It really sounds like you need to stop fighting againced the Painkillers,take enough so you feel better,and deal with Addiction and with your illnessness as best as you can make the Doctors perform,you are run down and depressed at the moment,I am not sure exactly what you are taking but get somemore into you and feel good for a while,I told you I think ,once,that I was 10 seconds from killing myself before I asked for gods help and the spiritual part was uplifting enough to carry me,through,but I only asked once.It is an emergency thing to me,please do not be afraid of death as only the body/brain dies the consciousness persists,that is your soul and your low spirits are from depression it effects how you emotionally feel your soul,you can rise above it.
We all eventually die and if you are pain free,at the time,it is a beautiful experience,the beginning of a new life,in a new body.trust me I know.We are all one,just separated by our bodies.
If you cannot get adequate pain control,its not like I can send you a letter(package) or something,is it?,that is not a long term solution,I think you will feel a bit better soon,hang there mate,the sun will shine again soon.
I guess I said that once. In God's time, not ours! I'm only human and sometimes I forget. I sit here and think about all the things I want to do everyday only to be let down by my body's illness. I get so disappointed when I get tired so easily these days! It's hard to even sit and express my thoughts anymore. I don't even know when I'm making sense because of all the meds I have to take. Please pray for me because I've asked God for too much already and don't even know what's in store for me next. I'm afraid of death but I know it is on the way. I've never felt like this before. I don't want to go,yet. Pain,weakness and exhaustion are distorting my senses and spirit. J.B.
The old testament is truly the words of god,my task may be in the transliteration to the benefit of some humans,god only knows?,I just have a compass in my head and it always points to the benefit of all,in the long term,in the future.
I shall/have sown a seed and future generations may reap the harvest.My life is not important,other than for this purpose.
Note,this has never happened before,they cannot stop what I have started now,the truth has become lies,but the seed of knowledge,I have sown,the doubt in our minds,will eventually burst forth such that the truth that it encapsulates turns lies to stone and their is no turning back except to peer upon your own death.
Laughing....smiling.....grinning....."Oh what words of experience!" Life is a journey and an experience un-folding, interpreted in our own unique minds. If only we could all "SEE" as some do.
You truly possess a gift. Anyone reading your memoirs, can "SEE" this. I would love to set before you on the day you realize your "true-calling", when...where... and how...Only remains to be seen in the times ahead. You are ascending...the direction is ahead. Keep seeking, proving, and experiencing. Life is only in the blink of an eye.....In God's Time! Our purposes will be revealed in His time. Not ours...right JB??
Annie
Yes Dihydrocodeine(DF118) is very similar to Hydrocodone also known as-(dihydrocodeinone)but as you can see the Hydrocodone has a Ketone group ie ends in "one" NOT "ine",this ketone group on the #6 OH of (DF118)increases potency by a factor of 8 to Codeine and of course `qualitativ`e increases make for a much cleaner,sweeter more lucid euphoria yee ha!!!!!.
Doses below for non-tolerant ,but NOT Opioid naive individuals!!
1.So a single dose of 300mg of Codeine(ORAL) give a high,pretty crappy really.
2.180mg Dihydrocodeine(aspirin removed)single(ORAL)gives not a bad little tickle.
3.40mg of Dihrocodeinone(IV)or even Oral provides a `very` nice feeling,not quite good enough to devote your life to it.
4.10mg Diacetylmorphine(Heroin)(IV)is a bit better than 3. but nothing to write home about(or phone ET about).
5.30mg Oxycodone provides better rush than Heroin (IV)10mg,30mg Orally,rapidly acting nice rush better than 3.brief effect.
6.Oxymorphone 3mg (IV) better rush than Heroin,orally try 10 mg excellent,relatively brief~4hrs
7.(DESIGNER DRUG SERIES RESEARCH ONLY)(14-hydroxy,7,8-Dihydro,3-acetyl,6-morphinone)2mg (IV)instant obsessional addiction,"threatened"homicidal acts to get supplies after a single dose,absolute ectasy,profound change in meaning and purpose of life,makes XTC look like Codeine is to Heroin,very dangerous,incredibly addictive.Not RECOMMENDED "EVER" even under strict supervision.
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First we must realize no man or woman is an island and second we must not burn our bridges behind us,I found a Paradise in Lombok east of Bali in indonesia,I swear I got higher their naturally than from any drug,sitting back looking at a Volcano on the mainland of Lombok from my Coral atoll,all the luscious food one could want $3- US per day accomodation included,Swim in warm tropical sunshine and look at beautiful coral reefs,make love to Muslim girls,fallen pray to materialism,but they enjoy the sex and are insulted by money,they want to marry you???????/they are georgous and I never(seriously) hurt any of them,they knew I must be leaving,on a big jet plane don`t know when I will back again,so the song goes.My life could have taken many paths,But Paradise is not for me,not while people suffer,My life is written in the stars,it is where our sun came from in the first place.I have found islands of paradise in my mind,but reality calls me back to sobriety everytime,maybe their is a purpose for my life and I am slowly unravelling it,it was so simple,thats why I could not see it.
Thanks for the info. It sounds like the dihydrocodiene is similar to hydrocdone but I'm no chemist. Drug laws are very strange! You say that this is OTC in Australia, in the UK it is schedule II and in the USA it would probably be schedule III. I guess the Tylenol content has something to do with that? In my own state, you can still buy codiene cough syrup OTC but it is RX only in most other states. I remember a pharmacist telling me several years ago that he thought Vicodin would go OTC in a few years! Hah,hah!
I'd sure like to know where that island is that I could go on a chemical holiday. I've been fighting my pain for so long that I feel I need "the island". J.B.