Monkey on my back

[conhall]

Hi I Posted earlier about getting off percs. I will be going through WDs very soon and I have been sitting here reading this forum and I just want to Thank everyone for taking time to post and answering all my thoughts. I know I have a road ahead of me and I am setting goals Just imagining the money and things I will be able to do now I just need to get this Monkey off my back! I can do it. So many have done it!

[conhall]

I agree :) thank you god bless have good night!

[4adifferentlife]

No apology necessary on my account.. Just didn't want you getting into something else, you know where you've been. It's your decision alone to toss the pills. Only you can make it. It's all about life, and more of it!

[conhall]

I didnt mean to upset anyone. I dont see myself turning to alcohol but i could see where that might trigger for someone else sorry

[conhall]

ok sorry

[conhall]

i have never really liked alcohol not my thing just today thght it was something I would try Probably bad idea

[conhall]

I have 32 left and none in sight

[vicki595]

Everyone copes in their own way BUT we're all about being sober here and for many that means no mind altering substances at all.  That would include wine. So, out of respect for the forum, try not to talk about that sort of thing and how it's making you feel and how much you've had so far...it's a huge trigger for many people.

Thanks!

[4adifferentlife]

Just don't trade one feeling for another, meaning don't trade the pills for something else. W/d's are gonna cone, get it overwith and back to living. When will you be down to zero pills?

[conhall]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xWYRfsjBNQk

[conhall]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xWYRfsjBNQk

[selfinduced]

Lots to say to you, but have to sign off for the night. Don't replenish your pill supply. You have to shake them at some point. Make it now and not prolong the misery. Relax, and enjoy your night. You can do this. Check on you tomorrow. xx

[conhall]

also forgot to add I bought a bottle of wine today I rarely drink and on 2nd glass feels relaxing to me but I just decided to buy bottle of wine to maybe take edge off stress of upcoming WD  :) I am feeling ooo so cocky now But I do realize Its going to be tough

[conhall]

thank for replying :) I am almost to the point tonight of tossing my remaining pills and saying BRING ON THE RAIN! I am so scarred alone also no support system. But I really need to do this ! I have no choice I buy from someone every month and today was the day I was to get my supply i found out its a NO GO! yesterday and I was almost happy! its making get off them I have so many emotions. I do have about 11 valium to help me through WD  and sleeping pills :) I Just wish I could sleep through it

[selfinduced]

Hi There, YAY, you will soon be getting your life back. You have the right mindset and will so this. Let us know your detox start date, we will all be here rooting you on. Just a short time of toughen it out to have a lifetime drug free. xx