I started taking Sub in mid August 2006, a little over a year ago. I started reading some discussion forums a couple months after I started taking it, and was very stunned and discouraged with what I read. All anyone could say was how incredibly hard it was to get off the Sub. I just wanted to add my story and tell you how I got off it about 13 months after starting. There is hope if you approach it right.
This is what worked for me.
1) Take only as much as you need to keep symptoms from getting bad between doses.
2) Decrease the dosage very slowly because even low dosages are powerful.
3) Try to work out and eat right.
4) Expect waves of mild symptoms for a few weeks after stopping.
I had been taking Hydro daily in various forms at increasing amounts for about 5 years, and for the last 8 months or so I was taking between 20 and 25 Norco a day. Since I was only seeing one doctor, I had to buy the majority of them off the street. I fell into a big financial hole. My life revolved around being able to get enough pills every day. Most of you are familiar with this scenario.
Depressed about my finances, disgusted by my weakness, and desperate to get free of dependence, I tried a variety of approaches to cut down by myself. They all failed as I just kept taking every pill I could get my hands on. So I approached my pill doctor about starting on Sub.
He started me on half of an 8 mg pill once a day. I was amazed to find that little bit took away my withdrawal symptoms, and I embraced this miracle drug as my savior. But even the 4 mg a day left me feeling drugged in the morning and drowsy during the day, so I bought a pill cutter and started cutting the halves into slightly smaller pieces.
After I started reading some forums about people getting off Hydro, I started to worry about my decision to start Sub. From what I read and from my experiences when the Sub started to wear off between doses, I started to wonder if I’d ever get off. But trying to deal with Sub seemed much better than my other approaches to getting clean. So I kept taking Sub and tried to see if I could cut down.
After several months I tried moving to twice a day doses, trying to take smaller and smaller pieces at each dose. It was a VERY slow process as my body struggled to accept smaller doses gradually.
There was some mild discomfort each day as I waited until the symptoms started to show up before I took the next dose, and I adjusted the dosage accordingly. But I took the next dose before the symptoms got very bad. And I tried to keep adjusting the dosage so that I started feeling the mild symptoms about 12 hours after the previous dose.
A little discomfort seemed a small price to pay to get free of the dependence on pills, but I hated the withdrawal symptoms so much that I never let them get too bad. You’ll have to deal with some discomfort if you expect to cut down, but don’t torture yourself. It kind of defeats the purpose of Sub.
About 6 months into it I was down to cutting the smaller 2 mg pills into smaller pieces. I was taking less than .5 mg twice a day. You would think that when you’re taking such a small dose you wouldn’t have much trouble getting to a lower dose, but that’s not my experience. It wasn’t real easy to cut down lower very quickly.
It took me another 7 months of cutting the pills into smaller and smaller pieces before I could get free of them. I was down to taking about 1/32 of a 2 mg pill twice a day, and still felt symptoms when it got time for the next dose.
I read a posting on this site in the addiction forums by pastAndFuture posted on 07/10/07 and tried following his advice on diet, supplements and exercise. The link to that posting is:
http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/99515.
I bought some protein supplement powder, some vitamin B complex, and some liquid fish oil supplement and started taking them every day to try and rebuild the neurotransmitters he mentioned in his posting. I can’t say for certain that it helped, but I certainly can’t argue with the results.
One day I was surprised to find that I hadn’t taken any Sub by the end of the day. I expected problems sleeping, but found that I slept through the night fine. I didn’t feel real great the next morning, but found that I could get through the day without taking any more.
I got periodic short waves of mild symptoms for another 3 weeks, and my bowels were a mess during that whole time. But it’s been a month now and I’m feeling pretty good. I’m working out again regularly and my strength is increasing more and more. And for the first time in over 6 years I can actually go away from home without having to check that I have enough medication, whether it’s Hydro or Sub, to make it through the day. I feel like I’ve been let out of prison and can’t tell you how great it feels.
I wish the best for those of you still trapped in dependency, but please have faith that you can make it out if you put the effort into it. And that freedom is well worth the effort.