I have been on a fairly low dose in comparison to many of the people on here. I too fear the withdraws I am taking about 1-1 and a half now and have been for about 6-8 months. I'm afraid to stop because I live alone and have no family to help me through it. I lied to my friends, telling them I have stopped taking everything because I'm ashamed of the addiction. I understand your fears.
I am currently on what the Dr. called "maintenance" I am taking an 8/2 and cutting it into very thin strips. She is allowing me 8 strips a month. So I make it last.
I don't know what it even feels like to be completely sober. I took Lortab and then Norco for about 15 years. My physician was terminated and I was unable to find a Dr. that would write the Norco Prescription like he did, 80 Mg per day.
I wish I had the courage to completely stop everything. The other problem I have is when I do stop, I still have the pain that I was being treated for in the first place.
Just so you all know, this has damaged my liver and will continue to until I decide it's enough. Do we decide quality of life, or life itself?
My son has been on sub 4 1/2 years (2mg day). Last week he stopped cold turkey not thinking the w/d would be so terrible........Yesterday his Dr. prescribed him lorazepam 1 mg every 8 hours and a blood pressure med.
I'm fearful he will become addicted to the Loraz ........... does anyone have any knowledge, first hand experience? Worried Mom
To your girlfriend , " It has nothing to do with you. Withdrawal is hell! I myself,as your bf, prefer to suffer alone, and that's what it is it is pure unadulterated suffering. It's not only extremely physically challenging, it's also mentally and emotionally painful. It has nothing to do with you. Pain is a personal experience, and some not only want , but need to be alone to get through it. I myself am detoxing , and took a hard fall last night ( I think I broke my ribs ) my bf came running to help and in my mind I wanted to say, " go, let me suffer without you seeing, there's nothing you can do " but I took his feelings into consideration,and let him watch and help , and for whatever reason it made me more aware of the pain. We are all different. Some find others being around soothing. Your bf doesn't . That's all relax. Ps..good luck to you both. This is challenging.
You make whatever decision that you feel is right for you. I have been on Suboxone for over 3 years and have just started to taper off and I am terrified. Your posts have helped me a great deal and I wish you all the luck in the world. I also feel uncomfortable telling my sponsor and people at my meetings that I am on Sub....I have overheard some say that using Sub is not being "clean". Suboxone and God have saved my life. Thank you and hope your life is blessed....
I too have withdrawed from Methadone and had to be hospitalized for 45 days. I am on Suboxone now and have been for over 3 years. I feel so dumb for even starting back after going through all that but I guess that is just part of recovery. You are right on point...Methadone is the worst!!!!!!!!!!! The withdrawals are way more intense than ANYTHING ELSE and they last a VERY LONG TIME. I would never recommend Methadone to anyone but Suboxone has saved my life. I am tapering off of Sub now and I am really scared. I have detoxed on my own from taking 10 oxycontin and also 20-25 bags of black tar heroin and Methadone definitely takes the cake. What a nightmare!!!!!!!! God bless you!
Hi. I am not the person you responded to but the answer to your question is....every addict is different. You were addicted to hydrocodone. Trust me when I tell you that the difference between detoxing from hydorcodone and (my drug of choice) blask tar heroin is like night and day. I am not saying that our addiction is any different but I when I was hooked on just pain pills, I could easily detox by myself. I have been on Methadone and was in the hospital for 45 days. Every single day was HELL! I have been on Suboxone for 3 years now and I am now tapering. Some people just need more time....just depends on whether or not a person is having cravings. I cannot understand why the doctor would put someone who is addicted to hydrocodone on Suboxone. The withdrawals from Suboxone are way worse than hydrocodone. I wish you much luck in your recovery and I hope that you don't take my words as a bad thing. God bless you :)