Im feeling weak

[jojolovesherboys]

I'm tryn to remain strong, who is out here fighting for their life with me. My mind is telln me to buy a pill, but I know the end result, after 2 hours I will feel worse then what I did before. Just need ssomeone to talk to. An addict fighting for my life.

[AmIMakingTheRightMoves]

you dont have to pretend at the meeting... it really is us... all of us... some via MH some via meetings... and the really smart ones do both... YOU ARE ONE OF THE REALLY SMART ONES... i am envious of you and that is no joke... and im glad to hear you shed a few tears... everything about this is so real... and you know from the tears come incredible waves of happiness... each tear is worth gold... you are the only reason i logged on today jojo... so happy i did and so happy to read about your progress... and yes you are making so much progress... i am 50 days clean today... and that is not bragging... just saying that it does get easier but the desires never quite go away... but the knowledge that the pills are not the answer does become more clear every day... peace be with you... i hope you have an awesome Thursday... smile strong for us all today JOJO... there are so many reasons to...

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

Hun, every time you get the urge to take a pill either go to a meeting or call your sponsor.  Have you talked to your doctor about going on Clonidine for a while?  It is a medication which will not screw up your tests later....it does help with cravings...but it was originally used for high blood pressure, it is also used for migraines, nicotine withdrawal and many other medical issues.

[meegWpaw]

aw you are doing good jojo and its real hard I know.  I told my dealer no tonite.  everyone is right its best to cut all your sources.  it would be a lot better for me if I did too.  as you get more distance from the sources they will become less viable and that helps ... but the odd call or text is always tempting.  it is hard to tell them no.  but if you start going to meetings and fill your life with new things, it is going to change, and you will feel less consumed with this world you are immersed in now.  we all are rooting for you!

[jojolovesherboys]

This is the hardest thing I've ever been through u know, I'm crying while typing,this, I'm tired of feeling this way, how did I get to this point, where I'm so consume with pills, I hate myself and who I have become, I used to love life, now all I think about is pills, I'm praying hard, so hard right now. I want to get my life together, this is not living, it s only existing. Well tommorow when I'm at the meeting I will pretend its all u guys and I'm geting to meet u guys for the first time.

[jojolovesherboys]

I called every dealer, and told them not to text, and if I call don't answer, I really want to get my life together, I'm going to a meeting tomorow, and hopefully, it will come together

[dominosarah]

I hope you are at a meeting

[saspan]

im going thru this right now also .wish ya the best. i know what your goin  thru.

[Ejm7263]

How's it going?  We all care. Thinking about you.

[jugglin]

How r u doing Jojo?  Come talk to us.

[jifmoc]

Jojo- Go to a meeting!!!!

[AmIMakingTheRightMoves]

jojo... i am with you... please dont take that step... i almost did as well... and i thank my doctor for cutting a couple sources that i didnt originally do myself... you have hit it on the head... the reality is... the pills only make you feel worse... you already said it... if you want to feel worse i would recommend hitting your thumb with a hammer before taking another pill... just dont hit it too hard... ive only been on this site for about three months... but it seems we are all so similar in our struggles but also are so similar in our strengths and realizations that drugs are a really really bad idea... CUT all sources then whenever you feel weak come hear and read some stories of others... and give them advice and positive vibes on the better side of life... your comment today caught my eye because i feel so similar to you and also realize another script is NOT the answer EVER... have a great wednesday... breath deep and go do something fun that makes you smile strongly !!! peace be with you jojo...

[Jinx_777]

if you find a meeting that you enjoy at these times all you have to do is either walk in and get a hug or make a call and someone will physically be there for you.  
this site is GREAT, but it is no substitute for real life interaction.

i have a hard time isolating as well.  it is gonna kill me

[soblesstogetoutmess]

Try to not think about it.....get a book, take a nap, watch your favorite shows, because that's what our mind and flesh is crying out for is the pills....this is my 1st day in. ...we can do THIS .....Together...take you a nice shower and the money you was talking about using...buy yourself something nice today  or a nice meal for not giving in
to the cravings....YOU can do This :-) :-) :-) :-)

[dominosarah]

We are all fighting for our lives. Did you get any phone numbers at the meeting?  If you did you start calling them now

[ariley13]

Listen to IBK. This is the time to force yourself to take care of business. Cut those sources completely. I know it's scary, but I promise you will feel relieved after you do it. Reach out for support. Go to a meeting. This is not the time to isolate. That can be very dangerous. Left to our own devices during times of stress and difficulty, we will get stuck in our head and make a million excuses to use. It's not worth it.

[IBKleen]

You need to cut off all ties. As long as you know all you have to do is make a call or hop in the car, you are going to struggle. Also, I know at least one member mentioned aftercare to you. Are you doing that? You don't have to suffer like this honey. There is help out there for you but you will have to put as much effort into getting well as you did getting high.