Need help really in a mess and its my own fault I know!

[New2This2010]

I was addicted to Hydrocodone when I became pregnant. I informed the Dr of my addiction and he started me on a taper plan to get off them before baby is born. I started on the taper taking 3 7.5/325 Norco's per day and was on this for 3 mo. The Dr asked me how I was doing on this and I told him "to be honest I feel you have had me on the same dosage to long and now my body is starting to develop a tolerance to the current dosage".   He was just like "oh" and proceeds to go ahead and drop it down to 3 5/325 Norco's  per day in which I started having WDs as it seemed to large a drop for my system.(I knew it would be as I was already having tolerance issues to the previous dosage at which he didn't seem to pay any attention to). I informed the Dr of the trouble I was having with the dosage drop several times letting him know that I was going through WDs , but he basically was like "well I am leaving it exactly the same" and life went on. I have been told several times its very dangerous to go through WDs while preg so I did the only thing I knew to do which  was to basically take a couple extra to stay out of WDs, cause I repeadedly told him the dose was NOT working. At my last appt he informed me this was the last script he was writing and that after this month there would be no more (I am so confused if I was having trouble with the drop from 3 7.5's a day to 3 5's a day, how in the world does he think cutting me off at 15 mg a day is going to work?). At this point I don't know what to do because if I just stop cold turkey I am scared it can harm the baby, but he is not going to write me another script so I HAVE to be off it before I have the baby in (April) because I can't have it in my system when I have the baby. I am so fustrated cause I feel I have been being honest and telling him "look this dosage is not working I am still going through WDs", and he is just like "oh well" and then on top of that he is cutting it off, and at this point if I: A) Find means to get them and keep taking them to not go through WDs and risk harming the baby then when I have the baby CPS will come in and B) Just stop taking them and WD so it won't be in my system then I will risk harming the baby by going through CT WD. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I did the right thing by being honest about my addiction, and starting the taper plan, and just cause my body didn't react to his taper plan its like he doesn't want to work with me.So basically in the end even under a Dr's care I am still going to end up going through CT WDs in which I have been advised NOT to do. I am so confused, lost and scared and don't know what direction to turn. Right now I have 1 mo script left at taking 3 5's a day and after this mo no more. I know I can't just run out and jump off at 15 mg so I feel like I need to figure out a taper plan, but the 3 5's arn't even enough to keep me out of WDs as it is, but I have to get off by March 18th (last day I'll have pills at 3 a day). Sorry so long, but if anyone has any advice or experiece please help! I really want to get off cause I don't want my baby going through WDs and I sure don't want CPS coming in, but at the same time I don't want to CT and risk hurting him that way either. I feel like I am in a no win situation.

[carson1975]

Hi doll listen to Vicki she is very good!! U can't get off whit out any w/d I don't think ! I hope u have very little for u and your baby's sake! Come her and well talk with u and help any way we can. Get u some Gatorade and bananas some healthy foods to keep you going this month and keep drinking! U can do this for u and your little one if u feel it's to much go to the ER to get checked out I wish u and your baby the very best god bless u

[vicki595]

Hi-- Sorry you're feeling so badly here. The doctor's orders trump everything we could tell you here. He's in charge of you and your baby and I,personally,would defer to him.

It really sounds like that's a good taper plan,to me. You may get some unpleasant feelings but that's what tapering is. You're tapering and adjusting the entire time you're decreasing the dose. Once you begin a taper,it's not wise to go back up so don't do that.
I think what he has you doing is really the best way.  What would you want him to do?
There's not a lot of time to play with and you need to be one month clean. The best thing for you would be to get some support for yourself, stay hydrated, and stick to the plan.
I'm sure it's not what you want to hear but that's the reality.