WD's and repeat torture (first timers please read)

[OP8fool]

Hi All.
I just wanted to hopefully help a first timer (or anyone else) know and understand why they should stop Opiates of any kind (heroin,trams,norcs,vics,subs,oxy), and not repeat the pain and mental torture of getting clean.

IMO the more times you go through starting, stopping, wd's etc the harder it gets each time.  I think part of this is due to the fact we KNOW what is going to happen and how painful it can be.  Our anxiety gets worse each time we start and stop and we recall what we went through the previous time we got clean.  For these reasons I want to let the people who are doing this for the first time to DON'T EVER GO THROUGH IT AGAIN!    

I think there would be many on here that would agree that they wish they had the knowledge to know that each additional time it was going to get worse... and worse... and worse each time.  Again... IMO but I feel many will agree.

So to the first timers..... PLEASE MAKE NOTE OF THIS AND MAKE THE FIRST TIME YOU QUIT THE LAST TIME!  

From someone who has gone through the suffering multiple times please take that statement very serious.  Nobody should have to suffer such mental and physical pain more than once!  Once is enough!   Don't ever..EVER forget what it took to get you clean and what you had to go through.  I am speaking from firsthand experience but I did not listen to those before me or read any articles about it getting harder and harder each time.  

So this is the reason I write this.   Make the first time your last time!  

One day at a time!

OP8fool

[OP8fool]

I'm just hoping it saves someone from repeating the struggle.

OP8Fool

[SuboxoneWithdrawaling]

u can quit.  u do not need ur "fiance" with u.  u r strong enough.  

saying u aren't and that u "need" ur man are just excuses not to do what needs to be done because u are scared.  it's sooo normal.  but see it for what it is.  u want to want to be clean; however, u may not really, truly, honestly want to yet.  u just want to want to.  

u have to get rid of the excuses first.  and just b raw with urself.  do u want to stop?  it takes a LOT of strength.  u can find the strength tho.  think of all the things u've done to get the drugs - if u put that much energy and effort to keeping clean - it'd be more than possible!

please, take care of yourself.  u will figure it all out.  i was once in ur shoes and hid behind excuses and "reasons".  I know what ur going thru.  but, it is so important you be honest with yourself.  

I will help any way I can.  I feel for you.  muah!

[ROSYouralright]

VALLEY GIRL, just quit then! Buckle down, prepare for a nasty case of the "flu" and ride it out!

OP8 THANK YOU FOR THIS POST! HOW TRUE IT IS

[Heather8448]

your desire to quit must be stronger than your will to use
even if its subs
I did CT off methadone there were many times I wanted to go back
its amazing what we put our bodies through to use and to get clean and its amazing what we can survive...
dont worry about the fiance WORK ON YOU!!! Get health 1st
Sometimes LOVE means going away for a while fixing you and coming back its scary I know
but you can do this
and you cant on your own obviously

[valleygirl677]

I totally agree too but I am not strong enough to go through it all the way. I went 4 days and I finally said screw it on Saturday. I can't take the physical pain at all! I have no insurance or money but I want Suboxone strips. Do you know of anything or one I can call for assistance? I tried my state's Substance Abuse Service but they want me to go to rehab and I do not want that. I want my fiancé to be there with me through this. Otherwise its gonna kill me mentally in rehab. Why can't I just quit how I want to?  If you know of anything again please let me know.

                                        Thank you,

                                         valleygirl677

[Heather8448]

As an addict life is like a tape
Things get hard I need to use *the tape stops*
as an addict in recovery my tape plays through
things get hard i need to use, I get the drug, i get numb, I feel guilty I get more, I get on harder drugs, I get broke, I do dumb things for more, I lose my hope, I lose my support family and friends, my home and one of 2 things will happen I will lose my life or I will have to detox and feel like crap all over again

OR I can play my new tape
Things are hard i need to use, so I call a friend, go to a meeting share, call my sponsor, force myself to keep walking and know that this too shall pass things get better and know that in the end of the day I am clean one more day

[ponco]

you have that right I was on methadone for 7 months weened off was done with it this past april for being hooked on pain pills getting off of methadone plain and simple is a ***** , there is no quick way, pain pills about 3 weeks not months or years as methadone, but I screwed up and went back to norcos , the wds didn't really kick n till I was off the methadone I was one of the lucky ones mild wds until I was done. Like you said it gets harder everytime that's no bull, thanks john

[BearsFan1966]

Very well said! Thank you so much and I agree 100%! We need to keep our guard up all the time!