Is it wrong to use pain meds to curb withdrwal between bouts of pain?

Since my chronic pain levels are not constant, I use the pain meds as needed.  However I noticed that when I have a "good" day (i.e. using less pain meds) I have withdrawal symptoms.  I typically take 1/2 a pill to curb the symptoms until the pain has me take a full dose.  My question is: should I just put up with the symptoms or is taking a small dose to curb it going to lead to an endless cycle of addiction.  I hate taking the meds when I don't need it for pain but since it looks like I'll be on them for life, I can't help but think why should I go through withdrawal several times a week, but feel "guilty" getting the withdrawal relief.

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Joe, skip the dosage or at least cut it in half!!!!!  I have been recovered from Vicoden for approx. 1 week.  Under a doctors care I was weened by my dear husband and we are heading towards cleanliness.  I am no longer taking any pain meds, other than over the counter and am in great pain, but am suffering because I feel that I need to feel the pain to remind me of how horrible the addiction can be.  My pains are real and documented by docs also.  But, as you said, some days were better than others, yet I found myself taking the codiene anyways, sometimes more than my usual dosage.  DON'T DO IT.  I, WE IN THIS FORUM, CAN HELP YOU, BEFORE YOU END UP LIKE US.  Some of us are clean for years, some are clean for only days, while some are looking for more pills as we speak.  All we can do is try to help those who wish to stop and help them through the horrible physical withdrawals that WILL occur if the meds are abused.  Your actions are exactly as how I got started.  But, you may not be the addictive personality type, I am, so I have to just bear the pain and move on and live life.  Good Luck, Neena

[to doc dan from joe]

Thanks for your reply,

I do cut the pills in half, but the roxicodone pills are so small that cutting them any smaller causes them to literally crush into  a small pile of dust

[The Dude]

Well, if it breaks up, just put a little in milk, not even 2 ounces will be just fine.  I hope and wish you well.  I know what you are going through.  I'm in the same boat sometimes.  It's called a "Catch 22" Just keep sticking around, we'll help you.  You are not alone, TRUST ME !!

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Take a hot shower or bath.  Let the water just run on you.  Sit in there as long as you can.  I have been trying to do it before bed.  It helps with the shakes.  I guess if you took more meds then you are not withdrawing, but remember: hot bath/showers all the time, xanax or ativan for the shakes and or anxiety and if you have to be sick...be sick.  Let it out.  You will feel like your dying but you will not die from codiene withdrawals.  That is what my Doctor told me last week.  Call in sick.  Stomack flu?  Phenergan suppositories for vomiting.  Make sure it's the Phenrgan without CODIENE, of course.  Good luck Joe.  We are hear for you.  LYNN; are you doing ok?  Neena

[to doc dan from joe]

I hope you are right, here we go I can feel it comming on up from my lower back into my shoulder like someone is kicking me.  I'm ashamed to admit that I am hoping my pain starts soon so I can have an excuse to take a pain pill.  My co worker thinks I acting weird today, I have soooo muchhh nervous energy I cant stop looking form something to do to keep my mind off of the WD.

Joe

[Lynn to Neena]

Hey Joe, listen to Neena and Chad, they helped me through my weekend from hell. I am addicted BY CHOICE not because of any pain. Good luck,

[To sick and scared from Neena]

I wish that I could inspire you somehow, but I do know your problem first hand.  I still have access to my vics, but have not made the call.  I did tell them to not give or sell to me for a while...but I am sure they would if it came right down to it.  So far, i haven't picked up the phone.  I am actually friends with my hook up, and actually miss spending time with her, but for now my sobriety and cleanliness is more important and she respects that.  Lynn, please hang in there.  When you run out of percs next, let me know...maybe I can stop you from buying more and help ou through the shitty next couple of days.  Good Luck!  Neena

[Lynn to Neena]

Hi guys. Joe, I could eat up to 30 percs a day, so when I had to detox from that I crashed and burned, Ugh, it was awful.
Neena, I'm O.K., if you want to call it that. Ran into some pills  Monday, that's why you haven't heard from me. I'm beyond help. I have access all the time and no willpower, so I am still active. But I'm real proud of you. Real proud. I know I can go through what you did if I really wanted to. Trouble is.. I don't want to.

[to doc dan from joe]

It wasn't too bad last night untill I got to sleep, woke up at 12:30 and felt like I swallowed a 400 HP engine, just bursting with energy and a weird sense of pain and cramping all over. At 1:00 am took 2 xanax (I had read about this before on the forum) it didn't help I was up till 3:00am with that same feeling.  I had to get up for work at 6:00 so I broke down an took a single pill, was able to go right to sleep within 20 minutes.  I figure using 1 pill at night untill my body adjusts isn't so bad, I can cut it out completly within a few days (just got to get that sleep).  I can't figure out why my pain suddenly stopped yesterday, I hope that it doesn't come back and have gone through all of this for nothing. I never really needed more than 4-8 pills a day to control the pain, I don't want to  imagine what it must be like to detox from the high doses that I've read people taking on a daily basis, must be the closest thing to hell on earth.  Thanks to everone for your advice!!!!

[Frankinscense]

There is a better way. This life absolutely SUCKS. Give it up for god's sake before it is too late. Been there done that. It will eventually get you in prison or dead. Hook ups evertually get busted. Your time will come.
The better way is opiate agonist therapies or treatment. Admit your addiction and get help. You are all to far gone with your addictions to go to a pain clinic. Pain clinics offer drugs to responsible narcotic users which are rare as a three dollar bill.
A long acting opiate such as methadone will cure you I promise,at least allow you to carry on your life without all these cravings and withdrawals. I had the same type of problem. Now there is order in my life and I finished my  education. Shady drug deals with pushers and drug seeking ALWAYS end in disaster. Methadone(or LAAM) clinics provide you with your drug for pain,withdrawals,and cravings. It gives you back control of your life. All clinics are not about heroin junkies. 60% of the clients at the clinic I go to are pill addicts. They provide counseling,medical attention, and provide authority with dosing. If we all could take our medicine like we are supposed to and not run out early we would not need these controls. The reason we are addicts is because of a chemical imbalance that would gets by taking short acting opiates.(eg.percodan,vicoden,lortab,morphine, oxycontin-it is still a short acting opiate only in a time released form) These drugs deplete endorphins that when depleted cause cravings and withdrawals. Your brain sees vicoden as an endorphin and does not manufacture stores of endorphins. Endorphin molecule is almost exactly the same as short acting opiate molecules. The brain sees percodan for instance and thinks it is the natural occuring endorphin and does not replenish endorphin stores that have been depleted. So when you run out of your percodan there is NO endorphins at the receptor and withdrawal and cravings begin. (sick and no energy or the first signs of being "endorphin challenged".) If you keep this pill popping and addiction active eventually you may never produce natural endorphins again - hence the term Endorphin Challenged.
The only way to get your addiction in control is through the use of a long acting opiate such as methadone or Laam. T
There is nothing to be frightened of in atteding a clinic. If you are serious about a better life for your self seek help through this very effective mode of treatment.
Again, Sincerely, Doc Dan (CDCI)
***@****

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Hi. I've been clean of Vicoden for 6 days now.  The shakes rarely occur and my appetite is returning.  The initial withdrawal was HORRIBLE.  I felt like dying and asked my hubby to take me to hospital.  Instead, we contacted a doctor friend and told us how to taper me off the nasty stuff.  I also have not touched booze (for me, beer) in more than two weeks.  My question to you.  When will I have my strength back?  When will my endorphins be produced naturally?.  I am still having problems sleeping at night.  My doc has me on Xanax every 4 hours or as needed.  I would like to stop taking all pills, but my lack of sleep is zapping what is left of my energy.  Any ideas on energy filled foods?  Mulitvitamins?  I hope the rest of the people can get as far as I have.  If they go through the withdrawals at home, some may not use again, as I have not.  The humiliation of my hubby finding me on the bathroom floor was enough for me to stop and fight this monster.  Neena

[susanlea]

are endorphines the same as dopamine levels? Is this want makes a person able to enjoy life, movies, sex , food?  I need a little education here, thanks

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

Just in case you are sceptical about Dan's advice on vitamins, I have something to add. I was sent home with bottles of B complex, folic acid and thiamine. While in the hospital I was given IM doses of B and thiamine. I was also told to eat a high protein diet and get plenty of excersize. Excersize supposedly triggers good hormone production such as endorphines and a few others that I can't remember. A good blood work and consultation with a dietician can bring you a lot of relief. My blood tests indicated that I was completely run down and suffering from malnutrition. We tend to not take care of our body's needs when using drugs. When we do detox, we get to feel all the effects of this neglect both physically and mentally. Take care and be well!

[To sick and scared from Neena]

I am a practicing Vegetarian.  My protein levels are low probably anyway.  Since my bottoming out, I have begun to eat cottage cheese and drink milk.  I also snack on cheese slices.  I usually get my proteins from beans, but since my withdrawals, I have not been able to stomach any form of beans.  I am taking a multivitamin and trying take move around as much as possible.  Am I getting enough proteins to help rebuild myself?  I have gained the weight back though.  I am considering hard boiling some eggs for animal proteins.  Also, I have periods of total fatigue.  Is this normal?  I know that the insomnia is part of it, but I feel zapped at times.  When will I sleep through the night?  Right now, I go from about 10pm til 3am.  I am also concerned about getting addicted to the Xanax.  I try to skip a dose once a day.  What are the withdrawals like from Xanax?  I dread getting addicted to anything ever again.  Thanks for your concern, Neena

[Frankinscense]

Hang in there Neena you are doing good. As to be expected. As time passes you endorpnins WILL peplinish themselves. Only in rare cases will endorhin production be effected. Exercise (very important for endorphin production)good high protien diet with meats high in vitamin b 12. Try a good multivitamin with minerals. The more days drug free you can achieve the better off you are in the endorphin department. One day of relapse will interupt the delicate balance in your brain chemistry that is needed for neurohormone production. Research has said that if a person continues to have problems with energy and depression one may try a mild antidepressant that will help production of another vital neurotransmiter norepinephrine(aka noradrenaline).
Such as the antidepresants known as NARI's. In my opinion I would never take high dose of any antidepressant unless I was severely depressed. The first one that comes to mind is Remeron. Good for sleep and norepinephrine production. But I would use them
in conservative doses. It is my opinion that prozac, zoloft,etc.,etc or overused. And in doses that R way too high for mild depressions or mood disorders. There are some other norepinephrine specific A/depresants.  Research says using imipramine type drugs for energy related problems is somewhat effective. I had some success with Elavil 50 mgms. at bedtime. But the drawback here is 3-6 weeks it takes for these antidepressants to work. I think 4-6 weeks alone without medications will be enough time for a mild vicodin type addiction. This should be enough time for the body to start producing stores of endorphin and other valuable neurohormones/transmitters.  Sincerely,Doc...

[Frankinscense]

Drug use and abuse effect stores all neurotransmiters such as dopamine,endorphins,serotonin,and norepinephrine. Abstinence will allow the brain to replinish these valuable neurohormones/transmitters. Sleeplessness and fatique are common until the brain replinishes these brain chemicals.Abstinence is the key. Be stong keep the faith your body will normalise itself.
Neena vegetarian diets are not my speciality. I would suggest talking to a dietician or a physician who can do some bloodwork to determine where you defienicies are. In the mean time split soup will help blood that is low in iron. Eggs are a good source of protein. IS their any fish that you could eat temporarily. Vegetarians are notorius for having low levels of vitamin B12.
Have you tried protien shakes? Having normal levels of B12 is most important for energy levels. Low B12 levels = anemia. Go to your doctor and request bloodwork. Anemia and other defiencies can cause major health problems. Good Luck and be Spiritual!
Sincerely,
Doc...

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

As far as fatigue goes, I go through that everyday. It's partly due to my Hep C and the pain I am in. Some of it may be due to depression. I think that I have insomnia for the same reasons. I do sleep but am up several times during the night with nausea and frequent urination. I was taking Xanax for about three months but quit about six weeks ago. I had no withdrawals that I'm aware of. I was only taking one .5mg tab before bedtime.
The dietician told me to try and eat 5 smaller meals per day rather than 3 bigger ones. She recommended a high fiber and protien diet well rounded with all the major food groups. My cholesterol level is very low at 93 so I can eat all the eggs I want. I've been eating a lot of fish and poultry which is better than beef and pork on your digestive tract. I'm also limiting my salt and sugar intake.

I've only been taking Lorcet for pain and my wife is strictly in charge of dosing me. I'm seeing two specialists later this month and hopefully will get something stronger than Lorcet. Right now I can work for maybe thirty minutes and then I have to sit down for 15. Chronic pain is exhausting!

[To sick and scared from Neena]

It's been three weeks, and still no cravings for Vicoden.  Yeah!
Appetite is back and making plans to begin my tennis career again.  I hope that I may be of inspiration to all of you.  Most of all, I hope that I can stay away from the pills.  So far so good.  I feel like a different person...I am feeling life again.  Neena

[Lynn to Neena]

Wow, all I can say is thank you for sharing this with me.

[To sick and scared from Neena]

I guess my turning point began when I firmly believe that I had taken way too many pills and drank a few beers too.   I think that I may have nearly OD and as some people say...I may have been scared straight.  The next following days, weeks, as you know were HORRIBLE AND HUMILIATING.  My family, my husband and a few vital friends have held me up and pushed me forward.  Another turning point was during the 3 or 4 days of total withdrawal, my husband came in and found me on the floor of our bathroom with my head in the toilet gagging.  The look in his eyes was more than I could take.  As we watch his brother die of cancer, I found myself needing to be the strong one.  Not to mention, my wonderful 21 mos.old daughter.  Lynn, my best friend was murdered in 1995.  They still have not found the man who did this.  He raped her after he handcuffed her and drowned her in her own bathtub.  This is when my life began to spiral down hill.  I guess I decided that God wants me to live and move on and get over her death.  I don't want to go through my life on pills or drunk.  I want to live.  I am trying to get out more, even just driving around with my baby.  As soon as the weather clears, I begin my tennis again.  Hopefully the drug abuse has done no permanent damage.  Also, I went to visit my hook up the other day, as she is a friend.  When she opened her purse 3 full scripts of 60 vicoden came pouring out.  I got chills and almost gagged right there.  She would not have given them to me anyway, but, what I am trying to convey to you here is...I think you have to hit ROCK BOTTOM before you can say NO.  I was near death, or at least it felt like it.  Surround yourself with those who love you, those who will not judge your actions.  I can't tell you how it feels to get up in the morning and not need a fix.  Although, I feel the actual pain that got me in this situation, I am allowing myself to go through this.  I am feeling life again, getting up earlier and yes, still taking Xanax, as needed.  Mostly at night is when I take it, or if I feel like the shakes or boredom is coming on.  I guess the long and short of it is...I WANT MY LIFE BACK.  NO MAN, NO PILL, NO BEER WILL RULE MY LIFE AGAIN.  I will pray for you wherever you are and that you may have the strength to say no.  Flush em' baby, go through the 4 days of Hell, then look in the mirror.  I bet you'll like who you see.  Everyday gets better.  No lie.  Good luck. Neena

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Hi. I'll be out of town until Sunday.  I'll check on you as soon as I get in, I promise.  Hang in there.  ps. Hope you don't live in Florida, ha ha.  Neena

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

I am sorry to hear that you are leaving this forum. The reason I visit here is to hear all the many opinions that are posted about addiction. Some of your posts helped me.
I have to admit that Doc Dan's advice is getting a bit tedious day after day. Methadone is not the only answer for conquering addiction. It's just "his opinion".

Anyway, good luck! You are right about one thing though... most of us end up abusing drugs because we like it. After a million studies have been done on addiction, that's what it all boils down to. We just like it!

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

OOPS! sorry Neena my last post was for Vocodin Girl. I screwed up on my names again. Guess I'm not awake yet!

[Lynn to Neena]

Good for you! How did you get through it? Are you still taking xanax for sleep and anexiety, because those are hard to kick, also. A couple of weekends ago felt like we wanted to die, but painfully, slowly, we got through it. Well, you did anyway, I relapsed. No willpower. What does it feel like to actually get through a day straight, without worrying about where your next pill is going to come from? I'm tired if I don't have any percs, and I'm tired if I eat them because they don't give me the energy   they used to. Now its a psychological thing, seeing that vial of pills in my pocketbook. What is keeping you from calling your connection? I want to be where you are!!!

[Lynn to Neena]

I live in Connecticut, I wish we were close so we could meet. You really must be feeling better to be able to pack and get on a plane. I am not well enough to do that, it would be too much effort. Fucken pills sapped the life out of me.

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Actually, I live in Texas and we are going to Galveston for the weekend.  It's very close.  I'm a beach gal, by birth, but prefer the mountains and cold air.  I've never been to Connecticut...it's one of those places I've always wanted to visit.  The Fall colors...we don't see that around here.  So, I am summoning up the strength to pack up the Tahoe and the baby and hubby, not an airplane.  I'll need my xanax for that. he he.  Still, no codiene.  I do get the shakes a little radomly.  Doctors say it could be weeks before my body is in balance and since I'm a vegetarian that could be months.  I can't take the laptop with us this weekend, cuz all of baby's stuff takes up sll the space.  I'll check in with you as soon as I get in.
Have you tried tapering off the pills?  I know your fear.  The withdrawals come every 4 hours depending on how often you are taking them.  Cut the pills in half and take at your usual times.  See what happens with your body.  Also, a CD that I own helped through the hard times.  I don't know your age, but I am a 60's child.  The CD that I listened to is Joni Mitchell, titled Hits.  It is very inpirational to me, as it brings back memories of times before pills.  You may run out and buy it.  Who knows.  Gotta run pack for baby.  Neena

[Lynn to Neena]

Well,honey, I definitly hit Rock Bottom Friday. I was told by my supervisor that I have 30 days to look for another job (I work at Yale University) or she is going to fire me. Any do you know what I owe it all to? Fucken pills!!! I am a receptionist and my mood swings came through over the telephone and people were complaining, plus I used a lot of sick time when I was actually withdrawing. I think she suspected something, and she wants me out! So now I will have no choice but to straighten up and fly right because I need a job (who doesn't) Listen up everyone, there is a lesson to be learned here. Drugs cost your life, I don't care how sick I am while detoxing, I learned my lesson. And I hope everyone else reading this can learn from me. I cried myself to sleep last night, I have no one else to blame but myself. So this was my rock bottom. God help me. I can see how people commit suicide although I NEVER would myself, but I can see how it can occur in a situation like this. I'm not looking for pity, just trying to convey a message here.

[To Lynn from Jo]

Lynn, I read your posts and my heart and sould aches with yours.  I have been right where you are.  ROCK BOTTOM.  Those freaking pills almost ruined my life and cost me everything I hold dear.  I am six weeks clean this Monday.  Best thing I ever did for myself, my family and my career.  I almost lost all of the above because of the pills.  When I decided to quit, it was HORRIBLE, much worse than I ever expected because foolishly I had done no research before I started.  But the smartest thing, and the hardest thing I did was to come "clean" (bad pun) to my family and they were the best throughout the whole thing.  If I didn't have their support I think I would have considered suicide.  I had two newly filled bottled of 90 pills each and I flushed them ALL down the toilet during the detox.  I felt so miserable and it kind of helped to blame them as if they were animate objects harming me.  The week I had to take off almost cost me a brand new job and I am a single mother of four children whom I don't even know what they did that week.  I thought about doing the rapid detox thing, but I'm glad I didn't because if I hadn't suffered so for that week, I probably would have gone back to using.  I also fessed up to my "friendly" doctor and my pharmacist and told them to mark my files NEVER to allow me those poison pills again.

I've read your various posts over the last weeks and was sorry to see you go back the last time.  I live in NYC, not too far from Connecticut.  If I could help you in any way, I will.  Even if you just want to talk or rant or rave, etc.  This site has helped me alot through the whole thing, and there were some friendly and helpful people I contacted privately during my hell weeks.

I truly with all my heart wish you the best in this quest, that it should be your final one.  Ang again, if there is anything I can do to help you, I will.

Safe Journey,

Jo

[Lynn to Neena]

Hi Jo, what an inspiring story! I have a double whammy here, because as I am looking and interviewing for a new job, I will also be detoxing, and no one can know about it! How horrible was yours, and what were your symptoms? Did you have diarehhea, anexity, depression, how long before all that passed? The hardest time for me is the morning when i "need" my morning percs to get me going, then I can get through the day, because I know there are more waiting for me when I get home and when I wake up in the morning. If my boss is giving me 30 days, can I expect 4,5,7 days of agony? What do you suggest I do? Ride it out and know it will pass with each day?  I considered going to a 4 day in-patient detox faciliy where they use buprenex, but I don't have the time right now, so if it can be done at home, I'd like to hear all about it. Thank you for all your support and advice.  Neena, see all you missed? Hope you had a nice trip.

[to Vicodin Gurll]

If you can make it down to NJ, there is a doc there named Gooberman who will give you buprenorphine and you can detox at home, in 3 days, with virtually NO pain or withdrawal.  He also gives you a few other scripts for muscle relaxants and stuff just in case you have some, but most people don't even need them.  The whole thing, buprenorphine included is just over $200.00.  You can get an appointment on a day or two notice.  All confidential.  Must pay cash (no insurance covers it). Go to www.detox-center.com (his website).  Buprenorphine is a miracle drug.  It's worth the short drive.  Good luck!!

[Jo NYC]

I've read other people's posts describing their detox, some of them going through it multiple times.  I cannot imagine that at all.  Once was definietly enough for me.  It was like when I was pregnant and everyone told be labor was bad but you forget ALL about it when the baby's born.  Labor was H-A-R-D.  THe detox was much harder.  For me it was four days of pure hell, the shakes, the runs, vomiting and the time just seemd to go by in slow motion.  Seconds tick, tick, ticking away.  I took Ativan at night to sleep.  It helped a little.  I cannot imagine working through those days. No way.  You won't be able to.  About day five I stopped feeling like a Toxic Avenger (with poison coarsing through my veins, that is how the detox was for me).  I was still really weak, but was able to go OUTSIDE for a little, walk the dog and make my kids lunches.  Again without my family helping me, I NEVER would have made it through.  My advice is tell a family member or good friend you can trust, drink LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of water, take hot baths and tell yourself it'll only be a day or two more.  After 7 days you will not beleive how much better you feel, all around.  I got my personality back, and I just felt "clear headed".  Mind you, I was still weak and a little jittery, but all around the best thing I ever did.  Going out patient might be helpful, those other medications help the symptoms of the detox.  And maybe you can get help for the emotional side of it.  That is tough too.  After 10 days I went back to work, and while driving I reached into the ashtray for some change and found my emergency stash of pills.  If I was going to fall, that would've been the moment.  I tossed them out my car window going around 60 MPH and watched them hit the Grand Central Parkway and smiled all the way to work.  

Lynn, you can do it and stay clean..you seen like a very intelligent woman.  Don't live your life a slave to those pills.

Neena, your story is uplifting and heartwarming to all who suffer in silence and secrecy.  I applaud you in your recovery.

Best to you both, and everyone else out there.

Jo

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Sounds like you and I suffered the same HORRIBLE withdrawals.  Even now, I have times of fatigue and depression.  I try to keep busy.  I suffered so badly from guilt, that I spiraled into near death physically and emotionally.  I am finding out that I have lots of "baggage" and the pills were only stuffing all of it down, as I have with alcohol also.  I will admit the Vicoden gave me a nice high, but soon I was having to double the dosage to feel the same or not feel my pain.  Now when I look at the sky, I see the sky, the moon and the sun.  I actually feel emotions and laugh alot more.   A quote from my husband..." It makes my heart soar to hear you laugh again."  Jo, congrats on tossing the pills.  Stay strong and stay with me on this.  Lynn, how are you?  Let us know what's up, no matter the story.  We have been down that road, hit the potholes, got 4 flat tires but kept on driving.  I think I can, I think I can......remember the little train that could?  Neena

[To sick and scared from Neena]

Wow, while I was walking on the seawall in Galveston watching a storm come in, you guys were coming clean.  My worst symptoms lasted approx. 7 days.  Coming clean to the family is VERY important because you need their support and to dole out the meds in the correct step down method.  If going cold turkey...hang on.  I went cold turkey for 2 days then got a doc's ok to taper off the vicodens.  It helped some, actually very little, but the alternative was the hospital for me. Lynn, sorry bout the job thing.  Consider it a sign from above. :)  I also, FLUSHED MY 4 SCRIPS OF VICODENS DOWN THE TOILET WHILE DETOXING....it does allow you to put the blame on something else other than yourself for a moment and give the rats in the sewer all Hell of a party.  He he.  I think it's been 3 weeks now for me, maybe 4, not sure.  I need to start tapering the Xanax now.  Mostly at night do I take them.  The withdrawals are absolute HELL girl, and you will want to die, but hang in snoopy, cuz someone is watching you and wants you to come out on the other side of this with a new perspective on this demon.  Inform all pharmacies of your problem and your doctor.  This addiciton is VERY, VERY, VERY common.  Their are other pain relievers on the market, but you have to ALLOW YOURSELF TO ACTUALLY FEEL THE REAL PAIN BEFORE CROSSING OVER.  Go for walks, hug your dog or cat, goldfish, etc...drink lots of Gatorade and Pepto Bismol and hang close to the bathroom.  And, most of all....DON'T KICK YOURSELF WHILE YOU'RE DOWN.  I'll be back on later today, house is a wreck...looks like a drug addict lives here. He he. Neena

[to Vicodin Gurll]

All the stuff about Gooberman is about UROD (ultra rapid detox), not about his use of buprenorphine.  Buprenorphine works great.  If you want to go through withdrawal without it, fine, be ready for a week of hell.  If you have $200 or so, go to him and spare yourself.  Your choice.

[Lynn to Neena]

You've all been angels on my shoulders throughout this whole ordeal. I know now that enough is enough with these pills. They cost me my job, what next? Jail, institution, death? Oh I'm just gonna miss that euphoric feeling, its been such a part of my life   for so long.
Oh yes, about Dr. Gooberman..There is website www.heroin-detox.com that talks all about buprenex and Dr.Gooberman, you have to scroll way down to Septemer. Its interesting to say the least.

[To sick and scared from Neena]

You need not walk that horrible road.  A job is only a job.  Lot's of them out there.  Try a temp agency after your detox.  They usually have you a job with a day or so.  Be careful on the information that you take in.  Sometimes you need to suffer a little during the detox to make it stick, as I did.  Let yourself feel the poison leaving your body, as it's almost like an exorcism. He he.  At least, for me it was.  I looked like Linda Blair in the movie, The Exorcist.  Never again.  I'll make sure your guardian angel guides you in the correct way, but it is your choice in the end.  Best of luck.  Hang in. Neena

[To sick and scared from Neena]

WHERE ARE YOU????  I am worried.  Please just check in, in between scores, even.  I'm still clean. Yeah.  Neena

[Patrice]

To Joe

Please stop taking those damn pills!!!!!!   My husband and I went through hell and now we are back, I started this whole thing about 3 years ago.  I was in recovery for many years, I am a heroin addict.  I got clean at 29.  When I got older or I should say we, my husband included, westarted having chronic pain conditions.  We THOUGT we COULD take them as presribed---------------WRONG.  We used all the online pharmacies, and 3 weeks ago I was taking 100mg of norco a day and my husband wasnt too far behind.  Then we ran into some old friends.  They are heroin addicts.  ANyway 3 weeks ago I was taking 100 mg of norco and shooting 1 gr of heroin everyday.  I was shooting it in my butt, because I have no veins left.  Please stop before this ruins your life!!!!!  We alsmost lost everything.  Lucky we are alive and still have our home our cars and our CC, but if we didnt stop, we would have lost it all, just like that.  Today we are on a new detox called buprenphine/naloxon.  We feel great are going to NA meeting everyday and have our lives back.  I know that the day will come when we do have to take narcotics, I have a surgury in Feb.  I will give them to someone I can trust to give them to me as I need them.  Good luck Joe,we caredont go where we did PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love Ya

Mike and Patrice

[Patrice]

Hi guys  I too have been down the terrible road of addiction.  I wrote a note to Joe this morning and it still hasnt shown up.  Whats up with that???  I am a heroin addict who was clean for 12 years.  Well I got clean at 29 and now at 46 found myself dealing with many chronic pain issues.  Vicodins are so easy to get, esspecially if you are a patient at Kaiser,thank God I am not anymore.  To make a long story short, I will leave my hubby out of this letter because its his bussiness if he wants to share.  I started taking those pills as prescribed, and now 2 years ater I was eating 100mg of norco a day and shooting a gram of heroin.  This diease is truly cunning baffeling and powerful.  I had to make a desion before we lost our home and our cars and everthing else.  We are on a detox called Buprenephine/naloxon.  It has saved our lives!!!!!!  Yes I know that the time will come when I will need to take narcotics, but this time, I will have my sponser in NA hold them for me and she will give me one if and when I need it.  This is not a game, this is a life and death situation, beleive me I have OD'ed sold myself and stole for those drugs.  Thank God I didnt have to do that this time!!!  Im too old anyway LOL.  Joe PLEASE quit join NA and learn what recovery is all about.  I can tell you that methadone maintenence is BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Everyone I know is shooting drugs on top of it.  This new treatment will hopefully one day get rid of methadone.  That is the most addicting drug in the world, see yuo will kick that habit for months.  My friend was in a bathrobe for 6 months kicking.  I will close now, hoping this one will be posted saying trust God and NA and God isnt religious in NA it is anything you want it to be.  My God looks like Harrison Ford.  

Love to all

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[to Kat]

Don't you have access to a car and $220.00?  If so, why won't you go to Dr. Gooberman, get buprenorphine and get off the drugs WITHOUT the horrible withdrawal?  Perhaps I'm missing something, please enlighten me.  Phil

[Lynn to Neena]

I'm not feeling too great, thats why I havent posted.  Still cant     come off these percs! I'm still at my old job but have until 12/23 to find a new one, and I cant detox and look for a new job at the same time! I dread looking for a new job (I'm in my 40's) and don't know how to do all that much, the percs ate most of the receptors in my brain. I'm so glad to hear you are clean. Except I see your having a little trouble with xanax. I eat one half of a blue every night because I toss and turn, so much on my mind. Was it "only" 4 days of pure hell to come off the codine?  God, I wish I had your strength.

[Brian to Sick and Scared]

Lance is his first name.  Of course they will give you directions.  It is easy to find, right off the Jersey Turnpike.  Please go!!  You will be sooo happy to get off the narcotics with minimal withdrawal.  And, if you go, since you already have clonidine, don't bother to fill the script for clonidine he gives you.  Just use the buprenorphine, it's all you'll need.  Please don't be scared.  You will be thanking me as soon as you inject the buprenorphine and as soon as you stop it and find you feel fine and withdrawal is over.  Then you will look back and think to yourself, how silly was I, worried about doing this.  Other people in this country would LOVE to be in your shoes, with this buprenorphine as easily and affordably available as close to you as it is!  Lots of people are going to Fla. and paying $1,000.00 for the same damn thing!  Good luck, Phil

[Frankinscense]

You are a very good candidate for opiate agonist treatments. These treatments are medicine to replace the neurotransmitters that have been depleted due to huge doses of opiates. There is hope! Opiates can cause, as you know a person to become endorphin challange.(sp ?) Methadone or LAAM is not a opiate replacement but a medicine to replace the lack of endorphins at your receptors. As long as you have a lack of endorphins you will continue to CRAVE opiates and ALL drugs. Research as found that MMT,LAAM,buprenorphine especially work at the receptor to stop,not only opiates,but alcohol,benzodiazepines and other drugs. Some people on MMT crave stimulants  because they are not at an adequate dose.  I am on MMT because buprenorphine was not and is not available  to all. Sources are available for my info upon request.
Dan Swatty  B.S.W. C.D.C.I.

[Lynn to Neena]

Yes to both. I have the money and my husband could drive me, but we don't know the first thing about New Jersey. Will they give me directions? What is his first name? (Lance?) I guess its fear more than anything else it would be about a 2 hour drive. And I'm so hell bent on doing this on my own (I have about 15 clonodine)But I would much rather the bup.

[Joeface]

it's more like a question, I have been taking vicoden for years for back pain. I do not know if I can or want to get off them due to my cronic (chronic) pain. My wife wants me to get off and I don't think she knows how I feel when im in pain or sore. Any ideas Joe A

[Calzy]

After years of taking pills, it is good to taper off the pills and see how you pain level really is or is it withdrawer pain you are feeling now. Please start a new post and you will get all kinds of options to help you. This one is from 2000

[Joeface]

Can anyone give me some words of encouragement? Im having a bad day.
Thanks JOeface