Lucy:
Your nose will heal, but you need help with this dependency on cocaine. There will ALWAYS be a "good" reason to get high. Life is a serious of great things and bad things.
I know you didn't ask for help with cocaine use, but this is a forum for people in recovery. Do you want to stop for good? Cocaine is absolutely awful for the body; especially your heart. So many of my rock-n-roll heros from the 1970's and 1980's are dying young from heart attacks...and it's directly related from years of cocaine abuse when they were younger. David Bowie had a heart attack right on stage about 15 year ago---he was a coke-head.
Think about things Lucy..and it you want to stop permanently, come back here..there is a TON of support. Good luck.
I have stopped for now. I know my nose needs to heal and I'm hoping that if I stay off because of this I won't want to go back.
And it wasn't a family member making me, it was a year anniversary recently of a close family members death. Just not been in a good place
I will say use some vasaline in your nose, coat the inside if raw do that it can heal a bit faster. But i too am a bit stumped with question....did i read a family member is MAKING u do more coke than normal?
You should be fine by stopping your use of cocaine. You said you are staying off the cocaine now. Does that mean for good?