My Day 8- should feel better.

[overit2day]

I feel better each day.  I finally slept through the night.  I am totally anxious today.  I have so much to do, but the motivation is not there. I love the support that all of you have given me. My thoughts are all over the place and I am NOT having the best day. I know I can get through this.  I mostly just wanted to say thank you to all of you who have helped me get through this, especially my wonderful fiance.  This is all mental, right?  I can't even express how I am feeling right now... Better, but a crashing wave of emotions... Ok, I need to stop talking because I am not making sense. Hugs to you all...

[overit2day]

Thank you again for everything.  You have so much knowledge about everything and are so helpful to me, the fiance, and everyone on here.  I appreciate your encouragement. I am truly grateful..

[gnarly_1]

HI ...your doing great your clean from the pills you will start to feel better slowly you dident become addicted overnight ....I know this is the last thing you want to here but it takes time right now your brain is learning how to produce endorphins on it own again...oxy floods the brain with endorphins ...your brain has to get use to getting them naturally and that takes some time...the initial withdrawal is over but it is the mental mind screw thats the hard part to deal with...between the lack of endorphin and the mood swings life can be a ruff road when we detox...just know that you will eventually get back to normal...there are a few things you can do to try and help..go to the right hand side of the screen and scroll down and look up the amino acid protocal ..it has some supplements listed that will help heal your brain they have helped speed up recovery for many here....I drink whey protein shakes ....there loaded with vitamins as well as amino acids and protein all of witch the brain needs to heal you can pick it up at walmart for 15 bucks for a 2 lb can the choclate flavor is good all you do is mix it with milk it seams to help recovery...the main thing is try not to get discouraged ...attitude is everything when going thew this you have already came so far keep pushing forward ....good luck and God bless......Gnarly      

[overit2day]

I just want to be NORMAL AGAIN!!! Seriously? Why can't I just be back to myself?  Frustrated.

[overit2day]

Thank you so much for your kind words... I know what you mean by life revolving around pills. I am trying to stay as strong as possible.  One day at a time. I wish you luck too! Congrats on 12 days clean!

[xaddict30]

Stay strong u could do it. This is my 11th day clean I am feeling a whole lot better, the first few days were hell but I'm glad I'm able to sleep bout 6 hours now. My emotions are on a roller coaster up and down but I guess that's normal after I the comments I've read. I have been on 10/500 hydro four over 3 years after being hurt in iraq and just like the rest of u guys I got addicted. This pills have been destroying my life, my realtionship with my gf, daughter and everyone else. It seemed like my life was revolving around these I couldn't take it no more so I have stopped. I know I have along road ahead of me when it comes to recovery but u guys motivate me and gimme stregth to continue along. Thanks and I wish u guys thw best of luck and God bless, stay strong and remember take it a day at a time.

[overit2day]

Today is day 15... Fiance isn't home, I am alone... I feel ok, but anxious and a little sad.  I thought I would be completely over this and back to normal by now.  I guess not.  I hope everyone is doing well.  I wish I could stop feeling sorry for myself!  

[gnarly_1]

HI good to see you post....im happy things are starting to turn around for you congrats on 14 days...hows Mat doing?? I hope well im glad you posted it gives people hope that are just starting out that in 2 weeks things will start getting better...keep up the good work
and plug into some aftercare it will help you out a lot good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[MacMurphy]

3 weeks for me tomorrow and have finally turned a page the past couple of days.  Mental clarity is coming back, physical symptoms are better daily.  Mostly tired easy now.  First week was ruff.  Second week like a head bubble, with moderate physical symptoms.  Today, three weeks, I had stamina at work, blood pressure finally down a bit, slight hangover of leg symptoms.  Had benefit of xanax for anxiety and sleep, although only 4-6 hours the first week.  I was taking up to 150 mg HyC daily for too, too long.  I am OK mentally.  I have 60 on my shelf, and just refuse.  This three weeks of hell I don't want to repeat.  It gets better.  It is mind over matter, literally.  Fourteen days is an accomplishment.  Don't let the mind play tricks.  This is all normal, unfortunately.  Another fourteen and don't look back!

[overit2day]

I have been out of town and finally got home.  It was a little hard with all of the stress and anxiety I have been having.  I am finally sleeping again, mostly.  I hope everyone is doing well.  I think I am finally getting there, after 14 days!  It has seemed like 14 months! I am still dealing with the thought of it every day, but am staying strong.  I am thankful for everyone on here for sticking it out with me... Especially the fiance. I can't believe I have made it this far...

[vicki595]

Yes!!  You two need to begin a recovery program and the sooner the better.  There are many tools to help with cravings and thoughts.  Distraction is a huge tool !!!

Hang on you guys !!

Vicki  xo

[MattTheAttorney]

As you know, I know exactly how you feel.  I am having a hard time getting motivated today myself.  You have a fun day planned today.  Take it slow, but try to enjoy it.  I am so proud of how far you have come and am so thankful I had you (and everyone on here) to help me get through this.  

It actually feels like this part is harder than the wd.  That may be becuase physically I feel fine.  Mentally all I can think about is that one call could make all this better.  That is a call I won't make, not under any circumstance.  It's funny though.  In my first post I said a big part of teh reason I wanted to stop was because I was tired of thinking about pills, but all I do is think about them.  I am sure that is normal.  And since I have no intention of going back to the pills my aftercare starts next week.

Enough about me...I know you are having a rough time but all of these people cannot be wrong.  it will get better.  Hell it has to get better.  I love you and will talk to you soon.

Matt

[NorcBgone]

I know exactly how you feel. Yesterday was a good day for me, but now I'm just antsy inside and could cry at the drop of a hat. I know this too shall pass, but my mind is racing trying to think of ways to find more pills (I won't, but that's the addiction playing tricks) or so I'm told.  Hang in there! I'm with you all the way.

[tryin2bfree]

HI over and say hi to matt i quit on the same day you guys did ive been layin low just getting through it im going through the same things you are with the emotions they say it gets better its up and down all day at some point we will just go up and stay there hang in there girl it will pass

[Xcalibure]

Congrats on 8 days clean!  That's an amazing thing!  As others have said, the emotional rollercoaster is absolutely normal.  You've been numbing your feelings with meds so long you haven't felt much of anything except the fake feelings of happiness your drug gave you.  Now your raw learning emotions again and feeling everything 10 times more then before.  It will get better though, just hang in there.

[gnarly_1]

HI what your feeling is your emotions coming back on line....at first there all over the place
first your up ...happy go lucky then in the blink of an eye your in tears....it takes a wile for things to smooth out a bit so dont freak out its a normal part of detoxing..hey congrads on getting a full night sleep that is huge this early on...your well on your way to recovering if your all ready sleeping...your energy will start to return now that sleep is coming back
the energy thing can be a bit much to deal with also...just hang in there your doing great
your recovering quickly it won't be long now and things will start to seam normal to you again keep up the good fight ...good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[vicki595]

Hey~  This is all completely normal. Now you have to PUSH !  Keep taking the vitamins
and eating well;keep forcing the fluids.

Lack of ambition/motivation will fade. Be patient but don't give in to it.  Emotions are high. You may have "drug dreams",as well.   Don't think about it and force your brain in another direction with distractions

You'll get through this.  I can't tell you how much exercise will help !!   I go swimming so
it's easy for me.  Try it !

Vicki  xo