About 7 or 8 years ago I was in a car accident and went through multiple surgeries over the course of 2 years, which required a pain management doctor and the use of Vicodin for 2 years straight. After the pain was gone I realized I really liked these little pills and couldn't imagine life without them. Now 8 years later and a few failed attempts at staying off of them, I am ready to do this. I have never mixed them with alcohol or anything else, I am a very "nervous" person and the thought of mixing things together scared me. I actually always took them 4 hours apart 5/500MG just 1 at a time. Some days I would take 4 and others 6 depending on how much of the day I was awake. These pills made me so energetic to the point where I felt like I didn't need sleep sometimes. I did try to stop taking them last week and made it 3 days before I got my hands on 15 more. I just took my last one. I have a few questions. First, how long does the mental part last, even when my body felt ok on day 3 it seemed like my brain went into overdrive thinking about those pills that day. Second, after taking them 4 days again, am I going to withdrawal physically all over again? What can you do to help the mental cravings? The physical part doesn't bother me so bad, except feeling "foggy" I almost felt like someone shut my brain off. Then on day 3 when I could think clearly all I could think about was how much I wanted another pill. I feel so ashamed that these little pills own me like they do. I am a mother with 2 wonderful girls, and a husband who has stuck by be through all of this and I feel so bad for what I have put them through. I just can't believe I did this too myself, even when I was in Highschool the only drug I ever tried was marijuana. I was never interested in drugs and didn't understand why other people used them. Now I understand how quick and unexpectedly it happens. I have tried weaning in the past and I just dont have the power to do it, and even when I had hubby hold the pills, I would somehow always talk him into giving me just 1 more for the day. I have to do this cold turkey and I would like to do it myself, not so much that I don't want help, but I think I want to prove to myself I can beat this on my own. How strange does that sound I want to defeat a pill LOL I think with the help and support of everyone here I have a chance. We just bought a new house and will be moving in about a month, I want to be totally clean, change my life and never look back. Sorry for rambling and thank you for reading my post.