Insanity Birthdays ever heard?

[red_1986]

Day 31 today for me I got my coin I am taking my program very very serious working the steps this time. I woke up this morning out of a dead sleep craving a high any high bad real bad. I am studying P.A.W. (post acute withdrwal) so I am awear of things I am going threw it is normal. my craving last about 20 mins usally. NOT TODAY it was about 3 hours I thought of using. I went to see my counsoler. She told me about "Insanity Birthdays" how you have one every 30 days on the money, and they could last for months after being sober. I went to a noon  AA meeting, then seen her for a 2 hour EMERGENCY session, stated the serinity prayer a dosen times but D***.... I spent 6 months in treatment never heard of this and NEVER felt this way ever b4. HAVE ANY OF YOU FELT THAT URGE FOR HOURS ON A MILESTONE OF YOU SOBRIETY? or HEARD OF "INSANITY BIRTHDAYS". PLEASE HELP I AM TRYING TO PREPARE FOR THE NEXT ONE. I am almost threw this one... It has been a horrible day

[NautyOne]

Thanks for the encouraging words.  I'm good.  I'm off my pitty party, but I am definitely in rare form today........I found things to keep me occupied, but I am definitely having a Linda Blair Day.......as my friends call it.......:-)

nauty..............

[avisg]

LOL, I guess you wont

[NautyOne]

My birthday was on October 30th.  I went C/T on the 28 or 29th........Talk about an Insanity Birthday.......One I will never forget..........

Nauty...............

[red_1986]

Thanks for that You can make too... I was just posting aout P.A.W. Post Acute Withdrawl. It has helped me alot unsterstanding it, reading up on it, and taking it very seriously this time. I fyou want to know more about let me know. When I get time I will post it. I think it is a very important part for me.. It hepls me feel"normal" in my recovery. I also go to meetings and just get it out that is a big relief, knowing people relate and your are furthest from alone in this life of recovery. Best wishes to you.

[avisg]

I have always an issues with the 30s 30,60, and in about 4 days I hit 90 .... I really does not help either that I am dealing with a good deal of pain right now ...... that has always been my excuse to use........  I am glad there are so many others that undrstand what this is like sometimes it helps just too know you are not the only one.

[red_1986]

Hey thanks so much for that input and your blessing it means much to know I am not alone. I just had never heard of such a thing of felt so BAD, today is going good (a lot better than yesterday did) I will keep you in prayers and thoughts too. The very best of luck to you as well. God Bless you too..... ~RED~

[MICHAEL_777]

Stay strong you two!  It's one day versus the rest of your life.  Which one do you want?...

Nauty:  Don't let me down as you've been an inspiration to me since I came here 2 weeks ago.  It's just another day.  Smack the cr@p out of the addict side and enjoy the remainder of your day.  Love and Strength to you!

[NautyOne]

Oh, yeah baby.  I am having one today on day 31.  I had them really bad on day 9,11,12 to the point they lasted all day........it SUCKED.  And, today really blows too. Your not alone my dear.  Keep up the fight, you already did all the right thing.  I will pray you don't use today if you pray for me.  We are both going thru the same thing today.  Yur helping me to stay strong.......God Bless.

Nauty...................

[willyjones]

no, because i have not been clean yet. been on roxi's for 2 years. i am starting a sort of detox tomorrow. i have friends that have said the cravings come and go, but eventually the lessen. i assume that no matter how long you go, there will always be times of desire, but your will is stronger the longer you're away from those hazy days. so sorry for the horrible day, i can only imagine--mine are just ahead. just think about the good things in life. freedom being the most important. you're no longer a slave, and while those cravings may creep in, remember to not let yourself be stolen from em. you can do it.