Methadepression

[Blottedout82]

Hi all, ive been taking methadone now for probably 5 years, recently id had a lot of financial trouble and know that methadone is the main cause for this, if I forced myself to take 20mgs per day I would only spend $200 a month, but I tend to take more if im stressing or just need a boost and end up spending more around $500 a month. I think im sinking into a deep depression, I don't want to get out of bed, I don't want to work, I really don't want to live. And already feeling this way I know there is no way possible I could make it through withdrawals. Im stuck between a rock and a methadone habit. Im just so sick of everything, if I didn't have to get out of bed to support my family I wouldn't get out bed at all. Im just really at my breaking point. I don't know what advice anyone may have, but im open for anything. Thank you all for you time.

[Ejm7263]

I'm on day 6. I tapered to 5 mg every 12 hours of methadone + muscle relaxers & resteril, then I just stopped. I'm not having fun, this ***** but it's better than taking all this med. glad you found this community & it's saving my life. People are so kind, full of love & support. Stay connected, tell your doctors & get a support group. I can hardly move but I've gone to AA or NA every day. It helps & makes the day go faster. Every day sick is closer to a day when I can start to feel good. Also the amazing thing; all the reasons I was taking the pain medicine for is not what's bothering me. We can do this, come with us on the road to life from death. Glad your here.

[gnarly_1]

Hi.... well methadone is a powerful narcotic it can be kicked but you have to taper off of it   I cant over efasize that beeing on 20 and then jumping to 80 can kill you this is not a game your playing  if you want to stop we can help the last 20mg are the hardest you can lighten up the withdrawals by taking a 3 in 1 vitamin calcium/magnesum/zinc  pick it up at walmart for 6 buck  start your morning out with 4 then dinner with 4  in a few days you will notice the difference one thing you need to do is stay on a taper  you cant yo yo your dose up and down this takes resolve and perseverance  this is not a race it will take as long as it will take  you do go threw withdrawals wile tapering I could not sleep for weeks keep posting for support your not alone in this............Gnarly...............................

[Jinx_777]

there is NO shame in asking a doctor for help.  none at all.  they see it everyday.
maybe seek the help of an addiction therapist and have them guide you to sobriety as comfortable as possible.

either way you go CT or with help (which i suggest because of the depression) you will have to have some sort of aftercare.  if meetings are not for you then continue with the addiction therapist

[Blottedout82]

well the whole story is...

Around 2002 I started taking pain pills occasionally which soon ended up daily up to 150 mgs per day, everyday I was hunting pill wasting crazy amounts of money, one day I had a friend that said try taking 1 methadone 10mg daily and see how you feel, it was great just 1 ten held me over all day, eventually I increased my dose to about 80mgs a day, then my friend was arrested and imprisoned, so I started going to the clinic, I went for 2 years and got my dose all the way down to 6mgs per day. I thought I had it whopped and decided to quit cold turkey, after 12 days I gave in and started buying it from someone that went to the clinic, and ive been doing that for about 3 years now. Sometimes I take 80mgs other days I take 20mgs, and sometimes I go without for a day or 2. So anyway that's my problem history in a nut shell.

[motye51]

To me, that sounds like the methadone talking! Perhaps b/c your fluctuating the dose up and down? Are u getting the methadone from dr or "friends"??? If dr maybe its time to talk to him about an anti-depressant and perhaps while taking an antidepressant he/she can taperu down from the methadone? Why r u taking the methadone? I mean for what drug?
I hate depression!!! Its such a life sucker!!! Dont fall in that hole b/c its hard to get out of it. Talk to your dr ASAP!

[Blottedout82]

yeah isn't that the truth I don't know how ill ever taper, I know I cant do cold turkey my restless arms will drive me to an insomniatic insanity. Ive been considering going to the doctor, but I just didn't want to get addicted to another drug im going to have to suffer withdrawal to get off of, but I may have no choice, ive got do something because its just getting worse everyday.

[Jinx_777]

have you considered taking an anti depressant??

wellbutrin helps with cravings and dopamine levels and helps with depression.  maybe see your doctor for help.

methodone is a painful, long detox and if you are already this depressed i think you will need professional help getting off of it safely.

the slower in mg you go down, the less painful it is, but tapering takes a lot of self discipline and many of us cannot do it