hello everyone

[lostmarbles]

I finally slept last night afer two days of no sleep. I actually got 14 hours sleep and feel so much better for it. I am now closer to day 4. It's day 3 today and my w/d's are no where near bad as they were yesterday. I am doing good today!! another milestone and tomorrow is another day closer and to the worst being over. How is everyone else? I prayed last night for 10 mins for all of us. I woke up feeling so much better. Today my w/d's consist of a fuzzy head, sign of flu coming on and a few aches.  

[MikeWithFamily]

Hi Lost, thats great to hear, and thanks for asking how I'm doing. I am doing really good. Much better than I could have ever hoped for when I started this on Monday, and So much better than I could have hoped for last Friday when I was having my meltdown while GOD was leading me to action. I'm so lucky our GOD is merciful. I've been able to work all week. I have been in bed by 10:30 pm every single night so I am beginning to develop a much healthier evening and night program. I'm also spending more time with my Wife in Bed,...no, not what that sounded like, but just time with her. Talking a bit and just laying in bed with her...trying to reconnect and heal a little...does that make sense? Anyway, I'm good. I am nervous about the weekend though. I usually cranked up my pill count ont he weekends so I feel some anxiety right now. Oh well, I think if I was going to do anything, I would have not told my wife about the 90 norco that came in yesterdays mail....lol. Yeah, can yo ubelieve that! It was an order that I forgot about and it came in yesterdays mail. NO, I did not do anything other than call my wife to tell her I had 90 pills in an unopened package and called my Doctor to let him know as well and that I was taking them home to my wife. (I believe those that have graciously offered to help me deserves or must know everything significant that occurs) But anyway, just a bit nervous about the weekend. I"ll do fine though. I'm going to work on establishing a new routine for the weekend and find satisfaction in renting movies, going to dinner, or something else other than planning my pill party.
Good Luck Lost, talk with you again soon.
MikeWith Family

[lostmarbles]

Hello MikeWithFamily,

I am thank you, doing so much better Thank God... and I have been Thanking Him and praying profusely. And I am so grateful as well to the many wonderful people on here also. It looks like I'm not in for a sleep a sleep tonight, it's already the small hours where I am but Im just not sleepy yet, but I am not going to complain...at least im not grumpy, or irritable! Well my xanax withdrawel is hopefully coming to a close soon but im taking my detox baby benzo to help me.. have not noticed a difference as yet..im not allowed to go c/d as on benzos youre likely to have a seizure - no good to anyone being dead, so have to to it slowly, slowly... how are you feeling? thank you for writing me, youve been a great help, keep in touch

[MikeWithFamily]

Hey Marbles, I'm really glad to hear you are doing better. I was a bit worried about you yesterday when reading your posts. I am trying to kick my habit with Suboxone; just don't think I am strong enough to do C/T so doing what I think is best for me. This allows me to develop more positive habits while not going stir crazy so I hope it helps. One things in your post that stuck out to me was your comment about praying. I was so glad to hear you took time to take council with the LORD. He is with you if you ask, But you have to ask, thats all there is too it and it sounds like your discussion with him payed off with some sleep. So cool to hear. Keep praising and he'll keep providing you with what you need. I hope to talk wtih you soon.
MikewithFamily

[GoingToMakeIt]

Everyone is different with w/d symptoms. Who knows? You maybe one of the lucky ones. I hope so for your sake.

[lostmarbles]

Hello!!! Oh I know.... I never thought I would be able to sleep again when I came off the Xanax.. it was my greatest fear! I know that I might not sleep tonight or even tomorrow but the fact that I know I will sleep at some point and the body cannot survive without it, is enough to give me strength... you know even my daughter said today that she could see a huge difference in me and that she had 'missed' her mum. That little statement has given me alot of hope. I feel better today, it's a good day but I understand that I probably won't feel like this tomorrow.. but a glimmer of good is amazing.. I have not felt like this in years... I feel like I am breathing at long last... I look forward to my bath with the Epsoms!!! as ever, thank you so much for 'being here' I hope you are well and the family is good!!

[GoingToMakeIt]

Nothing feels so good as a good nights sleep after withdrawals! It gives a whole new perspective on life. You even 'sound' better! Take flu medicines. They help the aches. Epsom salt baths for the chills. Hang in there girl.

[lostmarbles]

hey cookie... awwwwwwwwww thanks for the hug! and I have sent one straight back to you.. I totally get the addiction to this site though, I am right there with you! I shall take your advice and go for a little walk later and get some fresh air... I have been home for days and I know I need to get out. I don't trust myself to drive what with the fuzzy head and shaking hands, mind you, I wasn't that great a driver before... still don't know how to reverse a car!!! so really I have no excuse for being a bad driver! thanks for being right here.. you are a great support and a good friend!!! I hope you are well and things are going good for you?

HI blot, is it a day at a time or an hour at a time? I know when I woke up today and felt good, I thought I could conquer the world tomorrow and yesterday's bad day was just my had playing tricks with me.. it is so easy to forget your bad days and I think that is the worry in this addiction.. have to always stay focused, positive, strong and keep posting.. thanks for your fab support and advice

[sickcookie]

Glad you got some sleep becareful not to over do today maybe a nice walk ,something that makes you happy that is not a pill.You have come leaps and bounds it keeps on getting better,I think we are luckier than most.I know reading the posts gave me the courage to do this and now I have a new addiction this web site,Glad your here Give yourself a big hugs ,my arms can not reach to the UK

[BlottedOut]

your doing great, keep it up, within a few more days youll feel normal again with strong cravings to use again, that was the toughest part for me, not saying w/ds are easy, but cravings are undescribely powerful, fight em off, do things to keep your mind occupied so you dont think bout them every second of the day, good luck

[lostmarbles]

It does help doesn't it? I know that some days I may not get as much or even any, so today I am going to enjoy the day and prepare for tomorrow. Thanks so much for your support and advice, I hope you are doing good!

[toxictome]

I think some sleep really helps...I slept pretty good while I was tapering...now it's been 2 wks. clean and i usually go a couple of nights tossing an dturning, andthn one night of about 6 hrs....i hope that gets better soon!!!!

You are doing great..enjoy the GOOD days to give you hope for the not as good days....knowing that a good day will come along again!!!!