The Ups and downs are killing me

[ladyrhea4]

I have done Pain Pills for Years now and I have done a few post. The Ups and downs off of this Methadone addiction has done to me, I hate this and I'm feeling Really Down..Help!

[CinChelle]

Hey rhea, I'm Michelle. I hope what gnarly had to say was helpful. I again am not familiar with ur doc but we are both addicts and I know how it feels to have someone to talk to:) I'm on day 18 and I never thought I'd be here. So it is def doable. Still have some trouble sleeping so if u are unable to also I'd be happy to talk. Ill add u to my friend list that way we can message.

[ladyrhea4]

Hello ,
My name is Rhea and I did Methadone for 6 years and did Pain Pills for 8 years all together. The last 6 I got it on my own..and I have had cancer again and had to go onto another pain pill with the chemo for the year of treatment. Sorry if this is not wrote well hard to keep my mind on track..

So let me see ware was I..I'm coming off 10mg of methodone a day is what I did...
And the Pains are bad and the habit was bad and I hate the whole thing..
Can't wait to be passed this....
Thanks for writing me.....

[ladyrhea4]

Life can be a ***** Don't you think.Darn cancer that I had started this Roller Coaster..but I will win this also. I just did not see that I thought that much about this and felt so Crappy. The whole year of chemo I did was Flue like feelings also and now I'm putting myself threw it again.
Well I'm going to answer the other person that wrote after you.
Thanks for writing me, I'm just hanging on the computer most of my day.....Passing Time..
Ladyrhea4

[gnarly_1]

HI im sorry to here your having one of those days...I found methadone to be very cyclicilic
it seam to be over only to strick you down again the next day ....try not to get discouraged its just the nature of the beast....it will start to get better as time goes by but there will be days that seam like 2 steps forward and one step backward do your best to try and push past it ...it will eventually end... with God and time you will recover im living proof...I know it can be frustrating you just want it to be done with ...but it takes time with methadone keep posting and look back on the gains you have made you no longer feel like worms are crawling in your veins any more each day gained is one day closer to feeling better
good luck and God bless....Gnarly  

[CinChelle]

And agreeing with drifter it WILL pass. The people here can help a lot. There's a man named gnarly who is more familiar with ur doc. He has GREAT advice. Ill tell him to hit u up:)

[CinChelle]

Are u completely off of them or planning to be? If so how long?

[drifter0213]

it takes a lot of courage to admit that, i am addicted to alcohol & cocaine and i dream about using but when i wake-up i tell myself ' This too shall pass'  wierd huh? :)