My long running addiction...

[Ryan]

Writing this is harder than you can imagine.  

I have been addicted to narcotic painkillers for over 10 years now.  It all started when I was 16.  I'd steal a couple percocets from my grandfather's medicine cabinet.  I did this off
and on for many years without any regret or fear that I would become "truly" addicted to these things.  In the last 4 years, I ran into a steady supply of black market Vicodin ES tablets.
So my trend continued, take a handful per month to get high.  Alternating between taking my grandfather's pills and these Vicodin ES's.  

In the last 6 months, my addiction has come full swing.  I had a wisdom tooth pulled in October 99 and was fortunate (or unfortunate, you decide how to look at it) to have a dentist who
wasn't afraid to prescribe large amounts of Vicodin ES for my pain.  I manipulated him into prescribing more than 250 Vicodin ES tablets in a 45 day period.  (30 - 36 in each of 8 scripts)

After this, I've found it increasingly difficult to stay off of
these things.  I've even gone as far as to manipulate my regular
doctors to give me narcotic pain meds.  

The total irony is, I have a real condition now that requires narcotic pain medication and I can't get anyone to prescribe me
anything!! (middle back pain following lumbar puncture 2 months ago)

Make no mistake about it:  My thoughts obsess on obtaining any
hydrocodone or oxycodone containing products on a DAILY basis.
Half of it because of my 10 year habit, and the other half because of my back pain.   I AM ADDICTED.  LET THERE BE NO DOUBT!

What is my recourse?  I don't want to stay addicted to these things yet I love the feeling they give me.  It's my drug of
choice and no de-tox program is going to make me forget that
they make me feel on top of the world when I'm high!

Would I be a possible candidate for methadone treatment?  

[lady_m]

On this page click on the blue "The Addiction Forum" located above the first post.  It will take you to the forum's main page.  From there, click "Post a Question" and start a new post.

[sinkorswim]

wheres the new page?

[fishmeal]

Good lookin' out FLAddict!!

I was just about ready to comment????


There is soooomuch new out there now...

[FLaddict]

This post is from 7 years ago.. This is a very serious question.. especially with the overdose. Please repost this as a "new question" on the main page.. or add it to a post that was started today. This format here gives members the choice to see older threads like this one.. and alot of current members will not see it at all..

[sinkorswim]

im on lortab and today i overdosed. i thought i was going to die. im going to go off them cold turkey. what should i expect?

[Joe]

Yes. My thought is this.....some people need to learn the hard way. You'll see!