2nd times a charm

[MrClean2009]

I made the decision to get clean in november of 09. I spent a ton of time on this board and completely felt like th person that God intended me to be. Made a bunch of neat friends an felt like I had kicked my habit. Interesting how the evil one turns our circumstances against us isn't it? Turns out my mother in law becomes terminal with cancer.... She lives close by and thus I spent a cosiderable amount of time carry for her. For some reason, she had a crazy amour of dope in her house... Every room was a bottle of something.... I couldn't resist. I was able to control it for months, a few days on, a few days off, but we always know how it ends don't we? Been high fortwo months now...grandma finally died last week and thus my connection was terminated. At the advice if hospice my wife destroyed all meds in the house only hours after her passing. On day 4 of CT and actually feel pretty good.  At the pool with the kids and excited about my future as I have no way to obtain drugs anymore other than through my family doctor who tends to my whole family, wife and kids. Ironically I work at a hospital!the last four days were completely aweful as expected, but I am coming out into the clear now... No real symptoms other than lack if energy...

Here's to our new clean futures together... I know how many dread the withdrawls, and while the RLS ain't no fun, many of a us have made it through... I am no special person... Just one of a secret many with a habit that needs permanent mending.... Will continue to post for encouragement, giving and recieving...

Best all
clean

[gnarly_1]

Hey dude congrads on 4 days clean and welcome back...sorry to here of your loss and I wish you were back here posting on how good you where doing..but so goes addiction
left untreated addiction will repeat itself over and over again you need to plug into some sort of aftercare to put an end to this....N/A and A/A both are free and the 12 step programs work if you work them..if this is not a good fit for you there is addiction therapist and substance abuse conslors ....but going it alone rarely works ask anyone with any amount of significant clean time and they will tell you aftercare is the key to success
you need to get to the root of why you choose to pick up a pill in the first place
you can do this and with aftercare you can make this your last detox good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[10356]

Yes welcome back !! sorry it is in this manner and that your mother in law passed.. Now you are back on track !! :) I look forward to any support you can give and hope you stay around.. as IBKleen asked what are you going to do to insure that you stay clean ? working in a hosp[ital setting must be difficult, any outside support we get is nothing but a bonus.. Take good care of yourself.. lesa

[IBKleen]

Welcome back and congrats on wanting to get clean. So, what do you think you will do different this time to stay clean?