Hey any insomniac morphine addicts out there?

[jeffro50]

I have been a heavy opiate addict for 11 years.spinal surgeries misdiagnosis and quack doctors who could care less if you live or die. Anyhow I had a major spinal surgery last November and my pain doc has been giving me masssive doses of morphine and fentanyl. I am ready to stop this and have had some limited success on my own. My problems of staying away from morphine in particular is caused by the changes it has made to my brain. If anyone who is a long term user doubts this it is the truth.I am one of the nicest people you could ever meet but when morphine takes over your brain chemistry Hell hath no fury. Does any other addict out there experience similar problems. Jeffro50

[jeffro50]

Jeff here just wanted to extend a little opitimisim,I am actually having a decent day.Ya know sometimes we all feel the worse before things are better.I tell ya I have not until today been able to put one thought together.Pray this lasts.Write me anytime I think I can help ya,I have been and am there too.I do pray for some sleep guess it just ain't time yet. Get back to me Jeff my email ***@****

[jeffro50]

Jeffro here my daughter is named Sierra, good morning well not really I feel about a manic as a person possibly can.I slept less than a hour in the last 4 days or so. My docs give me sleep meds nothing works, my tolerence to opiates must be unreal or maybe I am not meant to sleep anyhow it *****. Just wanted to say hi.write me anytime I am always around my private email is ***@**** but the way I have been using medhelp to get in touch with some of the best and most supportive people anywhere. Hang in there Peace Jeff

[sierragold]

Hey! Well I've been taking morphine for a few yrs and ummmmm well, it's just after 4am here. Been up all night. If you look under my post "caved feel like a loser" you can kinda see where I am at this point.
But yes, it turns you into a shell. I was the happiest most fun person! Outgoing. Always out and about. Riding my horse (now she's out there fat as hell and as out of shape as I am!) You get the picture. But I already FEEL againg. I even stopped listening to music- started listening a few days ago and man does it help!
You can talk to me anytime- I KNOW what you're going through. Hang in there, there are some very smart people on here who will be able to advise us both (I pray) and YOU and I CAN do this.

[MissRecovery]

Yes!!!  I was on percocet, oxys, valium, and ambien for quite a while and I'm now an insomniac who needs medication in order to sleep.  I forgot what it feels like to sleep normally.  I lay awake every night feeling anxious, it's terrible!  I completely agree with you!