I am still here Thanks to this forum

[slc430]

I came to this forum back in Dec for help getting off hydros and I got sooo much help. And I learned a lot that has helped me these past months. After detox I fell and broke my elbow and had surgery took pain meds for a few days then I was diagnosed with cancer. Months later after 2 surgeries and chemo I am doing well and have not taken ANY pain meds for 2 months. It has been a battle for me I am not a young person ( 71 ) but I keep reading this forum and it has gotten me thru some dark times. i don't know what the future holds for me but I am not dwelling on that any more. It takes too much away from my days I have right here and now. Not being on meds has been great for me, not saying there are not times I do have pain, but there are ways that I  deal with that now without pain meds. Life is not always the way we want it to be but for those who are struggling it is so much better to face it and deal, I did not say it was easy but you can do it. Life on pills is NO life, and I have one now. Thank you to everyone on this forum, you have helped me over the last months more that you will ever know. If I can do this than you all can too. Let go of the struggle and give it to God or your higher power.

[slc430]

Thank you for your kind words. It really helps. Some days I am not as " chipper " as others but any day I can get up and go out side and sit and have my coffee is a good day !!  gnarly you are an inspiration to me ! And I am so glad that you are on this forum with all the other great people. Your encouragement from all of you means a great deal. Thank you again !!

[littlebit667]

You are doing great.  I found this forum months before I posted.  I read and cried and read some more before I got the courage to start interacting and finally getting the help I needed.  I am almost 61 and sometimes feel like the old one in the group.  You win the title now!  Keep strong and thanks for posting.  It  helps to know the good stuff.

[gnarly_1]

Hey just wanted to encourage you ......you have been threw a lot but you have come out on top and pill free cudos to you im so happy we could help hang in there you got this one....Gnarly

[vicki595]

I'm so happy you checked in! You sound strong and I hope you feel as great as you sound!

There's just so much we can accomplish when we push ahead! Good for you, my friend!

[selfinduced]

You said it all!!!! With every challenge we get wisdom. Sounds like your addiction and cancer trials gave you the gift of looking at life with arms wide open. Stay close to your family , life is short with no guarantees, live it to the fullest everyday!

[slc430]

Thank you Selfinduced and Free for the kind words, but I am not always in a good mood !!  LOL  Even if I do feel down I only allow myself that for so long and then it's a " kick in the butt " time. Sometimes I feel like kicking and screaming and sometimes I do just that !!!!  But mostly I try and take things one day at a time. I do have a support system for both my addiction and my cancer but many times I have gotten more support from this forum even tho you all did not know it. Today I do have some pain but I am planning on going out and enjoy the day with my family. No pill can EVER replace that.

[Free2agoodhome]

Great story....enormous courage demostrated....  wow

I agree....when the day seems jacked,,,nothing going your way..and you feel like crap,,,,,,

...sometimes all we have to go to bed with is "our sober self"  and with that alone you close your eyes with a smile...

Good work


Free~

[selfinduced]

Hi There, I've been wondering how you were and so happy you are spiritually and physically better. You are a brave soul to go thru all you have, much admiration to you. Thanks for the update, very uplifting. xx

[slc430]

I spent a lot of time the past few months reading this f and YOU all have inspired me!!!  Congrats on your clean time and ENJOY it. And the sun was on my face !!  Loved it !

[NoMoreHydro]

Congrats on your 2 months and it is very inspiring to hear such stories.  You mentioning the nature walk, sister and laughing and joking is the best drug ever!  Getting up....getting out and enjoying nature is a wonderful part of being drug free.  Sun on your face, sights and sounds..... Pure Heaven!    I'll take that over a pill any day!  And so I shall join you in a lifetime of being pill free.  Bless you from the bottom of my heart.  It brought a tear to my eye reading your words.   Thank you.

[slc430]

Congrats on your 21 days !! That is great and you are doing so well. So many times we think that our life is going to be perfect once we get clean but life is life. As someone on here said " The good, the bad and the ugly " No one promised me a carefree life but they did promise me it would be better. Hold onto your clean time and make it grow. Yesterday I went for a nature walk with my sister and we laughed and joked the whole time, I will hold that time close to my heart. It was great !!  I am a lucky woman today.

[Sonrissa]

Hi slc!   Wow sweetie, your post gives me so much hope! You certainly have been through so much for your young 71 years! I congratulate you on your success! I aspire to be like you! Thank you so very much for sharing this! These kinds of posts help make the darks days and nights that I have been going through lately, so worth it! Only about 21 days clean from my pain pills so far! The ups and downs have been tough! So thank you very much for sharing this, and I wish you all the very best that life has to offer you! Take good care!!

[CWKavinRAS]

God Bless you..