Is to recovery for me naturally?

I want to recover but do not want to deal with doctors and medicine, just a natural human mind recovery. I want to gain control of my mind again and I need this naturally is there no hope for me? I am doomed I feel but aint got no time to get old, I'm weak and I need to be free but I can't in this pot addiction. I am on it right now as I speak and I just need to stop, I don't know what to do anymore because I see other things like people at a party, and I dont know what to do in social situations anymore make me so uncomfortable, I feel theres something missing, Im a normal person too and not anything wrong with me, just the mind is something wrong with my mind. If I can gain control of my mind I can gain control of my life again. I need this but if I cant.... I dont know what else more I can say right now okay thanks for reading.

[zzzaaaccckkk]

Sounds  like u need  new social situations. Found new  people places or things that don't require to smoke. I gave up on a group of friends that I have known since I was 6. In 28 yrs now eight r dead.  Luckly I was blessed with several social groups, those that I thought were lame n boring now seem new n exciting. Once this passes n u will pass thru it. Use this forum it has saved my life in just 8 days. Its quite now, people trying to sleep but post again. U will find great help here

[Coolio Hernendez]

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[Clamity2]

Yes God is there for you. I smoked pot for 20+ years. It never enabled me in social situations. I felt like the person on the inside looking out. Invisible. Life is brighter without it and so are you. and I. I can see you're depressed from your tags. Keep coming here and try to give yourself some time without it. (smoke) It may be a depressant to you.
I believe in God. So I will pray for you with my son , little D right now. May you spirit be refreshed and full of hope. Love yourself you are worthy. Message me if you want.

[forgetme]

thanks for your help I am tryin real hard but is very hard, the people I known since I was grade 5 really get in my head and know how to tick me off. I feel i'm losing my mind sense of reality, My group of friends if I leave them I will have nobody and I am not good at meeting new people, I don't trust people easily and they always backstab me in the end. I dont know what to do I wish I didnt feel any emotions.

[GoingToMakeIt]

Have you tried amino acids to help with mood? It sounds like you are really down. Look in my journals for the amino acid post and see if those things would help you. Until your mood comes up. You may have a tough time taking control of anything in your life.
Good luck and Keep posting.

[forgetme]

Hi I have problems falling asleep and controlling my mind. I have constant mood swings and get myself in situations where I will be really angry at someone for small things. My mind takes it the wrong way. I wish I can understand it all and process it different. It's holding me down and wont let go.