Jumping criday

[tramadollover1234]

I am trying not to build it up in my mind and be very positive. I leave for Canada Tuesday for vacation. I'm really excited and have packed everything. I am fully prepared for my jump. Getting a little nervous but am living each day to the best of my ability

[BearsFan1966]

Good luck to you and you will be in my thoughts for a easy WD and a fun vacation!

[tramadollover1234]

Thank you. There isn't much movement on this thread. I might leave the community. I'm barely getting any responses ;(

[Langer413]

Don't leave the community, it's just been a slow week. We can do this together - I'm on day 3 again (see my post from today). It's a journey for us - and a challenge. Get into an aftercare program immediately! You'll hear that preached over and over, because it works. Nobody judges you, because everyone is in the same situation. It's normal to be anxious, but try not to build it up in your head too much. Some of the process is mind over matter. Someone on here said "pain is inevitable but suffering is optional."

[tramadollover1234]

Thank you kindly for your response Hun. I'll stick around. I appreciate your words. I'm going in very positively. I have aftercare setup for when I'm home from my vacation. I jump Friday and leave late Monday night so I'll be ok. I have zero access to pills and have cut off my ties so that won't be a problem. I have blocked everyone from reaching me on my phone and social media. I just need to get through the couple days at home and then I'll be very distracted on vacation for 8 days. I am happy i won't be at home crying in bed. But rather with the love of my life!

[atthebeach]

are you still taking two pills now?

[mlajl]

Good luck to you!  I try to get on but been very busy lately.. I'm on day 20 clean.. and I'm feeling better.. enjoy your vacation.. it funny u mention Canada, I dreamed all night last night I was trying to sneak into Canada lol why I don't know. . I'm no where near canada.. I woke up tired from all my sneaking around the boarder I did hehehe I am assuming the bizarre dreams are from the withdrawals. . Cutting off all contact etc is a great idea.. social media can cause me anxiety at times... the new age of people being able to contact u anywhere any time is frustrating. . One of my decisions was to make myself less accessible. . So far I'm enjoying it.. again, good luck and have fun!

[tramadollover1234]

I am down to 1 pill. However I have done this before and am extremely sensitive and seem to still get pretty bad withdrawls. Majl that made me laugh lol! Part of me doesn't really even care at this point. I'll go through anything to get off these pills. I know it will be awful and I'm prepared as can be. I will enjoy my vacation and start aftercare the day I'm home. I honestly cannot and will not do this to my family and fiance any longer. I am done. I know it will be hard but it is what I HAVE to do. No questions asked. It's not who I am or who I want to be any more. I deserve more than this, I am confident with aftercare I'll be successful

[Langer413]

I'm so glad you'll be with supportive people during your detox/withdrawal! That's a huge benefit! I've got a great husband, mom, siblings, in laws, & friends cheering me on. Luckily I have a lot of nurses in my life that understand this evil drug and how easily the body/mind can become dependent/addicted. Exercise is huge too! Just a short walk in the sunshine gets your body producing natural endorphins which have been lacking since taking this drug. I just got back from taking my fur baby on a walk - and I feel fantastic! I'm only on day 3,so I know this might not last long - but I'll take it! You can do this!