Advice Appreciated

[vicaddict]

I posted this in the other forum also, always forget who is where, nice to have friends in both places though. :) Hope everyone is doing well.........

Hello everyone, lots of new people here! WELCOME ALL NEW COMERS! :)

I unfortunately am an oldy. I have been struggling for over a year to quit the vic's , but total time on them is going on 5 yrs.

I need some advice from everyone....I finally am jumping no holds barred here and am terrified. I took most of my medication and tossed them, and kept only 5 out. I am cutting them in half, and a friend gave me some librium. I have yet to try it, as I am afraid to.

I have clonazepam for anxiety and panic disorder but they do not seem to help much at all. The librium is 75mg, but like I said I haven not taken any. I am just now starting the sick feeling and sweats a bit, nothing too major just yet. I have not taken any since yesterday afternoon of my vic's and have 2 wholes left. I would like to try without any at all.

Anyone have any experience with librium helping at all? I do not like these types of medications so I am not concerned of addiction to those. I hate the dopy sleepy feeling, same with my clonazepam I never take more than precribed. My drug of choice ended up being Vicodin and never before have I experienced something like this. I am one who has to be in the Dr's office when trying anything new, I am afraid of pills, well always used to be. Until I met Mr. Vic himself.Howeveer vicodin is the only one that I took more than, and was because I felt sick without it. It started out very little and went from there, as most of us know happen. I had no idea going into it I would be sitting here now like this.
Started for legitiment pain, and spiraled from only a couple a day for pain to now 10-15/day. I like I said  been trying to slowly taper myself, but I do not think I have tapered enough yet I want this over with. I have to move in a month and I can't be tied to this bottle anymore.

I do have my kids this weekend, and now I am worried about that. I do not want to be flat out sick, but am hoping the past week of eliminating my night time doses, and sparingly using the others during the day that I have somewhat allowed my body some room for the change.

I have to say I have been very proud of myself, and happy that I have been strong enough not to reach in that bottle late in the afternoon, early evening, and nightime. That usually is me always digging for more. I feel good about that part of it, but am scared of the rest.

I have a good friend who is willing to be with me if I need her to, and also who is gave me a few librium. She just went through horrible alcohol wd/s and is sober and beating that. She was given them for that. I am just wondering if they will help me with the wd from vicodin.

So anyone's input would be appreciated. I am on disability and do not get paid again for another week, so I can't go get the thomas recipe items, unless it is something I may have here at home. Funds are short to say the least. However hopefully after this month I will not have to worry about that any longer.

I am ready for this, but scared out of my mind........

[vicaddict]

no have still 1 1/2 left. Ignoring my suppliers calls too. I was driving earlier to pawn off one of my tv's, and turned around and came back home WITH my tv.

God I hope it doesn't get worse......not feeling real bad "yet" Did take a librium earlier but took the capsule apart and dumped out some of the powder. Was afraid to take the full 75mgs.

[NautyOne]

are u totally out of pills?  

Nauty.........

[vicaddict]

AH-HA! Never even thought about the heating pad, thanks girl!

And thanks for your last sentence there. Means allot to me for sure.

Looking forward to talking with you............I hope you have not had a new recent injury.....

Whatever pain your in hun, I hope it subsides and fast!

Lots of love;
Trac

[FLaddict]

Get a heating pad for those legs.. take some magnesium.. will help with muscle cramps and spasms.

We will talk more in the next couple days. I will email you tomorrow. Keep "trudging" along..

I BELIEVE IN YOU.......ALWAYS HAVE ALWAYS WILL

XOXO

[vicaddict]

Thank you all. I think about this forum everyday. I lurk allot lately, but really need to post more like I used to.

Awww, FLA I am sorry you are hurting. I hope you feel better asap.

Yes I am scared, and suprisingly do not feel too bad "yet". I did start to feel a bit bad earlier, and panic started so I took one of the libriums, but I took the capsule apart! I was too afraid to take 75 mgs. I dumped out about half of the powder, put it back together then swallowed it. :(

I know I should probably take it as it is, but was afraid I would be doped up. So I am only going to use them as an extreme measure. If I stay feeling this way ( which I doubt!)  I won't need them.

I am sure this is just the calm before the storm. I am quite achy in my legs that is for sure, and my sciatic is acting up. Joy Joy.

Everyone out there still struggling, keep plugging along, we can all do this if we try hard enough......I have got to tell myself that constantly, but boy the rewards we will have when the h e l l is over is also what I keep trying to tell myself!

Lots of Love and Hugs to all
Tracy

[Marce4]

Hey....Long time no see!  I just saw your name in another post recently and was wondering about you.  I'm so sorry you have been having such a bad time.  You really deserve a break!  Be careful of the librium....I wish you well and need to get off becasue my daughter is breathing down my neck.  Take care!  I will check in to see how your are doing!

[FLaddict]

Hi hun.... I am hurting and can't type much.. will email you when i can..

Glad to see you back... HUGS...

[NautyOne]

Hey !!!!   I have been wondering about you, hoping for the best.  I am so sorry to hear about your kids..:-(   I know last time we talked, you sounded a bit prepared for this, but I am so sorry.  Good to see you back.  I don't know about the librium stuff, but be careful.  The whole forum is in a little bit of a mess right now, but don't let it get you down.  Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.  I know your scared right now, but I and others will be here for you.  

Luv,
Nauty.........