still going

[tigerlily75]

Well Im like 43 days today, have stopped counting every minute and day lol, had to count it up just now!
ive been having a pretty rough time, wds the first week, 2 weeks of the flu for me and my 3 kids and this week we have a cold!!! But hey Im keeping busy and not using any opiates! Yay me! Im really glad I have you guys here to talk to, Ive had to drop all my friends and lost my job so I just feel so isolated through all this! I need to get some kind of aftercare worked out, anybdy have any ideas on that?

[VICourageous]

How many days now since u posted here....in feb..Yes I too get alot of snow here in N idaho...I live by the ski mt. and the snow takes awhile to melt. For me the weakness took a long ride..Now I can go to some of the lakes, rivers by town that the snow has melted..I take dogs for walk..Now that the sun might come out and I feel much better, I too have to get on the exercise thing...I can not affort the gym right now, but in summer I hike and swim and raft any way so I would not even go there...Going to set up garage with some things..I have a treadmill out there..Ha..Lets get together and exercise..RIGHT..Bring the kids we will float down the river...
Hang in u r doing GREAT...

[tigerlily75]

Just seen this new messages here from some of my favs!

ricart, thank you and yes i know, i need to get that exercise part in, but i have all the excuses lol, im too busy, its cold and snowy here, what am i going to do, me and the 3 kids??? Anyway, Ill get it together and get some excercise in there, I knw it really helps!

gnarly 1, mark, thank you for always being there fr me, then and now. Your awesome...and gnarly :) I do need to find some kind of na or support group, i just have you guys here right now,.

clean in kansas
Yes I am definitely looking for new ways to fill my old habits! Harder than I thought, although I love all yur ideas very much and will try them soon! Thank you!

[clean_in_ks]

Congrats on your clean days, girl!!!!  I totally get "not knowing" what to do....when we repeat "doing" something....even for just 21 days....we form a habit.....and NOW....you're reaching out and trying to put in place some NEW ones, right?  It's a REALLY important step in recovery.....those who don't find NEW ways to fill up OLD ones.....return to the old ones eventually....you can do this!!!

My situation is quite diff from yours in that I have no kiddos at home and I'm unable to work (physically).....but since I have no income....I'm pretty darn broke ALL the time.....so I was wondering what I'd do if "I was you" haha....gonna throw out a few ideas and maybe one will sound fun or possible or maybe even good to you, K?

Many cities have places (free or very low cost) where you can go with your kiddos....that are fun for you AND them.....we have a children's museum that has TONS of cool stuff in it....we have another "exploration place" that is amazing!  Depending on the weather.....you could go visit and see some animals, a zoo w/indoor little critters to check out......check out your local attractions that are offered for families and fun....there are quite a few that don't require a great deal of $.  Newspaper, web, call your local #'s, too.

Also, there are a lot of places that offer what they call "Mom's Day Out"....you can can take your kiddos to meet some new, fun friends in a new environment for them and then indulge yourself......
You could find a woman's NA/AA meeting, a noon meeting....or just go someplace you LOVE to go....I used to take in a movie by myself many yrs ago or go sit in a place like Barnes&Noble books and order a yummy latte and read, watch people, be soothed by the music in the background as I just sat there....just treated myself to peaceful surroundings.....and did absolutely NOTHING hahaha!!
A lot of daytime support groups, church or 12 step groups, have child care available.  The hardest thing to do is to make that first step.....call someone or reach out and find out what's out there.....time to seek.....and you will find......your kids need a new routine, too.....they'll love you for it~
Bless you~

[gnarly_1]

HI.....just want to encourage you to hang in there it will get better with time google Na meeting in your aera even if you have to drive a 1/2 hr to get to one I cant over emphasize how much this will help you as it has helped me im always out hear if you need a friend ......Mark

[ricart70]

Hey great job on all of those days you got!!  That is awesome
Get a workout routine going at home.30 min.of good cardio will do wonders.

[tigerlily75]

Thank you all for your comments and encouragement! Im still trying to pull through but man this is rough! Now that Im over withdraw and flus and colds and losing my job, I just have to find something to do with myself! Just sitting here drives me more cray and makes me think about it even more. My oldest child is in school, but not the 2 little ones, so Im just kind of stuck in the house with them all day and I just get so easily irritated and so tired, and I dont know, but I need some sort of aftercare and some new things to do with myself other than constantly searching out pills!!!

[wtf918]

go too the movies,bowling,game night with the kids,church,i don't know where you are but get snow suits on and go for a walk,,, think outside of the box,,i think i just talked myself into it... LOL,,good luck.....

[luvabugga]

Good job Tiger!!!  Sorry you had such a rough time, but hey...look how far you've come and you made it through.  Keep going....it's only going to get better and better!

[FourJays]

43 days is huge; especially when you have been feeling so crappy from the colds and flu :((   I understand the friend thing too.  My addiction cost me and/or compromised many of my friendships.  Not because they were users but because I was, and for so long the pills were all that mattered to me. It is good to hear that you are wanting to get out and into some kind of aftercare.  Have you looked in to any meetings in your area?  How about a therapist or counselor?  That helped me tremendously.  Now that you and the kids are feeling better maybe you can get out more.  Are they school age?  Can you get involved there in any way (like volunteering in classroom, etc.)?  I met a lot of new people and made friends through my kids and their school activities when they were young (years ago; they are now in college).   Ofcorse those are some of the relationships that I have ruined, but I'm working on it :)  Anwyway - good luck and stay strong.  There will be bumpy days but it does get smoother and better as time passes.
Julie

[hope4good]

Congrats on 4 months.  I too had the flu right after I quit.  It was not fun.  As for aftercare you could go to meeting, go see a counselor or go to a outpatient facility .  I am going to one now & it gives me the tools to not relapse again.  Good for you on realizing you need aftercare.

[tigerlily75]

Thanks vickie! that gives me hope! i need to find my new life and new friends! now that im clean i really just dont know what to do with myself! im so bored and dont have anyone to talk to except my 3 kids. i cut off all friends using and dealing and that was everyone. i lost my job, so i literally have nthing to do! i mean me and the kids have been really sick, but starting to feel better and just stir crazy, ready to get out of the house, but nothing to do. i cant beleve how much of my life and world used to revolve around pills! now i need to find new ways to fill my time

[VICourageous]

Hi  WAY TO GO...Keep on truckin forward and do not look back. Right??
I had to let go of all my user friend that I have known for yrs. One girl I have known for 40+ yrs. I can only talk to her when she is clean for the day and on the phone only once in a while. I too had to put the boundries up. I found a NEW LIFE and a NEW set of friends at my na/aa meetings. Evenif I had not had a drink in 8yrs I can open the beast back up.
Good Going..Min by Min
vickie