Hey guys, ChiGirl checking in to finally say "I DID IT!" Its day 7 of no pills for me. My WD's werent as bad as I thought them out to be, mind you I was taking upwards of 15-25 Norcos 10 per day - you would think that I would of had really terrible WD's but over the past few weeks I was able to bring myself down to 3-4 pills per day so it made it more tolerable.
I was able to take a few days off of work and basically sit at home feeling pretty terrible the first 3 days, nausea, diarrhea, extreme lethargy, extreme restlessness, you name it, but I did it and I am feeling pretty OK with it today. But, however there is a downside to all this, I have extreme cravings now, all the time, all day long. I cant get the feeling of getting more pills out of my head and its driving me insane, I keep thinking to myself, itll be OK to just go and get some "mild" painkillers like Tylenol 3's and just use them for a few days. But I know I cant, itll ruin everything that I have done so far and put another added strain on my marriage. My husband was getting really fed up with me using pills, when I was detoxing he confessed to me that he was worried all the time that he'd come home from work one night (works a late shift) and find me either unconcious or dead, and he'd constantly wake up in the middle of the night to see if I was breathing normal. What a guy huh?
Anyways, thanks to all my forum friends out there who have so graciously posted words of encouragement, Rex & Suzie (You 2 are the absolute best!, I cant wait to finally meet you face to face one day!) Erika-Ann, Thomas (special words of thanks to your wisdom) Lisabet (by the way, how are you?), OneStep (please post soon, I am worried about you!), TCE37 (Where are you?) Bungee, and everyone else. A big hug and kiss to all my friends who helped me. I will eternally be grateful for your unconditional support. CHITOWNGIRL.
We all feel that way at this stage. But just remind yourself of how much your future holds for you clean!!!!!!!! Its so much easier getting up and not worrying where your going to get those pills,Am I going to run out, And on and on.. It consumes our lifes. Stay clean. Go for a short walk,watch a movie,buy yourself something, anything to get your mind off of the would ifs. There bad news.. You can do this. You have so much love and support here how can we lose.. This is a battle but we can win.... Ill be praying for you.. God Bless you Hon. J.E.W.
Hello eveybody,
I am 6 days clean today, I am so proud of myself. I want to use so bad, and I know I could so easily....but I haven't. It's a good feeling to be sober, it's kind of weird, my body is still adjusting I guess. I hope I don't relapse because no matter what anybody says for me being high feels better than anything else, but I know I can't use! Wish me luck,
-Anthony
I was curious what type of bad experience you had with Methadone? I have tried it twice and both times it has worked amazinglyb well. Plus it lasts in your system a really really long time. If it was more convenient to go on Methadone maintenance I would consider it. I'd really like to hear more about your experience with Methadone if you are willing to share it. Thanks and I hope you aer doing ok today.
Bungee...definately go to a meeting you might like AA better...they have addicts there too and my personal experience was better at AA...more mature crowd and seemed to have what I want...but chose what feels good for you, if you dont like it try another step program or another meeting...Good luck...
good to hear from you.
i am dooing very well.
lots of miricles happining.
it is unbeleivable.
my knee pain is gone for now due to
streching and advill and a little divine intervention.
as always good to read you post.
i wish you well in all things,
you are in my prayers.
peace!!!!!!!!!!hippy__-------your freind michael