It's time...

[Tanner1982]

I'm almost 31 years old. I started with a few occasional vic's then moved up to Oxycontin, then about 5-6 years in the Methadone clinic, a couple brief moths with H, then several years of Suboxone- I found out really quick that getting off of Subs is next to impossible. I don't know if it was the correct choice but I switched to Oxycodone IR's for about the past month but we all know how that goes. (I am currently on about 100-120mg's per day). Now I am to the point where I just want my life back and feel like I will do almost anything (including W/D's) to get it back.
I am absolutely scared ********. I have a wife and kids and run my own business and I understand that it's not going to happen overnight and it will most likely be the most difficult thing I have ever done.
The reason I am posting this is because I need help. I need the support of all of you have done it and others like me who are getting ready to take the plunge. I've never posted anything on this site before but when I noticed a woman who made it through her "Hell week" with the help of all the awesome people out there I decided I would ask for your help. I am desperate to get clean. I want to experience reality and enjoy my kids, and even more they deserve to have a dad who is clean.
I've done a lot of research and I know about everything from Ammodium to Kratom and I am almost ready. I have 4 15mg left and I told all of my "friends" that I am getting clean. I changed my number and have no more plugs for anything. I do have a handful of vic's and was planning on using them to try to sleep a little. (I know I shouldn't cheat but I really think it's the only way I can do it).
I know this was really long. You support and comments would be greatly appreciated!
THANK YOU! -Tanner

[chris011369]

im new to this forum and glad to see u are doing good tanner.
maybe u can pay it forward and give me some advice. today is day 1 for me quitting cold turkey from oxy. up to 480 mg a day and scared to death to do this. just running low on pills i start to panic so the thought of not doing any more at all scares the bajeebas out of me

[VICourageous]

GREAT JOB You have come aways. The brain takes a bit longer to heal or fire up because of the neur/trans that we had unbalanced. The weakness for me was my last stage in detox very weak. I stated to add protien in all my meals during the day. Plus protein drinks. I stayed away from the sugars and simple carbs because the spiked the insuline up and it drops hard. As far as sleep I had a issue again about two weeks ago. I posted it try to find it, "People with months help"by vvic it is full of great info....Other wise Hang Tuff you are doing a wonderful job. Next time you post start a new one so we can see it is new...I am sure there will be some in and out when they see the date and time on here.
God Bless hang tight it does get better..

vickie

[Tanner1982]

Did it. What a breeze. ((J/K!!!))
Day 6/7 and I still feel like crap. I can't get out of bed for the life of me in the morning and it's probably because of the 1 hour (and 10mins) of sleep I got? Foggy head & no energy whatsoever.
Been trying to make my self exercise and I got a couple different herbal supplements but does anyone know how how before my head will be right again? (Or at least sleep?)

[Tanner1982]

Thanks Vickie!

[Tanner1982]

Thanks everyone. Sorry i haven't been on. I've been running around like crazy today trying to get ready. Going to try to get some sleep. Tomorrow will be day 1 with absolutely nothing. (Besides a Vic or two). My wife is already irritated with me and the kids need constant attention that I know I wont be able to give them so I decided to stay in a hotel. Hopefully it is the correct decision. I got the blood pressure meds from the hospital today and about 75% of my work. I think Im ready?

[VICourageous]

Hi again. I was the one that did the first post to tell you to keep checking post...WOW NoLife4Me that was some GREAT info.....I wish I knew that around 6 months ago!!!
As I had posted Tanner you seem to be a very smart cookie. I know you will do great with your sucess. Keep posting and stay with medhelp because YOU will be a great one to share your experiences with the ones who will come in behind you...
Keep on trurckin forward and do not look back.....
God Bless You
vickie idaho