In desperate need of help.

[UM4Lyfe]

It's no small fact that South Florida is well known for pill mills. I had 3 surgeries in 2 weeks back in March. Based on where they cut the incisions I was referred the pain management afterwards. I was given percoset 10mg 4 * a day. this has spun dramatically out of control  I get 120 pills and they're gone in 10 days.  and made the conscious decision to stop cold Turkey I tried I tried tampering it did not it did not work I tried methadone sam same thing. I am now on day 2 and I feel like hell. I have a very addictive personality but the pain was so bad I didn't notice what I was getting myself into. Please help I don't want this life for myself but I feel my willpower caving so I reached out online for support.  I've tried cranberry juice hot showers and Advil for the join and Advil for the joint pain my wife is an operating room nurse and I am ashamed to tell her I don't know what to do, I can't relapse no matter what. I know this isn't a large sum of consumption but it was enough to make me stay awake craving the drug. I know its a problem and I have failed to stop once before. Any support or tips would be appreciated.  I WILL NOT GO BACK TO THAT LIFE MY WIFE DESERVES BETTER. PLEASE HELP ME

[UM4Lyfe]

Well the good news is I'm on day 4 and I actually fell asleep last night. I feel like the worst is behind me hopefully I woke up had some coffee and took a walk. The psychological part is all that's left but I am hanging in there.

[mary577]

I'm late to this thread but I just want to chime in and welcome you and give you my support.   You are doing great....just hang in there and you will start to feel better in a few days.   Don't let yourself get dehydrated.    I had trouble sleeping, but eventually all that evened out.   You can do this!

[storminnrmn]

That will end up being the best decision you ever made! You have come so far, to start over would be rough. I found that the mornings were easier for me during wd. You want to start a new day sober and are positive but as the day went on it got tougher, and you get sick of feeling the way you do. Just remember, pretty soon the physical part will slowly decrease and it will be a fresh start. Hnag in there!

[UM4Lyfe]

So I found a roxi in my dresser drawer I completely forgot I had it. I'm very proud of myself I stomped it into my yard immediately can't swallow dirt. Something I wouldn't have thought I would have done your support has been so helpful I was reading posts when I found it. You guys are the best I have very few friends that's the life of traveling 10months a year. Seeing the pill though gave me major anxiety I have to make sure I don't have any more surprises I threw out all my empty pill bottles it was kind of ceremonial more than anything else. I still feel like hell though its getting worse as the day goes on instead of better

[UM4Lyfe]

So far I'm doing good the weather is perfect here (not being a jerk) so when I get hot I can lay in my yard and that's been very relaxing. The nice thing about today is aside from my incision points throbbing I'm doing okay. Stomach is rocked so I got some pepto and that's helping. I also had my wife get me a banana bag from work its an IV that they give to alcoholics when they come in the ER. I use them allot as I race sportbikes so she is used to giving me them without having to get into major details. As for everything else I just feel like doing nothing at this point so im not. Playing PlayStation was a good tip it takes my mind off of things. Thanks for the support

[storminnrmn]

Glad to hear you got some sleep. Going for a walk, especially on the beach is a good way to start the day. Just focus on getting through today and every day after you will feel a little better. I know when I was in wd, I caught up on some tv shows I had been meaning to watch. I found I could get lost in them and not have to think about how I felt for a while. Mix in some hot showers and before you know it, today will be in your past!