My Tracker says I now have 9 days clean!!!

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

OMG I can't believe that just last week I was all freaked out and scared and now I'm 9 days clean!  I'm certainly not out of the woods but I am eating now, getting some walks in, not so emotional but I find that I'm a bit cranky.  I'm not thinking about pain pills all the time...but this morning I woke up with my shoulder screaming bloody murder.  My husband has pain medications and I didn't even ask for one.  He's locked them up in his safe (at my request) but I know when I'm in extreme pain he would give me something if I asked.

Sooooo I told him this morning I don't care if I'm bawling my eyes out over the pain to not give me anything.  Instead he is to offer to massage some of the Voltaren gel into my shoulders and help me get my shoulder heat pad going.

I went to church this morning and my pastor was able to introduce me to another member who is on the program....this person is going to take me to the meetings the first few times (I don't do well in groups of people...never have).

So I'm happy today....I managed to dodge the bullet (from the pain) AND I've started to build a support group.

I'm still very, very appreciative of all of you.  I think had I not been able to come here, read what everyone is going through, get advice, offer advice that I might not have done so good.

Thanks everyone!!!

[meegWpaw]

you sound really strong pk, I am really happy for you!  congratulations on nine huge days!

[lulu747]

Awesome girl and great to hear!  You are taking positive steps towards your recovery.
Please step up your support in any way you can.  Remember that recovery is a life long process and must remain your #1 priority- long after your memories of detox begin to fade.  Your statement about knowing that your husband would give you pills if you really need them does concern me.  You managed to be strong this morning but you may not always be this strong which is why you must strengthen your reserves with LOTS of outside support.  There are many recovery programs to choose from.  Try them out and see which one is a good fit for you.

Congrats on 9 days and keep moving forward into your beautiful new pill free life!
xo
Lu

[PurrfectlyKrazy]

You aren't out of line...you have concerns.  My husband still has a true need for them due to several major surgeries.  He's tapering off of them now :-)

[doopie1]

Good for you it sounds as if you are finding your way back.  I can't sat that I am thrilled about your husband having pain PILLS.  I lived thru that nightmare with my husband and we were co-dependent on each other.  My marriage ended and I am now 6 years sober.

Please forgive me if I am out of line but I am certain your husband would give you what you want-what you need.  Been there did that and never got any real time.

Today I am free and no longer in a relationship that is co-dependant.  Today I am healthy and my couple of 24s equal 2155 days.

My husband has 0 days and no plans of ever getting clean.

Best of luck to you and I sincerely hope your situation works out.  GOD BLESS