Need encouragement, 5 days clean after 6-12 yrs on oxy

[Loverfly14]

Today is 5 day of no oxy and all I want to do is go get an oxy right now. But they are ruining my life. I have many medical issues that have "required" pain meds for the rest of my life. I do not agree! I am strong! I've been thru hell and back from the age of 9 til I was 25 and left my husband of 9 yrs. And me a and our two girls have been doing it amazingly all alone.. But now I've been diagnosed with leukemia and having a really bad anorexia 4 months months that has caused my Crohn's disease to go completely crazy. I know my days will always have pain I just need my mind to get back to the strength it had handling it without the pills. Those pills have taken over my entire life for almost 12 years with a two year break. I want more I want better for my girls!! And I will get there one day at a time one hour at a time one minute at a time! I am already farther than I have been in 6 years!

[VICourageous]

Yahooo!!! Good Job!!

Working on staying away from these pills is hard for most, and for one like me who has used off & on for over 40yrs, I must have that Support!

You have got to be the Happiest and the most Positive person I have seen on this forum in the past 3yrs. YOU have some serious Medical issues but refuse to be a Slave to these Pills! YOU GO GIRL!!
My Hats off to You!

Bless

[Loverfly14]

Day 7 Baby! Holy crap I'm one proud momma right meow!!

[Loverfly14]

Oh honey, you got this!!! I promise you. Something that helped on the worst days, waking up n looking in the mirror n seeing my true eyes and soul grow back to me everyday... And not being alone! After day 5 was over, there's no going back!! Honey, I was at 100-200 mlgs daily of oxy, swallow snort smoke, NEVER AGAIN. My slogan right now, Lean to stay Clean.Lean on Everyone you can, even me n addictchick1983, she's amazing soul. I know.. You got this woman!!!!

[gettingmylifeback1964]

Congratulations on getting to day six and from what I have read, the worst over!  I also have many issues and have been on 90mg of oxy for 5 years.  I'm on day 3 now, so I still have the worst to come.  So please don't go back to those terrible pills.  I'm waiting for you to write about how great you feel on day 10.

[Loverfly14]

Day 6 baby..  Whoop!!! I'm so ecstatic this am.. I'm feeling so much better physically and a Lil bit mentally.. I am one proud chick this am.. I can't believe I am at 6 days .. Its amazing.. I've been blessed by a good God and good friends... Every word of encouragement from all y'all here is amazing.. Thank you EVERYONE...

[nike123456]

You can do this.  read my blog and I am positive it will give you motivation to continue.  I will pray for you and your daughters.  You are blessed and you will get thru this.  

[NeverAgain127]

You've been through a lot...that tells me you are a survivor.   Keep up the good fight, and don't give in.   Why not check out an AA or NA meeting?   You'll be surrounded by love and support.

Hugs,
-Robin

[Loverfly14]

Thank you bunches!!!! You have no clue dude!!!!

[Loverfly14]

And another one bites the dust!!! One more day is almost over and I'm on to day six! Holy Hanna today was rough! I wasn't sure I was going to make it thru today when I woke up. First thing I wanted was to go find me a pill asap. But my bestie text me and I've spent most the day at her house in between errands for my kids for school and what not, just keeping as busy as podsible, as soon as we were done I just drove to her house. No Way I was going home.... Well I'm home now in bed and hoping my rls is not like last night aa it was restless mind body n soul not just legs..and as im laying here i thank God and all the people rooting for me for the strength for one more minute, one more hour, and almost , like 20 mins, one more day. Whoop!! Go Me .  its my birthday... ( the carlton dance) Haha..

[Addictchick_1983]

Hey hey!!
  Congrats on day five!! That's something to celebrate!! You have come this far!!! You can do this!!! I'm rooting for you!! I'll say prayers!!  And stay strong with your gaurd up... That's what a kind person has told me....  Jus take it minute by minute... Hour by hour! You got this!!! We are all here if you need some encouragement... I'm on day six!! Whoop!! Lets rock this!! We will win!!!!

[Heavenawaits817tx]

Your in the heart of it right now, what your feeling right now is the worst of it.. Know it only gets better from here on out, slowly but surely. The days will stack!! Take baths after baths if you haven't already, I found those to be life savers!! Imodium for the stomach and melatonin for sleep, they'll all help with the withdrawals. You got this!!

[Loverfly14]

Thank you very much! Its a struggle for real. I've not been alone much these 5 days n when I am its miserable.. So that's exactly what I am doing. Redirection!! Thank you..

[Loverfly14]

Thank you.. Any kind words are helpful right now..

[VICourageous]

Hi Loverfly and Welcome to our Community.

YOU seem to be pretty Positive about this and that will get you far. We have many people on here that just started this Journey too. This way you are not alone. We have many who have many, many months to yrs already under there belt. I have to say in these Craving times this is the time to get to a Meeting or call a Clean friend. This Journey into our Recovery was not meant to be walked alone. Support is the Key, as it will take some working at and many New Changes in your New World out here.

Try to take a walk or read or even put in a good movie. It takes a second to think of a pill and a second to distracted your mind. These cravings are what will take time and we have to also learn new Coping Skills to succeed on toward this new Journey in Life.

Just try to re-direct yourself asap Call or get out to where you can get that Support!
Wishing you the best!
Bless

[Brock101]

Keep strong. You have the inner strength.
My prayers are with you.