Just Found out I am pregn,ant and am addicted to painkillers

[AshamedMariah]

Hi there, I have been abusing pain killers on and off for about 6 years. I just found out 1 week ago I am pregnant.  I have been taking 4 10 milligrams hydrocodones a day for the last few months.  I have 3, 5 mgs left. I wanted to taper but I am more addicted than I thought.  I am 5-6 weeks pregnant.  I am not sure what to do? Is the dose i was taking small enough to go cold turkey, although at this point i dont have enough to taper.  I am so ashamed so please avoid trying to make me feel any worse than what I already do.  Does anyone have any tips to make withdrawls easier?  HELP please.....I feel so desperate.

[autumnsky88]

It takes tremendous courage to admit your addiction. My very first hydro script was given to me while I was pregnant with my daughter- 15 years ago. I had a 9mm kidney stone! Obviously, I could not pass that. LoL! Kidney started shutting down, they put in a stent, etc.. I started having contractions because my body was under so much stress. They could not operate because the chances were high that I would lose her. They couldn't do anything but try to keep me comfortable. The stone moved so much that my urine was red for months. I wish I knew then how dependant I would become upon them. My daughter was, thankfully, healthy. They had to induce 3 weeks early to get that stone taken care of.
You are doing the right thing, but I wouldn't advise quitting cold turkey while pregnant.  I agree that if your doctor doesn't support and encourage, you need to find a new one! Everyone has their own struggles and need encouragement, not judgement! You are already putting your child first- you'll be a great Mom.
Stay Strong <3

[jshively]

Well my fiance is about 3 months pregnant and had a way larger problem than 40 mg's a day. She has found a doctor and now takes Subutex. Which is a safer alternative for the baby to Suboxone.. Which is an addiction medication used to taper people off of opiates..

[dominosarah]

You are never alone while you are here.  We are all addicts in different stages of recovery.  We know the feelings you are going thru right now.  Look around the forum and get comfortable.  We are open 24 hrs a day, 7 days a week.

[AshamedMariah]

I keep tearing up when I ready everyone's comments. EVeryone is so kind and understanding.  I felt so alone before I got on here.  God bless you, thank you.

[dominosarah]

That is why tapering down slowly will help.  Try and calm yourself, you will get thru this and we will be here to help you~~

[AshamedMariah]

Will definitely let you know.  This is my 2nd child, my daughter is 15 months old.  I scared of the withdrawls so bad because I do not want her to suffer from my STUPID mistake(s).