moment that I have sober.   Tim I know where you are right now...I have been there too many times to count.  That last time that I used, could have been my last time to do anything.  I am lucky...beyond lucky.  Please trust me when I tell you this...the high from any drug is nothing, NOTHING compared to being able to live a normal, peaceful, blessed life.  Tomorrow I am going to spend the day with my family and friends...I am so grateful to have each and everyone of them...to just be able to sit there and enjoy every second of their company and not have to be imprisoned by my addiction any longer.  I hope and pray for you...and anyone else who is suffering from this awful disease.  I wish with all my heart that you find the peace that I have.  You are not alone.  It can be done.  God bless you Tim and you are in my prayers, always.

[TimHBoston]

Thanks so much. I will check out that video and hope it will help. I have tried to quit before but never lasted. I am hoping this time it will.

Congrats to you for being clean for two weeks. I hope the same will be true for me. I am just very depressed this Christmas and the wd's are making it much worse.

[Orion5611]

Ill be praying for you friend. Please stay strong. Everyday will get easier and easier. I've been taking hydrocodones for over 10 years! Tomorrow will be 2 weeks without Lortabs and I feel great!

Keep your head up and know that you are strong enough to get through this! I will keep you in my prayers.

There was a video that I watched that really inspired me to quit! If you're interested, go to www.youtube.com and search for a video called I Am Second by Brian Head Welch.

That video really helped me! Stay strong friend.