Just popped a few vitamins instead of my usual oxycodone at 1pm

[suz410]

uhhhh!!!!!!!!! I have 2 oxycodone in my purse and usually take them right now, so instead I took a multivitamin, vitamin D and a magnesium pill.  These 2 pills are supposed to last me the rest of the day, but it's only 1pm and i'm beginning to get hot flashes.  I hope it's all in my head.  Could I possibly be feeling effects of withdrawal if the last 2 I took were at around 8am?????? God, I really hope not, cause if so this is gonna suck big time.  I need to get over this right now.  2 more hours of work should keep me busy.  Off to distract myself with something other than those 2 little devils in my pocketbook :)  Wish me luck!

[melinda147]

I was wondering how long and how much you have been taking that will make a lot of difference in the way your w/d will last..
well be here for you..
Talk to you soon, Melinda

[sweatinit]

I am routing for you!! Nicely done Suz. keep posting. Hoep the rest of your day goes well.

[Babydoll124]

Honey, I know how you feel (re:  "two little devils in your purse.")  I haven't had a pill (oxycodone 10/325mg, taking 5-8 a day) since this past Monday.  Today is Thursday, and I'm feeling somewhat better, just no appetitie and slight runs.  I started tapering down from 5-8 to 4 to 3 to 2 and then 1 and then none on Monday.  I'm supposed to go to my doctor tomorrow for a refill, but am undecided if I should go.  I would hate to make all this progress (even though I know it's not over yet) just to start that roller coaster ride again.  The thing is I don't know how to handle the mind control part of this cold-turkey process, and I wish with all my might that I had just one right now to take the edge off.  So you pray for me and I will pray for you.

Carol

[sweatinit]

And I'll pray for all 3 of us.

[Babydoll124]

Thanks for your comment.  I must admit I had to laugh a little bit though.

[Dafishman]

Little Devils huh,,,,more like satan himself.

Trying to control pills is impossible because of the addictive nature and the euphoria that addict feels while on them. The oxy's started waking me up in the morning earlier and earlier to get my dose in. I am 5 days off them and having some sustacial w/d's but I know that FREEDOM is around the bend. God's strenght & you guy's will carry me thru. It can be that way for you too.  

Keep posting and hope you day ends well.

Dafishman

[Dafishman]

It's decision time. We both know the longer you take them the worse it will be. You are standing at the turning point. I was there on Sunday with 100 oxy's in my hand. I had not taken one since the day before and I was already miserable, I walked to the toilet and sent them where they needed to go. A long way from me.

How long have you been taking them & what are you going to do?

Do you have a plan?

Dafishman

[Babydoll124]

Wow, that must have taken great courage to just flush them like that.  I had wanted to do it too, but somehow couldn't.  I've been taking 150, 10/325 mg since 2007. I have no plan, and as a matter of fact have my monthly doctor's appointment tomorrow, where I will get a prescription for another 150, and will probably have it filled and ruin all the progress I've made, until I run out again and do another cold-turkey withdrawal.  I have found that withdrawal is mental as well as physical.  How do you control the mental part of it?

[Babydoll124]

Just out of curiosity, how are you feeling now.  How did you finally decide that enough was enough?  What plan do you have?

[suz410]

Hey everyone,
My plan to take only 2 more for yesterday failed...I took 4 instead.  I went to the daycare to pick up 2 of my 3 kids (one of the twins is home sick w/ my mom) and found that the other twin had a fever when she woke from her nap.  So, I had to take the little one home and then the twin to the doctor....stress!  I was up all night w/ the twins and am pretty tired today.  I took 2 5mg this morning, along w/ my l-tyrosine.  No time for a whey protein shake w/ flaxseed like yesterday though.  I am rationing them till MOnday...only have 2 for each day actually, unless I cave and take em out of stress and then am left w/ nothing....which I normally do.  I am scared, but have no other choice since I'm out.  The script is supposed to last me a month and it's only been a week so far....60 pills!!!  Boy, this is totally out of control.  I wanted to work out last night, but being up w/ the kids every night for the past few nights has me exhausted.  Well, I'm at work and those little devil pills are home so I don't have a choice then to go till at least 4pm w/out one.  Wish me luck.  Thanks for the support.  I don't think I'd come this far w/out all of you!!!!
Sue