Make no mistakes about it, alcohol IS a drug!

[jenny8575309]

Alcohol may as well be a loaded gun for me.  Every since I can remember i've become insane while drinking.  I remember many times waking up not knowing where I was, or who I was with.  I remember feeling like my head was going to explode.  Many one night stands, and many more "OMG, I did what?!?'s"  I came to think that just maybe  I had a problem with alcohol.  I can only imagine myself as I was, and how others saw me.  I'm sure that it was with pity, or the way they strain their necks to look at the carnage of a traffic accident.  I was a complete TRAIN WRECK attention junkie while drinking.  Liquid dope also wakes up my addiction, and I know how painfully easy it would be to relapse into crack-hell.  Today I avoid people, places and things associated with alcohol, including my friends, family and even work functions.

[addictedme]

After years of using,buying and selling illegal drugs I can honestly say that it was booze that got me in the most legal trouble. Jails,dui"s,wrecks.Its scary to look back at the times you couldnt remember how you got home last night but you DROVE home.I wont argue with those that get off pills and still have an occasional drink, only you know whats ok for you but I cant go there. Using is all about changing the way I feel about myself and my addiction doesnt know the difference between mood altering drugs. It doesnt know or care if its a bag off the street,a scrip from the dr or a bottle from 7/11, that suckers always gonna be there,ready to take me down.

[IBKleen]

You got it....

[fishmeal]

yep

[jenny8575309]

thanks reaching, i'm in NA already, clean and sober for 22 days....

[reachingagain]

If I couldn't get pills then I would drink. In the past few years I've had several DUI's caused from blackouts from pills AND alcohol. The last one was serious enough to send me to rehab. I've read where people on this site suggest a glass of wine to help calm the nerves during w/d's. Surely that would be risky. Go to AA and get yourself a sponsor, and keep posting.