I screwed up

[Helpmeheather]

I have been off perc 10 s 10 to 12 a day for five days I just took one I couldn't handle it! I don't want it I tried to puke is it to late for me? Crying my eyes out!!

[Icntkickit]

Pick up & keep on trucking to a CLEAN life!  Pray for help & relief! It works. Get up & stay BUSY it helps ALOT

[Helpmeheather]

I want to more than anything I gave up modeling that I loved so much just to be able to buy these things.when I read what I'm writing I'm seriously can't beleave it's me.they r flushed I didn't want to but I did and kinda feel satisfied ok but true thoughts now r where can I get more is this normal?

[Addicted2long]

I know you just need to stay on the suboxone and get your life back. This is why I told you in the other thread that the person doesnt know what there talking about when they said that about suboxone. It is a great drug for people who have a tough time not using. You said you felt great and normal on it but the days you didnt take it you relapsed. This is why its important to take your suboxone everyday as directed by your doctor. You will feel so much better and after awhile you can taper off the suboxone and be done with it all. You can do it heather I know you can.

[paleflower]

Don't beat yourself up sweetie, get up and keep walking. If you have any percs around, flush them, that way you won't be tempted to do it again. God bless

[Helpmeheather]

Yes I started suboxone Friday and it really helped me I felt great I don't mean high I mean clear minded I skipped my dose at three and thought I'd be ok til tomorrow no I'm not I took a perk and just thought I'd feel better now I feel like a dumb ***!! I just want my life back I really am a good person

[Addicted2long]

Dont worry heather dont be so hard on yourself. You only took 1? Thats all part of recovery just put it behind you and move forward again. 1 perk is not going to put you back very far. Its all part of the battle and you were doing great with 5 days. Use this as a learning experience and keep going. I suggest you flush the ones you have left so you dont end up doing this again...hey heather didnt you just post on another thread that you were taking suboxone? are you?