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No where to turn
I am new to this forum, or any forum for that fact. I found this site by googling oxy withdrawals. I have a doctors appt. March 3rd to see if I can get suboxone. The 3rd is a long ways away!! I have been on oxycodone and methadone for over three years. The longest I have been off of these drugs has been two days, thats all I can take. This is the first time I have ever wrote about this, the only person that knows how sever my problem is, is my husband.
I started taking the drug for recreation, I liked the way they made me feel.. Now, I need them just to start my day. They are no longer for recreation, they are essential for my survival. I would rather die, (and I don't consider my self suicidal at all) then go through the withdrawals.
I have taken other drugs (for recreation) such as meth and cocaine, and would much rather go through those withdrawals then go through the withdrawal of oxycodones and methadones.
I am hoping that suboxone will help get me off these. I have nowhere else to turn, nowhere to go.
I dont want to sit here and list the endless list of withdrawal symptoms, if you've been in my shoes you know what I'm talking about. Its the most horrible thing I have ever gone through. I don't even think there are words to describe going through the symptoms, other then its just unbearable.
Any suggestions for me till the 3rd?? Im in a panic mode. Talking only helps to a point, what do I do about the physical withdrawals? Thanks for reading and any help thats offered!
I started taking the drug for recreation, I liked the way they made me feel.. Now, I need them just to start my day. They are no longer for recreation, they are essential for my survival. I would rather die, (and I don't consider my self suicidal at all) then go through the withdrawals.
I have taken other drugs (for recreation) such as meth and cocaine, and would much rather go through those withdrawals then go through the withdrawal of oxycodones and methadones.
I am hoping that suboxone will help get me off these. I have nowhere else to turn, nowhere to go.
I dont want to sit here and list the endless list of withdrawal symptoms, if you've been in my shoes you know what I'm talking about. Its the most horrible thing I have ever gone through. I don't even think there are words to describe going through the symptoms, other then its just unbearable.
Any suggestions for me till the 3rd?? Im in a panic mode. Talking only helps to a point, what do I do about the physical withdrawals? Thanks for reading and any help thats offered!
Hi Amanda,
Please don't go to the doctor on the 3rd. You can be past all of this by then. You may only be tempted to get other meds by then. You're already into the withdrawals. Why go throught this horrible time again?
You recognize the problem and are reaching out for help by coming here, The doctor won't help you if you become weak by then and ask for pills just to get you out of this misery. Truth is that the worst will be over by then, then you're starting back at square one.
Please don't go to the doctor on the 3rd. You can be past all of this by then. You may only be tempted to get other meds by then. You're already into the withdrawals. Why go throught this horrible time again?
You recognize the problem and are reaching out for help by coming here, The doctor won't help you if you become weak by then and ask for pills just to get you out of this misery. Truth is that the worst will be over by then, then you're starting back at square one.
im so sorry to hear about your dog. i am a huge dog lover and also have 3. they are spoiled rotten. things will get better soon, hang in there.
Thank you all for your words of great encouragement. I have to admit, last night was awful! So bad that I did not get any sleep so restless and so depressed... During this time of trying to get clean we lost one of our three dogs to a horrible animal attack and she was killed. I did "fall" this morning, with all the sadness and grief it was just to unbearable to take. I dont feel all is lost. I still have my appt. on the 3rd of March. I just need to take one day at a time till I can get to the 3rd. The days seem to just slowly and painfully go on.
Nice to meet you Amanda, welcome to the forum. So you had some Percs 2 days ago, so you're still basically only on day 2 without any opiates. Sorry, but tommorrow may be your worst day. But you can get thru it. Any crazy thoughts that may run thru your head, remember they are temporary and will go away. Most of us have gone thru withdrawals before, some of us many times and know how hard they can be. But alot of us also know it is so worth the misery. You will be alright. Keep posting, we're all here to help you get thru this.
You have the worlds best help here and if you have a supportive hubby then you have the first line of defense that you wont use again. These are my Angels without them I could not have made it. You are doing great 4 days seemed like a lifetime to me, now on day 20 tomorrow.
This is great...Day 4 is HUGE....really.....you have come a long way since your first post.....I agree...have faith. You don't want to go back now.......You will feel so much better with that **** out of your body.
Hang in there amanda!
Hang in there amanda!
YOU CAN DO THIS!!! Tomorrow will be day 3 w/nothing...and in a few more days things will turn around...just keep posting and talking to us. I know this s***s , but you will NOT die...it just feels like it!
Keep going and don't LQQK back...leave this nightmare behind you ...
LQQK ahead for the light at the ens of the tunnel......
Hang in there...........stay with us...we'll help you thru this!!!
Keep going and don't LQQK back...leave this nightmare behind you ...
LQQK ahead for the light at the ens of the tunnel......
Hang in there...........stay with us...we'll help you thru this!!!
No, you won't screw it up. Your on day 4, and some of your symptoms are already easing, by the sounds. That is so great. I know how hard it is...it's probably one of the hardest things that you will ever have to do. But, your almost there...so close. Days 5 or 6 is when most people start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I know that you feel like that your just hanging on by the very tips of your fingernails & will fall at any moment. But, you won't fall. Just keep 'hanging in there'. My Mom always said this to me when I was having a hard time with something; 'And this too, shall pass..' And it will. Keep posting...you have alot of support here..
You can do it..You can stay strong and not use these things..They suck the life out of you as you can tell, you don't need this anymore..I wish i could tell you something that makes it all better, but you have put your body though hell for as long as you been doing this, your body needs to just go through this and end it. Wait, Just wait it out and do it..Stay strong and confide in your husband, i'd hope he is there for you--it always helps to have someone to lean on. Please stay strong, you can do this. If i can, you can..trust me..I am 16 days clean, today is 17 and i am just taking it one day at a time, just get past this you can do it!!!
congrats on the 4 days. have some faith in yourself girl, your not going to cave, that is the addiction talking. your not going to screw this up. you are so early in recovery that i know it is hard right now, but so far your doing great. life is so much better being clean. hang in there.
remember that glimmer of hope right now just gets brighter and brighter.
remember that glimmer of hope right now just gets brighter and brighter.
Well its been 4 days off oxycodones, 4 days off of any methodones, and and 2 days off of percocets, I feel a little dizzy and still occasionally experience the tingly, hot sensation on the top of my head, but no where near as much. Mostly just dizzy. I can sometimes feel a little glimmer of hope though all this. Im afraid Im going to cave. I know myself to much, I know Im going to screw this up.
Once day 5 hits it is a huge turning point. It won't be over, but you will be so much closer. If you made it to day 4 before, you can make it to day 5. Just please be careful. If it gets too bad, go and get help. You don't want to do anything to hurt yourself. Just try to do things to keep your mind occupied. I started doing puzzles about 3 weeks ago. I never thought I'd enjoy puzzles! I hadn't done one since I was like 8! It really does help keep your mind of things. The mental part is so difficult because it is so hard not to think about the pills. Just try and find something to keep from thinking of them. Just stay strong. Come on here and type away whenever you want. It helps so much venting and everyone on here is willing to listen! All of this will be over before you know it! We are all here for you!
Brian
Brian
Please hang in there. I know its hard. But the hard physical part will be over soon. And then you will start to feel better. To start using now would only mean the next time you want to quit you would have to do this over again. Take hot baths and drink a lot of fluids. You're almost there!! Keep posting, it really helps. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
Thanks all for your great posts!
Today is my first day without anything, Im already feeling the burning sensation in my head and its driving me crazy. Nothing sounds good, I dont feel like laying down, I dont feel like getting up. I cant still and all I can think about is how to end these feelings. I prayed last night for god to just take me. I called in sick today because I just cannot deal with going in. I have actually considered looking on the streets to get me out of this, just start asking random people till I finally get something. What is stopping me is all the strange looks and reactions I would for sure get by making a huge fool of myself.
I just now took a shower for the first time in two days, gross I know but thats how bad I feel. I just dont care.
I have only gotten about 3 hours of sleep and I have no appetite. My last day of taking any oxycodones was Saturday, and I only had two. Way lower then what I normally take and no Methodones since Friday. Sunday and Monday I only had 3 percocets for each day. The longest I have gone was two days without any pain pills in a year, so I know what tomorrow will be like for sure. I know I'm in trouble. The last time I tried to quit I had to go to a inpatient mental hospital because of suicide thoughts. I threatened to shoot myself. That was a year ago in December. And it was only 4 days off.
Today is my first day without anything, Im already feeling the burning sensation in my head and its driving me crazy. Nothing sounds good, I dont feel like laying down, I dont feel like getting up. I cant still and all I can think about is how to end these feelings. I prayed last night for god to just take me. I called in sick today because I just cannot deal with going in. I have actually considered looking on the streets to get me out of this, just start asking random people till I finally get something. What is stopping me is all the strange looks and reactions I would for sure get by making a huge fool of myself.
I just now took a shower for the first time in two days, gross I know but thats how bad I feel. I just dont care.
I have only gotten about 3 hours of sleep and I have no appetite. My last day of taking any oxycodones was Saturday, and I only had two. Way lower then what I normally take and no Methodones since Friday. Sunday and Monday I only had 3 percocets for each day. The longest I have gone was two days without any pain pills in a year, so I know what tomorrow will be like for sure. I know I'm in trouble. The last time I tried to quit I had to go to a inpatient mental hospital because of suicide thoughts. I threatened to shoot myself. That was a year ago in December. And it was only 4 days off.
Be strong and try and ease your mind with pleasent thoughts. Sometimes we are our own worst enemy and our head is the worst place to be. Keep strong and keep on posting
Thanks so much for all of your support.
I ran out of my normal pain pills and have been taking percacet (sure I spelt that wrong). My normal choice is two oxycodones, 5mg each and one methadone, also 5mg, in the morning, two more oxy's in the afternoon and then again in the evening.
I don't really want to take the suboxone with all the stuff I have read. I've read its pretty nasty. But 5-7 days, good lord!!
I have one more percacet and thats it. Im not the type to go looking for it on the street, so I wont get anymore till the end of the week. I do not want to even take anymore, but I know thats all I will be able to think about. What's going makes this so bad is I have to work, there's no way out of it. Im a cashier, there's nothing worse then going to work feeling like that. Oh, this is so bad
I ran out of my normal pain pills and have been taking percacet (sure I spelt that wrong). My normal choice is two oxycodones, 5mg each and one methadone, also 5mg, in the morning, two more oxy's in the afternoon and then again in the evening.
I don't really want to take the suboxone with all the stuff I have read. I've read its pretty nasty. But 5-7 days, good lord!!
I have one more percacet and thats it. Im not the type to go looking for it on the street, so I wont get anymore till the end of the week. I do not want to even take anymore, but I know thats all I will be able to think about. What's going makes this so bad is I have to work, there's no way out of it. Im a cashier, there's nothing worse then going to work feeling like that. Oh, this is so bad
It sounds as though you are already suffering from the widrawl symptoms? Is this correct? If so then believe me... most of us have been in your shoes. If you have taken your last pills then how long has it been? If you have to go until the 3rd without any oxy then I would say that you would not need to go the Suboxone route. However, if you are still medicating yourself until the 3rd then you may want to consider it.
The withdrawls are going to be merciless for the first 3-5 days and then thing will start to lighten up. You need to be prepared for this mentally because you're gonna feel like ****. Unfortunately there is no way around this but there are ways to make it more tolerable. You nee to get through the first week and do whatever it takes go end this cycle of taking these pills. Your whole outlook will change after 5-7 days and even more so the longer you go without taking these pills. You will start to laugh again and you will rediscover the real you. Keep posting here... We are here for you and want to help you through this.
Trout
The withdrawls are going to be merciless for the first 3-5 days and then thing will start to lighten up. You need to be prepared for this mentally because you're gonna feel like ****. Unfortunately there is no way around this but there are ways to make it more tolerable. You nee to get through the first week and do whatever it takes go end this cycle of taking these pills. Your whole outlook will change after 5-7 days and even more so the longer you go without taking these pills. You will start to laugh again and you will rediscover the real you. Keep posting here... We are here for you and want to help you through this.
Trout
I've heard people here talking about the thomas recipe...I found out too late to help myself, and suffered dearly throught eh w/d's. But now I know how much damage the oxycodone was really doing to my body. I'm clean 10 1/2 days now. WOW....it's crazy what I've been through. I hope you can do it....it was hard. It was painful. It still makes me tear up to think about it....google the thomas recipe.....or go through some of the posts in the first 3 pages. I know I've seen it on here. Good luck
If you can slowly taper until your appointment, it won't hurt and would probably help.
Hi....I hope you keep it up. I was a Lortab user myself and never taken oxy....was way too scared, but you can do it. You will make great friends here and get great advice as Cathy said.....she is obviously one of those great people! Keep reading and posting. Best of luck!
hi and welocome to the forum...you will get great advice here and make plenty of friends. you are right about the oxy withdrawls i am 61 days free of them. but in addition to say how bad the withdrawals are they are worth it. every morning i wake and am so thankful i do not have to hunt pills or fell stressed cuz i am gonna run out this afternoon...you know what i am talkin about. the withdrawals last about 7 days n thats nothing compared to the rest of your life. everytime i thought about caving in to the cravings, i thought about my grandbaby and how i wanted to be sober and see him grow up or thought about my poor hubby and all i put him through, or thought about how my house payment was made cuz i didn't but any pills. so in the broad scope of things, withdrawal was really a good thing. sorry about the long post i just wanted you to see the other side.
cathy
cathy
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