You know i never had pain issues or any accidents that should cause pain...never even broken a bone! Lol. But some days I wonder if this is what my life will be...pain forever. I keep trying to tell myself it's just the withdrawals but some days it makes me wonder. I'm only 31 so it darn sure better not be old age yet. Lol. But I'm run down a lot and get tired easy and have minor aches and pains that won't go away. They are tolerable but annoying and just make me question if this is my existence now that I'm off methadone. I know better but the thoughts still get in my mind from time to time....
I'm doing okay. I have 31 days today!!' Yay!!! Feeling better by the day now (for the most part). Emotionally good, great really. I have to worst headache I've ever had in my life today which s u c k s but such is life. My complexion is bad now and I sweat and get chills but I'm alright. I stopped taking my clonidine and I'm sleeping well. I only wake up 2-3x a night and it takes maybe 30 minutes to fall back asleep but overall not too horrible.
Hi Jen just got home from a looooooong monday but wanted to see how your doing.....you mentioned the headaches.....God I thought I had a brain tumor they where so bad....it is just one more thing....this is the drug that just keeps on giving....it s u c k s but like all of your symptoms it will pass try a cool washcloth over your eyes in a dark room the otc pain relevers may help excedrin worked the best for me....this stuff is really dragging you threw the ringer but I promise sooner or later it will let up....we just dont know when.....it your at 1/2 your capacity your doing better then I was...I wish I had a magic wand I could make it go away with but you just have to go threw it.....both vicky and I had a ruff detox so we both know what it is like just take time for yourself like a nice hot soak after work.....treat yourself to a message it does wonders for both the mind and sprite....I know it may not seam like it but your beating this thing and even a bad day puts you one day closer to getting well...just know where here for you...my heart goes out to you and I pray for you daily keep positng for support and when you find the time post to let us know how your doing
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Hi Jen.....well your doing it 1 day at a time....your scheduled at work sounds like mine....we put over 400 new companys on and it is up to me a 3 guys to make there websites blend with ours and as always it needs to be done yesterday....it is hard to come home after a 10 hour grind on a computer and still make time for this but some how I manage.....just know what your going threw is a very typical withdrawal from this drug....it is not so much the severity of the withdrawal but the length of time it takes to recovery every day you dont use is a victory and just know your on the right path with time you will get better.....defiantly get the epsom salt for the bath it will really help with the body aches just a cup ful to a nice hot soak it will also give you magnesum that is a great sleep aid....try not to get discouraged a positive attitude is your best friend going threw this I remeber all to well just how lousy and tired and achey I felt for months but today it is a distant memory every time I get another year clean I take my coin to the clinic and show the staff that with some will power and perseverance you can over come methadone as for work just pace yourself keep posting for support
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Calling Jen..Hello!!!
How are you doing???
How you doin Jen , keep truckin along your makin it moment by moment.
Try you hardest to keep yourself re-directed and just tell yourself that you are HEALING..physically, mentally and spiritually. I will not even mention out here how long my physical took, let along my mental..However, it did take the mental more then a yr or so. I did c/t 3 meds and each one hit different areas of the brain in one way, and hit other neurotransmitters the same in another way. I can tell you what drug hit what areas, but I am sure you know. I was on a upper, downer and a all a rounder. Ha! My anxiety and anxiousness was on the moon and I was still rocking back in fourth at 40days. I felt like I was in outer space and nothing seemed real in my own world. Each day there was a new Light, we just do not see or feel that at first but others can tell. The re-bond pain will take its toll. The enorphines (pain receptors) are clearing out toxins everywhere, and it will take time for them to produce the natural chem to help relive the pain. I had more pain on my methadone then I did off, but it took some time for me to feel no pain all over.. My Dr told me back then, that as the brain heals all those receptors & transmitters, they will send off false singles to the body. He called it "Somatic Syndrome". Also, being that I c/t a Bezo with mine, that was one more reason the anxiety was on the moon. All of this affects the Nervous System and this takes time to heal too. Time, Time and Time is becoming a nasty word out here..Ha!! By the time I had many, many months in, I was so mad and thought I would of felt SO much better, I felt "Hopeless" too, but I was getting better, it just did not seem so. The good day will come and when it does it will stick around. The roller-coaster will shut down, then you might be on top of the ferriswheel looking down. Your feet will hit the ground and the park will close up for good. We just have to be careful because that monkey can jump right back on our backs. CIK used to call recovery, like peeling layers off of a onion. I heard them say that, on one of my Christians shows just the other day. Someone said on here back in 2012, "Do not tell you God how tough the Storm is, tell the Storm how tough your God is", something like that..lol=Lots of Love.
As far as the sleep goes, well that will take Time too. Make sure you have the room cool and dark. Turn off all lights including blinking ones. Put some lavender in your sheets & blankets when you wash them and put them on the bed. The smell will help relax you. Try not to fight it. A day came, months later and all I could do is sleep. I called it my catch-up sleep. (: Hang in and keep the Faith up, one day all of this will be behind you. The H was more natural, so it does detox out faster, but it is a harder craving. Trust us, you will get better!!!!!!! Keep us updated!
Bless U
Vickie