Hell week is over!

[throwindatowl]

I made it. My first week is over. I want to thank all of you that helped. Its been a rollercoaster ride for sure. I made some friends this week. Thankyou friends. For anybody thats really scared, TRY not to be. Take things one day at a time. I just want to tell you what I did this week that I think helped me. Last Friday I made up my mind that I was quiting this week and took 120mg roxys. Sat I took 60mg-bad ween down plan. Im an addict and planned on taking 30mg on Sat and Sun but did what I had Saturday. Sunday I dropped my daughter off to my ex early-wd started. Monday-wd slept,back hurt,cold sweats. Tuesday-wd couldnt sleep back hurt, cold sweats but they were getting better. Wenesday was a key day.wd getting better. back hurt, only afew cold sweats,head ache STARTED NA AGAIN! Im self employed and do not think I couldve made it to a job these days. Not a chance. Thursday-went back to work.back hurt,head ache,the sadness set in, I cried, I cried alot that day. The anxiety was there all the days forgot to put that in. Friday-worked a full day without much of a problem. headache,stomach issues.no sleep. I picked up my daughter friday and her hug made me oh so happy. The sadness seemed to almost dissapper with that hug. Saturday-hot flases but they didnt last long and were not to frequent. Able to go to the park and WATCH my lil one play with the other kids. Sleep getting alittle better. Bad dreams. The sadness was pretty much gone. Finally today-stomach getting alot better. eating again. I did eat this week but not that much. Just couldnt make myself. I lost about 10lbs. bummer it was all muscle and I go to the gym 2 to 3 times a week. I erased  a months of hard work at the gym this week. WORTH IT. So I sit here tonight posting and I have no pain. I dont want to cry. My sense of humor is comming back. I feel so much better. Posting here helped so much. The kind people made a huge difference. Cant wait for tomorrow. Not really looking forward to tonight and my sleep is still messed up. Bad dreams,drug dreams. Going back to the gym tomorrow. and will go to work. Taking my lil one to school. That makes me happy.Wenesday Im going to NA Im making it known they will be my home group and will pick my sponsor.  I shouldve done this by now. Shame on me. This was my hell week and Im glad its over. I was clean for 6 weeks before I relapsed for 2 weeks. NA wouldve kept me clean. I hope this helps someone. I did and  it you can too..

[Tommyco]

I seriously live off your posts man thank you for getting through thisbefore me and showing me it can be done
I'm scared but I'm ready
My life hurts me more than any of this physical stuff will
Congratulations and I mean that from the bottom of my heart
Seriously inspiring, I'm right behind you bro

[feohmoon]

Just wanted to say congratulations...I am so glad that you are feeling better.
Best of luck to you - Inspirational stories are always great to read.
Peace

[throwindatowl]

Same to you Brother Frankie! Yeah it must have hell week in fl. Im sure you and were not the only ones suffering. Thats sad. Whats not sad is you and I are clean today.
Congrats!!!

[kimbo546]

That is way cool... Good for you. Happy you are doing so well already that is awesome. Keep posting let us know how you are. Have a great night. Kim

[BrotherFrankie]

great job..

we are on the same timetable last week..

must a been heel week here in florida..

be blessed bro

Brother Frankie

[BrentD]

Congratulations! Sounds like you are already starting to see and enjoy the new life outside of drugs. Also sounds like you have a good plan to help not relapse this time. Keep up the great work and thanks for sharing your story!

-Brent

[quitinoxys]

Hey thats great, doesn't it feel wonderful when you get your life back. I am proud of you keep it up. Remember one thing though addiction is a sneaky animal and it will try to tell you that you can do it one time without a problem NOT. Keep up with the aftercare and NA meetings as they will keep you safe. You have a great attitude so that's half the battle. I wish you much luck on your journey to sobriety and I will pray that God will be by your side addition tries to rear it ugly head. God Bless---quitin