Just took my last 2 oxycodone 10/325

[nike123456]

Just popped my last 2 pills.  I am so scared about tomm :(  I been down this road a few times and know the next 5 days will be hell :(  but i finally know i need to let this drug go.  its starting to affect my family live, especially my relationship with my amazing wife.  She knows I take the pills but has no idea i been abusing  them :(  I've become a monster and i feel like I am going to lose her and my 3 beautiful kids.  I've been emotionally and mentally abusive towards her.  I been crying all day and feel like a dog for mistreating her so badly.  I pray GOD gives me the strength and courage to face this and JUST LET THESE PILLS GO.  

Been taking 8-10 pills a day for 12 months :(  

[nike123456]

Tina,

keep fighting girl.  You're life is worth it.  I missed so much chasing percs.  I never need to go into the streets to look for a dealer, but my dr was my dealer .  like clock work every 30 days i would walk into his office complain of back and leg pain and walk out with 180 pills.  I do have a back injury, but obviously i would over exaggerate my pain and discomfort.  I had the MRI's to prove the injury.  But i reallly started to abuse the pills really quickly...i would run out before my next appointment and I would face hell for 3-5 days every month. I never made it into the streets for pills becuase I live in a very dangerous city and never took that chance.  keep strong and know things wil get better each and every day.

[Jerry198]

Hey Bro just got back been out to sea enjoying life with no PC or CP so Glad that you have made it this far and you can see that those pills are a no win game.. once you make 20 you have thirty with no problem.

[Tina6444]

I just came across your post and wow I am impressed !!! I am a newbie and am fighting through to day four (9 am Tom)    This post is inspiring and just reading it has given me the determination to push through another hour.  Does it feel incredible without them now? Obviously I am engaged in mental battle as we speak and am telling myself over and over this is the right and Only decision.

[nike123456]

Yes the pain is much less without the pill.  the pill is a beast and will make you feel like you have crazy pain.  thats the craving working hard not the L4-L5 herniated disc.  I am very proud of myself, but i do have emotional swings that are hard to control and times but Thank GOD i have an amazing wife thats always checking on me and super supportive.  I look forward to day 60 and hope by than things will be much much better.  2+weeks is great but need to continue to focus and help my mind recover from the chemical abuse.  

[TikkiTT]

Plus, I'll tell you something else....something you well know....but, those kids will be grown and gone before you know  it.   Cherish the time you have with them and your wife.    She's a good woman to stand beside you through this and I know she is so proud of you.

[TikkiTT]

Congratulations!   I can echo what Langer said about the pain.   The first time I was on Norco, I had terrible knee pain, but I quit and for awhile, the pain was almost unbearable, but then a strange thing happened and my pain was much less....almost unnoticeable.    I went back on them to have knee surgery and PT and I dreaded quitting again but I no longer had any significant pain...I just liked how they made me feel.   So I finally did quit them....via a long taper...but I still had some withdrawals but I am glad to be off of them and if I ever need them again....I will try to find an alternative.   I know I can quit them...I have twice in the past, but for me, the lethargy doesn't make it worth it to get hooked on them again.   Also, I believe they are poison and no use in ruining otherwise good health taking something like that.