I am totally new to chat rooms and the pc after a long time not using it. I have posted a few questions, seem to run off at the mouth and haven't gotten much of a response. Am I coming across weird? Doing something I'm not suppose to or saying something I'm not suppose to say. Seems like most questions have a variety of responses.
Maybe I'm just paranoid still. I don't think you have to page thru all the questions to find yours to see if anybody as responded to you do you? I know I'm not posting something right because when I clicked on my shortcuts and the questions I have posted came up, someone else's nickname was on there and showed 12 responses. I got real excited cause I thought I was my question, but turned out it was a post I had put on someone else's question.
So.....I'm doing part of it right but in the dark, still.
And when you want to comment or try and share/help someone else, don't you post comment at the bottom of all the others comments where it's blank and says post comment?
hey mate i get what ya sayin i think its like that for most lately i post in substance abuse n it comes up in social please hang around there r amazing people here inbox me anytime huni ur not alone hugs from oz aj xoxoxo
Thanks, Kyle. You sound tired and I can't even hear your voice, ha!
I'll continue to post and figure this deal out one way or the other.
Can't sleep, but going to my favorite health country lady tomorrow and will have amino acid to help me sleep! Yeah! Clean 59 days (Mon.) it's 1:20 a.m. in Ks. Insomnia, absolutely no energy yet, but reading, researching, and getting ready to cleanse and rebuild this worn out body!
Goodnight and thanks for being faithful to post. You and Vicki seem to try and reply to most posts. That's why I asked if I was doing something I wasn't suppose to be?? Duh.....first time I posted I told my story and forgot to ask a question.
So you have 59 days clean today - that's monumental! As far as helping others, you just post your comment at the end of the thread where it says "Post a Comment". With all that clean time I'm sure that you have a lot to offer. And in case it was missed, is there anything going on now with you? Can we help?
It seems like you're doing just fine with this thread. I don't think you sound weird at all. Sometimes, if people don't have any experience to answer a question, they just pass on it. Other times, if there's not a question in there...it's difficult to reply.
Sooo good to hear from 3 of you! Yes, today is 59 clean. Do you count suboxone w/d days, too? I have 31 of those included in that 59?
I was having huge lo blood press issues like 79/59 & dizzy EVERY X upon arising. It's up to 120/82 for 3 days now!! I am only dizzy a little, but oh sooo tired still. & my pain is really bad....the advil and tylenol aren't cutting it at all. (wreck & then 3 yrs later back surgery)
I drove for the 1stX since June today & did pretty good. I really od'd my system on anti-depressants (AD) & a gaba receptor med for nerve damage as I was self-weaning from 20-30 Lortab 10's/day. Little did I know that my AD was freaking out my seratonin levels even more & my gaba receptors were electrical deals in my brain! Then this pschy. dr. puts me on subutex the lst week & suboxone after that when med guide said "caution/dangerous to take a Central Nervous System (CNS) depressant w/ suboxone or subutex. I was literally twitching & flipping & talking faster than normal & that is fast when I'm not drugged out like I have been the last 6 yrs. He knew up front my regular dose of AD was 80 mg/day & I was shoving 20 mg ones in my mouth evry hr as I was w/d from Lortabs & didn't care a whit. (300 mg gabapentin, too,hrly)
I went off suboxone on my own & didn't go back to this dr. because my last visit on 7/6/12 I was still shaking & a mess; he said "we're gonna get you off these "bad" drugs & put you on "good" drugs!!
(even as messed up as my brain was.....I said to myself "I DON'T THINK SO!!!!" Another weird thing...I knew absolutely nothin about suboxone when I walked in there. My reg. PA chick referd me. When we got there, they wanted $400 upfront....no problem....they had told me that on the phone the pm b4. I get out my check card &/or check book, this chick says...."it has to be in CASH" and it doesn't apply towards your insurance if you have it or your bill??????? (a blank receipt, too)
Is this right??? Should I tell my ins. co. about him? Or call the State Board? He is also trying to charge me the std. "50 min. hr" of $250 for a 15 minute visit. He was SURE I was manic ea. time I saw him. Was ready to Rx bipolar meds to me & antipsychotic meds & I was ALREADY psychotic, ha!
I am way better now & so glad to leave that dr. I will go to NA;this post has been like mtgs for me. .
I have picked out 2 mtgs to try. Also, checked out a lot on line & discovered Smart Recovery; definitely not for me.
30 yrs ago I voluntarily went to alcohol trmt. Did AA, retreats, conferences, the whole works for 18 yrs. Then in 2000 I had some tequila in Mexico and a cold Corona and occasionally drank betwn 2000 and 2008 when I had a bad accidentl.
Maybe you don't want me running off at the mouth & I hope the others (vicki, akitagurl, & fpvfemback) will read this since it's sooo long.
In 08 I was in a really bad accident. Only car wreck in 40 yrs!! Anyhoo,
it was my fault. I am blessed to be alive. Had to be cut out of car. & I was also blessed to just have broken my pelvis, sacrum & tailbone along w/ some eye damage in 1 eye. I had to be in bed 3 MONTHS!
I ate pain pills, ate milk choc. covered dried bing cherries by the bagful (gained 40 lbs) & became even more addicted to pain pills, somas, & xanex. Then I went thru a HUGE law suit. We won. I won't go into that I'm sure you're glad, ha! I was o.k but really popping pills until Dec.08
Wreck was in March 08. Then my bottom two discs totally ruptured out of the spinal cavity where they're suppose to be. When I was younger, I could always ice & rest; they would recede. Not after the wreck & getting older. So, cobra insurance ran out Aug 08 & then no one would take me because of "pre-existing cond." So.. I knew I would get addicted.....but what lay in bed & cry or take pain meds. I was turned down sooo many times & finally a fed funded/state run ins. co. was discovered on the internet by hubby. I had surgery; they had to use LOTS of drugs on me in the hospital because of my tolerance & after surgery I got even more addicted. I used my hubby's rx, & mine.....& eventually went to the street. Wasted tucked away $....lots of it. My hubby had his ankle scraped out & a rod put in Jan 2012 so I used that as an excuse not to address my usage. I needed to wait on him for 6 mo. until he could walk again & I wasn't about to w/d then! (good excuse, but would never have functioned & I love him a lot!)
Sooo, after May.....I decided June 5th to start weaning the next day.
I did ok until June 21st.. Puke bowls (4) under the bed, the sweats, chills, you guys all know. Then the night of June 21st at 2:30am I started breathing real fast & contd until 10:30 am. My husband sat w/ me for another hr. We talked about respiratory failure & I was freakin' (I was down to about 10 lortabs & 5 somas, no xanax, but abusing the AD & Gab meds evy hr like a fool. Actually had a cutto little box cutter deal in my room "just in case I didn't want to live". How insane is this?
We called an ambulance on that June 21st mornin. I picked a hospital that I knew had a drug trmt program. All the way to the hospital my oxygen saturation was 95-100%, good b/p, talking to the dude non-stop about his kids. The hospital lets me lay there 3 hrs. Takes blood and gives me a breathing trmt. Nurse that drew blood forgot to give it to the lab. I'm laying there w/dg & freaking & breathing 100 mi/hr! They won't even give me H2O (until lab was back) FINALLY 3 hrs, they say
anxiety overflow, drug trmt full, nothing wrong w/ you, we're dismissing U! I acted like a crazy women. Yellin at people, embarassing my hubby, & just bein a complete fool! They decided as I was leaving to give me 5 mg of xanex which helped immensely. They said I had done this to myself by hyperventilating. I'm not that kinda gal.......It was a 12-14 hr experience in my w/drl. I was glad we handled like we did.. but still no help & I WAS READY!!! I called my PA. She checked out that pschy. dr & I called Valley Hope trmt ctr. They were full until following wk (end of that wk) My hubby really wanted me to do inpatient.....but we took what was available & that was this suboxone deal that I had never even heard of & my body just freaked on it because I had so much AD in my system!
I hated how I felt & took myself off of it. After reading some of the posts,
I'm not sure what I think about sub drugs, but feel God doesn't make mistakes. (sorry if God offends....is that agst the rules?)
So...question how do I get to sleep?
I have been 2 places since June......am really worn out as I have been in bed for so many yrs.(up some@home)
I read online about nutrition....got some aminos,etc from the
Dr. David Arneson article I read on this site.
My eyes are weird? How long should I give them b4 I have eyes chked for new, accurate, non-oppiate Rx?
I'm sure you all are tired of reading this if you haven't quit already.
T you for being my mtg tonight!
I guess I just open this community * click on my inbox and "watches".
Is that right?
Patience reqd from all of U reading this. Speaking of patience.....I have a funny t-shirt I had made that says "Patience......Your attitude while you wait" Great, huh? (it's not original, nothing I say is)
Lastly, I love this one "I pray that I may learn from the mistakes of others as I won't live long enough to make them all myself!"
Blessings you 3,
Clean in KS (2 MOS. TOMORROW.........60 DAYS.....YEAHHHHHH!)
PS Still confuses bout dependency vs addiction more later
wow mate i read it i too had bad car accident in 04 was thrown from the car when it was flippin it hit a tree i lost a good man(god rest his soul xox) 3mths in hospital im now perm disabled leftside of my body i sercum to the pain 2nearly3 yrs ago now i wish i had never ive had emergancy surg recently wanna be clean but wanna not be so sore either my partner is holding my meds he is my rock.. THE BIGGEST CONGRATS on ur cleantime thats wicked keep goin no looking back now mate mwah from oz Aj xoxo
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